I really need a hug right now.....

I am devastated today, as i have to tell you all my lil Zara the feral sweetie that i had spayed has died, I found her at lunchtime on the side of the road, it appears someone has picked her up and put her there and so i can only hope she died instantly,she was hit by a car, i wondered why she had not come for morning feed.

Hubby brought her back and we have buried her next to my sootie in our back garden, I just feel sick to the stomach, i put her through all the trauma of surgery etc and now just over a week later she is gone, she was so beautiful, only just over a year old, and she was so special to me, it just feels as bad as when I lost one of my own., the tears are just pouring out as i type this, I cannot believe i wont see her again, she deserved so much better in her short life.

It just is not fair, I did not get a picture of her, so I have nothing but my memories of a sweet but scared lil kitty, I hope she knew how much I loved her, I buried her with a lil note from me Zara I loved you so much, love mummy, I know to others that would sound silly, but to everyone here you will understand my need to do that, and i have placed a beautiful red rose from my garden on her grave, at least she wont be left to rot on the side of the road.

Rest in peace my dear lil Zara and have fun at the Rainbow Bridge, I loved you will all i had to give.

Oh carole ~ I'm so sorry. Poor baby. You gave her the best chance she could ask for. But, I guess it wasn't meant to be. Sweet Zara, you will not be forgotten. carole ~ A great big hug from me. I'm so sorry.
Lisa

Thank you Lisa, I know we did our best, but it just was not good enough, that lil girl deserved so much more, it hurts so much , its unbearable just thinking about her sweet face popping over the fence for a feed, I will never forget her, never.

Carole, I am so sorry to hear about the little girl. She went to the RB knowing she was loved and cared for. While it doesn't help the hurt right now, you did so right by her. It does matter to her that you gave all that you had.

RIP, sweet one, RIP.

So sorry about Zara. She does deserve better. RIP Sweethart! You will be missed!

Thanks Johanna that did bring me comfort, I just hope she did really know that I loved her and was trying to help her, one never really knows, at least i got to see her last night, i tryed to approach her and get her to sniff my hands, and talk with her, she came for a feed last night with the other kitties and I tryed to get her to play on the fence with a long grass blade, I have to hold on to those memories of her .

So sorry to hear this Carole. You were so wonderful to her....

A very, very, very big strong hug is sent your way. of COURSE Zara knew you loved her. You cared, got her spayed, gave her a name and as much love as you could - that is so much more than most strays will ever have. She will be amongst the crowd to greet you, some faroff day, when you arrive yourself at the Rainbow Bridge, this I know.

{{HUGS}} I am so sorry. I'm sure Zara will always remeber you! :(

Carole, I'm very sorry to hear this:( You did your best to help her.
{{{HUGS}}}

Carole,

It sounds as though you were her angel. Just think if that sweet little girl didn't have you?? But she did and the life you helped her have was happy and loving. RB is a happy, healthy, painfree place - where she very much deserves to be.

BIG hugs, Carole. I'm so sorry about Zara, sweetie.

Love, Kelly

I still cannot quite believe she is gone, it hurts so much, I know even though her life was not great, she was a happy kitty, she had her birth mother with her and her grandmother, i saw them playing together yesterday and licking each other , they were so cute, it is just so sad, and seems so futile, I spayed her for a better life and now this, geez life sucks sometimes doesn't it?

It is gonna be hard tonight when I call the others for a feed, as she won't be coming and I will find that incredibly hard and sad to deal with.,it is just ironic she had lived in my neighbourhood for over a year and was safe from the road, then i get her spayed and this happens, so unfair.,excuse me waffling on but I just don't get why these things happen like they do.,sometimes you just feel so disheartened and wonder is it worth it all?

You know Zara does live on, we rescued one of her babies a sweet wee girl, I keep telling myself that part of Zara is still alive in her baby.

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Originally Posted by carole

Zara does live on, we rescued one of her babies, a sweet wee girl,

I keep telling myself that part of Zara is still alive in her baby.

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Kitty Angel Zara will be looking out for You and her Kitten ...

Rest In Peace, Zara.

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Oh Carole, how devastating! I can feel your pain all the way over here! Rest knowing you did what you could to make her life as happy as you could.

I am so sorry to hear your first rescue attempt ended poorly. Please continue to help animals, and perhaps you'll be able to save the next kitty from the same fate.

I am so sorry, Carole! :( ((((((((((hugs))))))))))