Some decisions are painful to make. It's clear from your post that you're agonizing over your kitties, you want the best for them and you feel like you're at a loss for options. Those of us who love our pets as much as you love yours understand where you're coming from and would never criticize your decision. It gets even harder when the stress starts to affect your family life and your health. The only things I can offer you is my support, sympathy, and prayers that a positive solution will come your way. Please take care of your own self and let us know how things play out. [[[HUGS]]]