Beloved Duke is at RB...

Ya know, Val, I can really empathize with you. I still can't get over the loss of Shiloh. All the others I loved dearly, but understood that they had to go, but Shiloh..........I just can't get over. I think of her all the time and feel that she still should have been with me. Our time together was way too short and I counted on her to be my strength. That two week bladder cancer/lymphoma was way too fast. I wouldn't have wanted her to suffer, but if only the med would have worked to at least give me a few more months with her.........
My heart goes out to you. Know that Duke is always with you in your heart. Sometimes he will let you know he is there...just the way he did now.
Big, big hugs.

I dreamed of you a few nights ago. I dreamed you were back with me. I was wondering what to do with Dasher but knew I would keep him, too. My heart wants what the world can no longer provide. I miss you :( It's been four months now and there's not a day that goes by that I don't think of you.

Hugs....I know how you feel. Duke is right with you now. He told you so in your dream. Dasher is there to help you. Duke sent him to you. Hold and hug and cry into Dasher's fur. Dasher will understand... My heart goes out to you.

My dearest dog. The birthday I gave you, April 5th, will come while I'm at work so I wanted to put this up now. I'm so mad at myself for forgetting it last year. I never dreamed it would be your last. I miss you so much, words can't explain. But my tears now, can. I hope all the RB dogs give you a wonderful party. Is there a dog beach there? I hope so. I've always loved this pic of you for your 12th birthday. If only I could hug you again. You're always in my heart and on my mind. I miss you terribly. Until we meet again, sweet Duke.
Love,
Mama
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Val, I'm sure the RB dogs will have a grand birthday party for Duke. My Mandy loved parties, maybe she is getting things ready right now. I'm sure too that there is a dog beach at the RB.
I know this week will be especially hard for you. :( PM me anytime. {hugs}

(((hugs)))

Val,
I am certain all the doggies are on the beach with Duke, having a blast.
He is looking down at you - and knows that you are thinking of him on this special day, and every day.

{{{hugs}}}

Val.. for sure Duke is partying with Cody and friends! Of course there's a beach (and snow so I'm told) so Duke is romping like a kid, having a blast! Happy Birthday, Duke! With tons of love from Aunt K9 and your honey girl, Klo.

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Thanks so much ya'll. I'm feeling a little better and let me tell you why. Not too long into the work night, there was an officer on a traffic stop. When we put them on the vehicle stop, it automatically runs the tag. That tells us what kind of car the tag should be on, who it's registered to and where they live. When I'm not really busy, I often check the call history of the address that's on the registration. In the history under the name, was a person with the last name of Duke. I can't say the first name here but the way it read, first name last, was one of the nicknames I had been calling Duke almost his whole life. It was only missing one letter in the middle. Now if that's not a sign, I don't know what is. I thought it was really special. I wish I had printed it out. Tonight, I will.

I told you Duke would send you signs. ;)

What a wonderful sign! I'm sure Duke is having a fine birthday celebration with his RB pals. I know my Rose is right there - she knows her way around those birthday desserts, for sure.

My sweet dog. Today, Mother's day, makes it six months without you. They've been the hardest six months of my life. How I wish I was still your mama. My heart is forever broken from having to say goodbye to you. I thank you for sending me little signs. Like a few weeks ago when I was showing my supervisor a picture of Dasher on her computer. There was a popup with Duke in big letters. How I miss you. You're always not far from my thoughts and forever in my heart.

{{Hugs}} For you Val.

Oh Val I am so sorry it still hurts so much. You are still Duke's mama and always will be, {{hugs}}.