She's Gone

I don't know what else to say.
Alyson, words cannot express how much gratitude I can tell you for doing that forme. It is beautiful.
I made myself go to work, I knew if I stayed home I would just sit and cry all night. And I have been off since 9-4-01. Everyone was very supportive. One of the girls brought me a single red rose, and another brought me candy. :) My little fancy faced angel, is watching over me now. I just hope she knows how much I loved and miss her.
I pray she didn't suffer, the people at work and I agree that she must not have had epilepsy, we think she may have had an anuerysm. So much blood, I threw away 2 dish towels, a bath towel, and a half of roll of paper towels.
She didn't want for anything. She knew she had a good home and many people who loved her including all of you. Now she is with all your furbabies, at the bridge.
Logan, I am crying now, again, Shaianne came from out local humane society, she wasn't a ex racer. If you still wish to give a memorial, you can send it to your local Humane Soc, or the nearest greyhound rescue. Shaianne and I will be honored. :) Thank you.
Karen, your poem is wonderful. Thank you.
Once again, Thank you all, I will keep you posted on how Kylie and I are doing.

Hi Staci, I can't sleep very well tonight. I keep thinking of you and I just jumped out of bed to remind you that your local SPCA probably has a pet loss support group. Just an idea in case you hadn't thought of it. It may help you a little.

Also here's an article about surviving pet loss and it gives 10 things you can do to help you feel better: http://www.pet-loss.net/surviving.html

I wrote a message in the guest book on Aly's page. I don't think the whole thing printed out so I am repeating it here.

Oh, dear sweet Shai, we will miss you so much. What fun you and your Mama had. What joy you brought her. She loved you so much. Now you have another job to do..to help her heal her grief of losing you. That is a big one, but I know you do not want her to suffer so. Please try hard so that some day another sweetheart can be loved by her again. And please remember to take my message to Bailey and Tizzie, okay? I have something to admit. I never really cared for greyhounds until I met you. You were the one who won me over and did it in a big way because I just fell in love with the sweet Shaianne.

My heart has gone out to you. I am so sorry for your loss. But your mom is right. She is there, helping the people that have lost their lives. You know, there was an eleven year old boy on the plane that went done in Penn. Maybe God thought he needed someone special to play with?

I'll be praying for you as you deal with your grief. Email me if you need anything.

I just wanted to tell all of you that I am doing much better. I went and visited her grave yesterday and my dad made a cross for her with her name on it. We all cried (mom,dad and I). Yesterday at the county fair, the local humane soc brought in a little (40 lbs) fawn greyhound. She looked just like Shaianne except for she didn't have Shai's pretty face. She was sooooo little!! Skinny. She came from the same place Shai did the coon dog trials in my home county. She was so scared and nervous. A couple people asked me if I was going to go get her, and I said no. She was too much like Shaianne. I don't want to replace her with one that looks just like her. I do want to get another dog but its to soon. I talked to a friend of mine that works at the HS and he said to come in sometime and they would get me fixed up!!!
One of my friends came over last night, and she said its so strange coming into my house without her.
Thank you to all of you who sent me e-cards. They were beautiful. And Aly everyone I show the site too doesn't have a dry eye!! You are awesome.[B]You all are!!! The BEST!

Thank you Aly for giving us all a place in which to share our love for Staci and Shaianne.

Staci, please know how much we all loved beautiful Shaianne. What a special girl she is. What a wonderful, loving mom you were to her. Blees you angel Shai. Your light now graces Heaven and all those need your gentleness and love. Love, Sandra

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For Gio, Staci, and everyone who has lost a precious furkid.
God Bless Our Pets

They say memories are golden
Well, yes, this may be true
I never wished for memories
I only wanted you

A million times I needed you
A million times I cried
If love alone could save you
You never would have died

In life I loved you dearly
In death I love you still
In my heart you hold a special place
No one can ever fill

If tears could build a stairway
And heartache pave a lane
I'd walk the path to heaven
And bring you back again

Our family chain is broken
And nothing seems the same
But as God calls us one by one
The chain will link again

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Staci I am so glad you are doing better. I agree, it is too soon for another dog, but when you are ready, he or she will really help you out. And you always have us here at Pet Talk, hundreds of ready shoulders for you to cry on :)

Staci,
I am so sorry about Shaianne. I can only imagine the pain and grief you are going through. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this most difficult time.
:(

Just wanted to let all of you know that I am doing better. I still miss her so much it hurts, and if wasn't for this little white furball of an angel in Kylie, I would completely lose my mind. She is so sweet.
I also had to tell you what my nephew said.
When my sister told him about her he asked why (he's 4) and she said " Well Jesus was lonely up in heaven and Shai was sick and we didn't know it, so he decided to take her now so she wouldn't be sick anymore and she would help all the people that died on Tues." He said "OK, well can you tell Aunt Stac that I wanna help her pick out the next one!" Then on Mon I was talking to him and he said "Aunt Stace, are you gonna get another puppy?" I said "Well sometime" I could hear my sister in the background "shhhhh don't say that give her time she is still really sad!" and then he says " And can you get one that Jesus doesn't want?!" My sister felt awful, and I said "Don't worry about it, out of the mouths of babes!!!" He will miss her!!

awwwe! *sniffle* *sniffle* *the smile through the frown look*

Same here....weep, weep
Sandra, that poem tore me apart
Oh Stace, everytime I read your posts, I want to cry. I really feel your pain. I look at Cody and just burst into tears just thinking they'll be a time when I have to say farewell. Please take are of yourself. You KNOW Shai knew she was loved to pieces so please never ever worry about that. I'm still thinking about you...Karen

The loss of dear Shai is so heartbreaking. I, too, cry whenever I read the posts here. I really feel for you, Staci. I know how much it hurts and it will for quite a while and never really go away. Two months after the loss of my Avalanche, I went to the kill shelter and adopted Killian. He helped stop the pain. I told myself that Avalanche died so Killian could live (he was on death row).

By the way, I visited the kill shelter yesterday to drop off Shiloh's "Strut Your Mutt" dog walkathon application. There were no dogs there over 2 years old. You know what that means. It was so sad. I saw two lovely dogs there, in particular. I hope someone adopts them!!

Sue

What a sad story! Wow, yeah that got me crying. I am very glad you have your little white angel of a kitty to help you cope. We all love you. Heaven has gained another angel.

Staci your nephew is precious and what a deep thinker! :) He doesn't want you or him to have to ever go through this again! I hope each day is getting to be a little easier to get through than the day before. I am so glad you have Kylie to love and cling to right now. Some day you will be ready to adopt again but for now take all the time you need to heal. It is not easy. :(

So sorry about your loss. Just keep remembering that you gave her a good life. It hurt like heck when I lost my last girl. I was kinda unsure about getting another dog. We waited a few months and fall in love with one at the Humane Society! And it was a wise choice! When you feel its right you will know and you have plenty of love for another dog. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.