Printable View
I'm like Robin. I'm afraid to loose my mom, and even my dad. I guess I started REALLY getting afraid when we almost lost my dad. Before that I was never afraid of death. But now. I'm just plain scared. I'm actually afraid to go to sleep at night, I'm so afraid I'm not going to wake up. ya know?
Just really scary because who knows how long we all have on Earth. we could be gone today, tomorrow, or 30 years from now.
I'm not afraid of dying so much as dying ALONE. I'm hoping that my karma has improved enough in this life that when I come back it will be even better. I don't want to die in pain and I don't want to not have my wits about me. I usually don't think about it, I try to live in the now and live life to its fullist. :)
I think that's what I fear the VERY MOST is dying alone!!Quote:
I'm not afraid of dying so much as dying ALONE
When my Dad passed away, I had a memorial service for him (against his wishes, but it gave ME closure). I put an announcement in the newspaper. He was a very well know news photographer and had many friends, was a past member of the Connecticut Governor's Horse Guard. What I hurt me so much and I found so very disapointing was that a total of 10 people showed up. TEN PEOPLE!!!!! I still cry everytime I think about that because he did so much in his life. Not even my mother's sisters came!!! Even after he took their father (my grandfather) who was a very bad alcoholic, in to live with us!!!
I'm sorry, I have to sign off now. :( :( Didn't mean to upset anyone.
I want to stay young forever. I can't see myself getting to be a grandma or anything. I can only see myself in my 20's.:D