Oh Carole, I'm so sorry to be reading that it will soon be Ash's time to go to the Bridge. He looks like such a sweet old soul. I will be thinking of the both of you. HUGS and give Ash some pats and lovies for me.
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Oh Carole, I'm so sorry to be reading that it will soon be Ash's time to go to the Bridge. He looks like such a sweet old soul. I will be thinking of the both of you. HUGS and give Ash some pats and lovies for me.
Thank you, i know i have made the right call now, it has been going on in my mind, should I , should I not, but I know it is time to let my ole guy go peacefully,he deserves to leave earth in peace and with dignity, and that is the way i want it to be.
I am going to find it so weird without him, he has taken up so much of my time, looking after him, time that i had, and gave with love,it is hard looking after a terminally ill kitty,such a rollercoaster ride, and full of emotions,sadness, anger,impatience , you name it, i have felt it,but i don't regret one bit of it, and I am gonna miss him so much, thank goodness i have three other furbabies to help me through it all,and of course all my dear PT friends,my husband Steve who has helped me with everything.,and been there when i have needed a shoulder to cry on.,guess i am going to be needing his shoulder big time on Saturday.
Slick i understand exactly what you are saying, yes i too see that his spirit has broken, he has given up,and i have no qualms about my decision now, and that makes it just a little more bearable, yes i have cried buckets already, i went for my shower and howled and howled, i had to stop i was feeling dizzy,but there are still more to come for sure, but hopefully when he has passed i will get peace too, i am sure i will,I have to say Slick i am so sorry you lost Max, i somehow missed that thread, i knew he was not doing well, and had been responding to you, but somehow i missed that, i feel awful, please accept my condolences, i know how much it has hurt you, and it is still very painful for you, HUGS to you and healing times ahead.
People who do not know the love of animals, are so missing out, i look at my little furbabies and it amazes me how we humans can love them so much, but hey how could we not,those who don't are missing out big time in their lives for sure.
But then comes this time and it hurts like you know what,but even so i would not have missed out on all those ten years or so of experiencing that love with my Ash.
I found this on Tanyas UK feline chronic renal failure site, it sums it up so well for me.
"We who choose to surround ourselves with lives
even more temporary than our own
live within a fragile circle,
easily and often breached.
Unable to accept its awful gaps, we still would live no other way.
We cherish memory as the only certain immortality,
never fully understanding the necessary plan."
Irving Townsend "The Once Again Prince"
Prayers for you and Ash. Yes, he does look very tired. He wants to play again and run again...and you can help him do just that. He will love you forever for that.:love:
Carole, my thoughts are with you. I'm sorry you are losing your beloved Ash.
Well today is the day, and i am a bunch of nerves as you can imagine, did not sleep very well, and feeling sick to the stomach, but i did manage to eat something, surprisingly enough, headache from hell, all the usual things that go along with this terrible ordeal ahead.
I managed to get Ash to eat two tiny morsels of mince last night, i could not believe that he ate it, but in two days that is not enough to keep him going, he is still drinking though and peeing, just once a day and in the litter box, my sweet boy he is.
Last night he amazed me again, as weak as he must be feeling he ran upstairs to be with Melissa, he often used to go up with her and sleep on her bed, and that is what he did for part of the night, Melissa was very upset last night,she had her young man over and he is also a great animal lover having two dogs and three kitties at home, so understands, i was glad of the extra support for her, i did not pill Ash last night as i did not have the heart to bring him down and away from Melissa, it was the first time he had purred in three days,and he was all snuggled into her legs, and they were both asleep,he did come down not long after that my husband said and had a drink.
I still felt torn between whether to go ahead, especially as he is still so aware of everything going on around him, he looks up at me when i call his name, but does not come to me anymore, and he is not as weak in his back legs as two days ago, but i think that day he must have been de-hydrated as he was not drinking,however i know that he is slowly starving to death, and i cannot let him do that,i still think it is for his best to let him go today, and 99 per cent sure i will be doing that.
Please be with me in spirit, i am going to be an absolute mess,hardest thing i have ever had to do, and worst day in my life.
Carole, my heart aches for you and Ash- and even more for you.
