I wish there was some magical thing we could do to make it all better. Don't think it can't get worse. That will hinder any help you're seeking. You've got to find some hope, no matter how small, and hang onto it for dear life. Lean on Anna. She's close enough to help when we can't. Remember what I said about this taking a long time. You won't get better overnight but you must be open to healing and progressing. It's a huge adjustment and it won't be easy. Just live moment to moment and try not to think long term. Big PT hugs from all of us.