:( Aly, prayers and good thoughts be with you. Your Peka knows how very much you love her. BIG HUG We'll all be thinking of you. God Bless.
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:( Aly, prayers and good thoughts be with you. Your Peka knows how very much you love her. BIG HUG We'll all be thinking of you. God Bless.
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I add my voice to all the other ones who told you not to think for a minute that you are a horrible person. If we are always saying that any decisions we make should be for the welfare of our pets, you are the one who knows now it's time to let her go on her way to the Rainbow Bridge because you love her.
You made the last year of her life a happy one, and while she plays, without any more pain, at the Bridge she'll remember that.
I had to make the same decision for my first Golden because her cancer had taken over her body and I could not stay with her either. I was alone and was afraid the vet would have to pick me up from the floor if I'd stayed.
I'll be thinking of you and sending many loving thoughts your way.
Have a safe trip, darling Peka...
Dear Aly ~
Our Thoughts and Prayers are with You and Peka today.
God will Bless you :) for sending Angel Peka to Him.
/s/ Phred
Dear Aly,
Words can't say enough how awful I feel for you and Peka. She knows, like we know, her health and well being is first in your mind. Go easy, sweet Peka, and wait for mommy at RB!
Hugs,
Johanna
Her appointment is 5pm Friday.
Don't know what else to dsay. I don't think I'm strong enough to g o through this. I don't know if 'I'm doing the right thing anymore.
If you look to your heart and to Peka, the answer will come. I believe that if Peka does not have quality of life, then you are doing the right thing. We love you and are here for you at this difficult time. For now, just be with Peka as much as you can and know that she loves you too, in her own way.
Aly, it is time. You know it, Peka knows it, God knows it. Since you love her best, you must be the one to set her free, BECAUSE you love her. As you've described, Peka's quality of life has failed. No matter how much we hate for that to happen, it still does. That's life.... and sadly, death. You have given Peka, in the the short time that you've had her, the love of a lifetime! If it weren't for you, she would have never known love. She may act aloof because she never knew love before you came along and never learned how to accept it and give it back. Maybe she doesn't like to be held because she hurts. In her way, she loves you very much and knows you love her.
It is time now. If you cannot be with her, she will not fault you. Being present at the final moments takes an unbearable amount of strength that sometimes just can't be suffered. She will still love you. It doesn't mean that you love her less. No one blames you. Don't ever think that anyone does.
My thoughts and prayers will be with you and Peka tomorrow. Soon she will be painfree and running with the best of them at the PetTalk area of Rainbow Bridge. Hugs.
My thoughts and heart are with you.
{{{Hugs}}}
Karen
Aly, hold your head up high and love that girl to the last possible minute. She may not be Reese or Loli in her disposition, but you have extended her life and given her as much love as she has probably ever experienced. That's a lot, my friend.
And you are being courageous and keeping Peka in the forefront by making this decision. I'm just sorry that one or more of us can't be there with you.
Logan
Dear Aly ~
We'll ALL be there with You, and Dear Peka, on Friday.
Not able to give you both a physical {Hug};
but we'll be with you in Spirit...
Be strong Aly, and KNOW that you're doing what's best for Peka.
Safe Trip to The Bridge, Dear Peka!
/s/ Phred
Godspeed,Dear Peka!!!!
You have known The Greatest Kind of Love...The Selfless acts of Aly...You know this Sweet Peka....Have a Safe Trip OverThe Bridge...And Run Pain Free with all of Our Dear Departed Ones!!!
Peka and Aly,You are in our Prayers
I dont know if I can do this :(
{{{{{{{{{{{{{ALY}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
Oh, Aly, I am so sorry you are going through this. It is hard. My thoughts and prayers are with you today.
Aly, I COULDN'T do it for Avalanche, but I guess I should have. I was waiting for that "miracle" that didn't happen.Quote:
Originally posted by aly
I dont know if I can do this :(
Look into Peka's eyes.....look at her actions........ She will tell you.
Our hearts and souls are with you today. If you feel that you can not, then don't. What do the doctors say??
((Aly & Peka))
The vets support my decision. They say she is really sick, but I am the only one who can measure her quality of life since I am the one who lives with her.
Peka's eyes are sad and she just doesn't seem to have a life anymore. She still walks around fine and loves to eat. But .. when I look into her eyes ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, :(
She does sleep in her own pee and some other weird things.
If I don't go through with it, it will be for selfish reasons I'm afraid. I think I need to make myself. The vet techs and vets where I'm taking her are very dear people. I didn't go to sleep last night and my eyes are burning from crying.
I feel like slashing my own tires for an excuse not to be able to go :(
Aly, just as you can see the pain in Peka's eyes don't you think Reece, Lolly and Peka too, can see the pain in YOUR eyes :( Step up, do what you have to do then sit with your other babies and let them comfort you as only they can do. We love you.
And more hugs for you Aly!
6 more hours :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(
Aly, you can't do this to yourself, it's only making it 100x more difficult for you. You are doing the right thing... go read your first post in this thread. That is no way for a dog to go on. It is Peka's time... as hard as that may be, it is her time. She owes a lot to you and in her own special way, loves you and thanks you for it. But now it's time for her to go on to a place where she's happy and without any pain...
Let her go, Aly...
(((((((((((((((((((((Aly)))))))))))))))))))))))
Aly sending so many {{{{hugs}}}} your way.
I didn't make it to the vet room when we had Caramel put to sleep. Steve took him on his own, I just held Milly, George close to me and wept.
It is sad to know that Peka's time has come to the end but you are doing the right thing.
You are giving the last loving gift any owner can give a beloved pet....dignified death.
