lady_zana - I am totally with you on everything you said. I have been on anti-depressants for about 10 years or so....I always say that when I go through a bout of depression, I have to go into "survival mode." I do whatever I have to do to survive one day to the next. I don't know that committing suicide is selfish - I never quite got to that point. My mom also went through a very bad depression, much worse than mine, and I think she did get close to suicide. However, my father stood by her and they worked through it, though it took a lot of years.
I think of anti-depressants like insulin. Diabetics have to take insulin, and depressed people need serotonin. I am not embarrassed that I take Zoloft, but I wouldn't want people to know the person I become without medication. Luckily, medications have come a long way - I was even able to take Prozac throughout my pregnancy (and I am happy to say that my little man is as healthy as can be :D).