(it gave her an error when she tried to post it, her Sidekick doesn't like when she tries to edit a post sometimes.)
okay.. where to start..
phred, when I left the house and asked for the support - I asked for PMs
and never thought it'd rocket up from 107 to 249 in a week, (including
my responses). the last three-four days when I was unable to respond
because of second surgery, I got a couple or doubles from worriers. I
hate to worry people and hated when a PM comes in where I get
notification saying my inbox is full - often people wouldn't re-send. so
I wanted to use email instead - too overwhelmed right now. like I said,
for now. and as for not replying to PMs, are for THOSE who violated my
respect but I believe I have responded to most.
for the confusers - I guess then it wasn't meant for you to understand..
if it's the complication you see, well, that's how my life has been. I
said all the best I could say and I can try again to make a few things
clear - where I stand now, physically, emotionally, & mentally, and
along with this biggest barrier; half of language I totally lack
of, I don't say things at the best - frustrates and tears me more than
anything as you can see my posts decline, unsure what to say and ramble
than often now I think.
there's one thing I see can be/is misunderstood -
nothing about me should be a secret: here, I got a couple "ok, I
won't tell gina that you told me this, she'll never know.. just between
us."
and, violating my privacy - stuff I share with others off this
site I didn't post publicly were shared without my permission after I
got back.
okay now? that's another thing, betrayal hurts. by this site. if they
wanted to know, why can't they PM or ask me? having others
answering for me doesn't always means they get the accurate information
and then they complain they don't get "whole" of MY situation(s). I'm
always here for answers if asked nicely, gently or privately. :confused:
if they wanted an update on my knee, make a new thread and I'll post in
there.
kfamr, I immensely have, it is why I keep coming back and again, I never
can thank enough. sometimes it's hard to appreciate this place as much
as I do before, especially what it has been now but this still is the
best place with the best support I can think of. especially with all of
the animals I have and love where they will not be called "just an
animal".
lizbud, what have I done to you beside the "on-going saga"? it is like I
can't react to every scenario - or how is that disrespectful? why did
you seem to let that change your mind about our friendship... I used to
count you as a friend and valued your support. :(
huskymom, you said a lot things I needed to say, thank you. everytime I
needed "you guys", I only thought of here then do dread to come here at
some time but people like you, are the ones who kept me going. I'm just
at very tip of my rope and I feel like letting it go this time.
thank you for the positive posts/thoughts, I didn't expected for them in
here. means a lot. I know I said that a lot now, I never get enough of
them with the constant dramas I face - bad outbalances the good greatly
now. so a few is a lot for me - thanks again.