I am sure you will know what is the right thing to do but it is so heartbreaking to do it.
Yes it is a difficult day indeed, i think having three days to think about it, only makes it worse, i have gone through it in my head so many times,how it will be etc, etc,wish i could think about something else, but i cannot.
He is under the car at the moment, that is where he goes now, i guess he likes it there because i cannot bother him anymore, he just wants to be left in peace, and i don't blame him, i have been trying to offer him food continuously all day in the hope he will eat, and he gets fed up of it, but i just can't give up on him, i know he has given up, and i almost feel the same way, but i just have to keep trying without infringing on his need to be left alone, but is a tad hard to do that.
Love to you and Ash and your family, Carole.
We are with you.
{{hugs}}
Carole,
I am sorry to hear the news.
Sending you best wishes and thoughts across the miles.
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{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}} we are with you
Carole, my heart goes out to you......my vet told me that when the kidneys start to fail the kitty gets a really bad taste in its mouth which makes food taste so bad it doesn't want to eat....that's what happened with my Charles. He was still perky mentally (considering he was almost 18 yrs old) and still responded to being loved up but I too knew it was time to say goodby.....
Sending all of you warm fuzzy thoughts......
Ash wanted to be outside, but even though it is warm today, there is a real strong wind, i just could not let him stay out there, he did not put up any fight and is asleep on the couch right now,he is too weak to do anything much now,he still responds to his name, i took one last pic on my phone, and it is a good one, but you can see the sadness in his eyes,i have one pic of him already on my start up on the phone when he was much better and you can certainly see the difference.
I have questioned whether i was doing the right thing, especially when he ran upstairs last night, but today i have no doubts it is his time, it is paining me to have to wait until 1pm, one part of me wants to have him here for much longer, the other wants me to be able to put him out of his misery now,horrible feeling, my stomach feels so sick right now.
I made up his little box to bury him in, it is not much, just a cardboard box with some decorations i found, mostly xmas angels and the like,i may post some pics later when i feel i can. Thanks again everyone, i know you are with me at this sad time in my life and i appreciate your love and concern very much.
LES LES ALERT :(Quote:
I made up his little box to bury him in, it is not much, just a cardboard box with some decorations i found, mostly xmas angels and the like,i may post some pics later when i feel i can.
We are all with you Carole. When the time comes, close your eyes and feel a milliion and one arms around you..........
You are doing the right thing. Don't question that - the last act of love you can do for him.
Fly quickly to the Bridge, sweet Ash. May your passing be peaceful. LES here too
Carole, you and ash Ash are in my prayers. After lighting a candle for MooShoo, I also lit one for Ash. I will keep them going.
Know that you are loved by everyone here and feel your pain. I certainly do.
:love::love:
Donna
Ash passed very peacefully today, it was the hardest moment in my life, when i came home with him i felt an inner peace, but that did not last,again i feel sad and i feel empty like this huge hole left in my life,he is with me now in his little box, i have pics but just not up to posting at the moment,he looks very cute and at peace, hubby has dug a hole under the bush in the garden and we shall bury him tomorrow, just one more night with my sweet boy, i give him pats and talk to him, i know he cannot hear me no more, but it helps me with my grief.
We had to go out to get some things from the supermarket and coming home was so sad, he was always there to greet us, it just isn't the same without Ash.
One thing that did make me smile was Ellie, when steve had dug Ashes grave, she goes over there has a sniff and pops inside it sitting up, i took a pic of her on my mobile, as it was so cute, i told her you don't want to be going in there sweetie.
He only weighed 3.7 kilos at the vets, this was my big fella who used to weigh 6.7 kilos, he was just wasting away.
It has been a very tough day, i am emotionally drained, think i will have an early night, thanks again everyone, and i tell you all the way in the car to the vets i was finding it so hard, i just kept saying to myself all your PT friends are with you, be strong, and it helped me to compose myself, i was scaring Ash i think, and i just had to stop for his sake.
Goodnight all from me and Aships a brave kitty to the end.
One last thing if anyone could make me a memoriam up i would be ever so grateful,just a pic of him with some nice words,something i can keep for my treasured memories.
Carole, I am thinking and praying for you today. (((HUGS))) --- elyse