Cyber AA Meeting...Come on down!!!

My Dad was a very mellow drunk. He was VERY depressed, so he drank himself numb. He'd sit in his chair and cry about my Mom and stepmom and how much he loved them both. It killed me to watch him kill himself.

I recall years ago when our family (all uncles, aunts, cousins, grandparents, etc.) used to drive out to Bolton Lake on the weekends. We'd have cookouts, go swimming, hiking. They were my fondest memories because, as Laura's Babies said, I always felt loved. Even though it WAS through an acoholic haze. Back then there WERE no laws against drunk driving. Not as strict as now. They thought nothing of packing everyone up and driving home after a day of drinking. I don't think I ever remember any of my family members actually sober.

I just stumbled across this thread..no pun intended.

Now I feel kinda guilty for doing the Thursday's thing.

I admire everyone that has posted their thoughts on the subject.

(Another reason that PT is the ONLY website I frequent....Constantly evolving and you never know what you will find here.)

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I posted about finding PT after a particularly troubled 6 months in my life.

I drank quite a bit and after a few months found the best "group therapy"
on the planet.

PT started out like a sip, then a shot-
half filled tumbler-hold the ice, please? And finally, I do it in huge gulps.

I still do drink, but not at the frentic pace I once did.

You have to stay sober to post at one or two in the morning ;)

You are all very brave to post and you have gained one more heart, cheering you on, in your daily fight..


It sounds like a broken record but..

You all rock! :D

It always amazes me (or at least it does since getting sober) that people who are depressed drink to alleviate their depression. When I went through treatment I learned that alcohol IS a depressant! Hello? Isn't that kinda like pouring gasoline on a fire? So it's starts or continues a vicious cycle (or is that cyclone?) ripping through a drinking person's life.

In sobreity, my feelings are up and down and I've learned that that is the normal flow of life and human emotion. It feels SO good to be a part of the human race again - even those days when it feels like a rat race at the end of the day, like right now, I'm tired but know I put in a good hard day of work and feel pretty darned good about all I accomplished.

PS. Richard, don't feel guilty about Thursday's - it's one of my guilty pleasures where I can pop in and have some fun.

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Originally Posted by RedHedd

It always amazes me (or at least it does since getting sober) that people who are depressed drink to alleviate their depression. When I went through treatment I learned that alcohol IS a depressant! Hello? Isn't that kinda like pouring gasoline on a fire?

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yeah, makes sense to this depressed alcoholic! This makes me chuckle...I don't think I ever did anything because it was logical. Drinking was great at first because I could finally relax and laugh and enjoy things. Plus, it did a great job of numbing out all those dark feelings. But this too passed, and it did become fuel for the fire of alcoholic insanity.

One of the tough things about getting sober is feeling your feelings again. After stuffing them for so long, it takes a while to get through the garbage. I felt like giving up early on, I was afraid it was going to be too painful to get sober. That's why a support group is really important. :)