My sweet gentle soul Scooty has died unexpectedly

Scott - I'm sitting here in floods of tears after reading your post. I understand the kind of pain you are in because I've lost a few very, very special cats too. But, most of all, I could imagine walking into Nougat's room a few weeks ago and finding her the way you found Scooter. It's a very chilling thought. She had the radioactive iodine treatment also, and I released her only a week ago from her isolation. It was so hard, being with her for such short periods, and I couldn't wait for the day when she could curl up over my neck at night again. You both went through this separation so that you would have years more with her, and instead she died suddenly and alone. I can imagine your anguish and I'm truly sorry for you.

Scooter was a very lucky cat to have you to adore her for years. I hope you have lots of photos. Put one in your car and dot them around the house. It hurts, but in some way it keeps her with you. If she had a special toy, put it in your pocket so you can carry it with you. No-one will know. You have found some release for your shock and grief in writing here, and perhaps writing about her will help you.

If you want to remember Scooter in a way that will help other cats whose owners are struggling to give them the medical care they need, you could donate to IMOM in her memory. Their web address is http://www.imom.org/

I don't usually go to Memorials, for some reason - but something drew me to open this one. I am so, so sorry for your loss, and after so much ordeal, followed by so much hope. I have a very special spot in my heart for blackies. You did what you thought was the very best for your cat, and you have nothing to scold yourself or doubt yourself for. Sometimes there are just mysteries in life - life itself, death itself - mysteries. I am so sorry, too, that you cannot achieve closure in respectfully disposing of her earthly remains, and that you have to wait. I understand your grief. I hope you don't add to it with any self blame. I care.

Scott, I am so sorry to read about Scotty. You can not blame yourself for anything. You did what you thought was best so the two of you would have many more years together. Unfortunately she was needed at the RB for something else. She will be waiting for you and looking over you for the rest of your life..

Scott I am so sorry for Scooty's passing.
I think it is easier if you know the time is there- but going to think the treatment would help and then she dies.... I have tears in my eyes.
I hope one day you will be able to remember the 14 years you had each other without crying.

Scooty was a cutie and she's now at peace and well and happy. A candle flame burns for her and you and prayers of love and sympathy are on their way from me and all the fur posse.

Blessings,
Mary

Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers - the kindness you have shown me has helped me get through this devastating experience. I think this has been especially hard for me because of the horrible turn of events and the fact that I live alone and do not have children . . . Scooty was my child and I loved her very, very much - she was always by my side. When I have healed a little I am going to write a song for her, publish it and donate all the proceeds to a shelter - in this way I can honor her life a little. Right now I need to stop beating myself up with the "what ifs" "what did I miss" and "could I have done something different". I also need to stop replaying that awful moment when I discovered her.

Thank you all once again.

(((((GENTLE HUGS SCOTT))))) Rest in peace beautiful Scooty. Play hard at the bridge sweetheart :(

It's only natural to feel the way that you do right now. We've all been there, although the way you found Scooty was indeed unfortunate. But Scooty knew that she was loved by you. Always remember that.

Blessings,
Mary

I am so sorry, Scott. :(

and the pain is less intense. I didn't realize just how much I would miss Scooty because she was always by my side. I know I'll never fully get over losing her - we had a long and very close relationship - she was such a gentle force.

Something happened a few days ago and I was wondering if it has happened to anyone else. I'm not a religious person and I don't know if there is a hear-after but this experience has certainly given me pause as to what possibilities could be.

I was sitting at my table reading a bland article about the housing market - I wasn't thinking about Scooty at that moment. All of a sudden I got this strange sensation and the hairs on my arms and the back of my neck stood on end - I felt this energy starting to flow inside me and I got goosebumps all over - the energy was like electricity and I tingled everywhere. Now this all came out of nowhere - I didn't expect this at all.

Then the sensation became familiar and I knew it was Scooty who was with me. I even said "Scooty, is that you?" and the energy became even stronger surging through me. I know it was her - I think she wanted to let me know she was OK because it was that same gentle, calming energy I always felt from her when she was alive. It was just like holding her close in my arms. The other interesting part is that the feeling didn't just come and go but stayed strong for a full 10 minutes. Tears flowed down my cheeks and it made me both happy and sad at the same time.

After the energy dissipated I sat down and tried to rationalize what had happened - I tried to talk myself into it being a trick of my mind - my subconscious trying to placate me - neurotransmitters firing away causing these sensations - but at the end of all the over analyzing I knew what the truth was - and that is something that can't be explained away. Perhaps we do continue on in some form of energy after we die - I still don't know but I do know this experience has cast a whole new light on my thinking.

Thanks Scooty - I love and miss you.

I'm sorry for your lost. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Scott, this is a wonderful experience that you had! I'm not a religious person either, but I wouldn't rule out things like that. In fact, I believe that it may be possible.

I knew that after I lost Katz, there were one or two occasions when I thought she (= her energy) was around. Like you and Scooty, we had a very strong bond, and why should death be the end of it? There's a lot of comfort in that thought, isn't it?

Kirsten

I found this and thought I'd share.
It's a description of the Rainbow Bridge.
I'm sure most of you already know of it.
I didn't before, but knew, from people's descriptions of it, that it must be a special place in Heavan for animals and people. Anyway, I'm sorry if it's somewhere else on this site and I'm being redundant or something.
And Scott, I'm so sorry for your loss.
It's amazing how much love our babies can share with us.

Just this side of heaven is a place called the Rainbow Bridge. When an
animal dies who has been especially close to someone here, the pet goes to
Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all our special friends so
they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine,
and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill or old are restored to health and vigor;
those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we
remember them in our dreams of days gone by. The animals are happy and
content, except for one small thing: They each miss someone very special to
them who had to be left behind. They all run and play together, but the day
comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes
are intent; his eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the
group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.


You have been spotted, and when your and your special friend finally meet,
you cling to each other in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The
happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress that beloved head
and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from
your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together

Thats just Scootys way of telling you tht she still loves you, and will still be a part of your life Scott.
I have seen my Cat Angels on the Porch, and I know that they will be there for me, as Scooty will be for you when we meet again.
One Fine Day.

I am so sorry for your loss. Scooty was well loved.

Anne