Peka knows you love her (excuse me being blunt) but it will make no difference to her if you are there in the room with her or not. She will drift painlessly to sleep and onto the Bridge.
Do not feel guilty, feel proud of the difference you made to her life.
Bless you for your kind heart & loving nature.
If not for you, Peka would have had a very different life.
Aly, I am so sorry. Please don't torture yourself like this. Know that you are doing the right thing, the best thing for Peka.
I went through the same thing with my beloved RB Pepper - a black toy poodle. He was so sick and I kept him on painkillers for longer than I should have (mainly to wait till my mother got back from a trip to Germany so she could say goodbye). Anyway, I remember waiting that day as the hours went by till the appointment. I almost went insane and made myself miserable. Don't do it to yourself.
I'm sending you all the hugs and support I can. You are a wonderful person and this is just another way you can help Peka.
Aly, if I could magically fly down to you and be there I would. I guess 5pm your time is 3pm my time, so I will say a silent prayer for you and Peka at that time.
Hugs to you.
luv
Gosh - of course you're not horrible! You did a wonderful and selfless thing by taking her in and providing her with a loving home during her final days. If you can't be there when she goes to sleep, then that's completely understandable.
How are you doing now?
I'm not doing too well. I don't handle death well. Adnd I've never had to make this decision and its killing me. I keep going back and forth.
One of my friends who I always confide in when Peka has problems called me and siad it is harder on me than it is on her and that sometimes death is the best thing. i think her words are sort of sinking in and i know what i have to do.
i'm glad i have my foster puppies to come home to. they help me. even thoguh i'm bringing peka's life to an end, the puppies are 2 lives that i helped bring into this world since they were a day old.
skylar is also glued to my side. my own dogs are staying with my parents right now so i can concentrate on peka without stressing my dogs out. they're both too sensitive and they hate it when i'm upset.
slick - your prayer will mean the world to me . i need all the strength and prayers i can get. peka is the strong one . she's such a fighter. i think she will be happy to be at lpeace. i hope :(
You and Peka are both in my prayers. Tonight, Samantha and I will say one together.Quote:
Originally posted by aly
i need all the strength and prayers i can get. peka is the strong one . she's such a fighter. i think she will be happy to be at lpeace. i hope :(
And you're right - Peka will be so happy once she's at peace... you've got all the PTers with pets who have passed sending messages to them to help Peka out and I know they will. I'll even let Rags know (died in 1993). I'm not good with death either and I know I'll be a total basketcase when Samantha's time comes, but just know that all the PTers here are supporting you and you have lots of love and kindness surrounding you. God bless you for what you did, Aly. You truly are very special.
AHHH! It is torture....I went through this recently myself... hardest thing i have EVER EVER EVER x10000000 done in my life. I really didnt think I would live through it, but here I am today, to say that you will. She will live on in your memory, accomplishing what all dogs, I believe, are put here to do...and thats to capture the heart of one special person...and in HER life, that one person was you. Feel honored that your path's crossed and you were privlaged with her prescence for the time you were.
***Hugs*** to you... it WILL be okay.
Email me if you like... im at work right now, but check email regularly. [email protected].
Im really trying not to break down here at work.
Believe me, believe all of us that have been through it, we KNOW.
Oh, Aly, I so feel for you, I know how heartbreakingly hard it is. Take courage and let Peka go dear lady, and know that all of us are sending many prayers and much love for you and Peka on this sad day.
Hugs
Chris
The waiting is torture. I remember setting the time when making the appointment. I remember how hard it was leading up to that time. I remember staring at the clock and thinking, only so many hours left. I also remember feeling a little bit of relief when it was done. I had some closure and could begin to grieve.
My heart goes out to you. I will pray for your strength during this difficult time. And remember, we're all here for you.
Aly, does Peka have a favorite food or a favorite activity? In these last few hours, maybe you could let her relish in her favorites. I think (for Sara at least) skritches, walks, tennis balls, and food are equated to love. Maybe let her gorge herself in the usual "limited" foods, ie ham, turkey, whatever her treats are. Pet her beyond belief and maybe take her for a walk (if she's up to it).I'm sure you're already doing some of these, but if not, just a suggestion.
{{love & prayers for you both}}
I've just seen this thread & I can't help but cry:(
I don't blame you for your decision. You've been
a wonderful friend to her for the last year of her
life. I can't imagine that she could have been
happier with anyone else.
I will be thinking of you and Peka as she journies
to the RB.
{{{{{HUGS}}}} To you Aly
Aly, If you need me call me. I mean it. I understand how you're feeling.
I hope it's ok with you, I asked my Dad to meet Peka there and show her the ropes. He loved dogs and will warmly welcome her and keep her with him until the day you're tired and ready to go home, too. :)
I know the time is near...just wanted you to know I am thinking of you and Peka.
I was doing OK until I read this. Now I'm crying for you, Micki, and Peka. A little over a half an hour to go. My prayers have started.Quote:
Originally posted by micki76
I hope it's ok with you, I asked my Dad to meet Peka there and show her the ropes. He loved dogs and will warmly welcome her and keep her with him until the day you're tired and ready to go home, too. :)
:( I'll be praying for you both. Be strong aly and please know that you let her life become the fullest. You showed her love and compassion.
*HUGS*
Peka, when you get there, remember that your mommy loves you very much. Say hi to all those pet talk pups who've passed on.
My heart is with Peka and you, aly.
{{{{{{{{{Aly & Peka}}}}}}}}}}
Please don't feel badly about not staying with her. Some people just can't be there when it happens and that's ok.
Personally I stay with my critters, but Chris cannot. It's too hard for him and that's fine.
Take care of yourself and we're all here for you. Sweet Peka had a whole long year with you and that's a loooong time for a puppers.