Hanging out with Zack tonight..
We'll see if I actually have the guts to tell him my feelings for him.. I'm way too scared to admit it.. but I keep reading that part about how you don't want to be that someone who lives with the "what if's".. which is this:
"Have you ever loved someone and they had absolutely no idea whatsoever? Or fell for youur best friend in the entire world, and then sat around and watched him/her fall for someone else? Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid.... afraid of what we don't know, afraid ofwhat others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie...the thing we fear grows stronger. Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you can never have them...when the moment you can't feel them under your fingertips you miss them? Have you ever wondered which hurts the most; saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart ...but if you don't, you might break theirs. Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides who it likes and who it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own... when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to. Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or that all. Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have, or could have had."
So, that'd be horrible, so horrible.. We are going to go bowling tonight with my best friend and her boyfriend, so it's kind of a get-together.. so I could just go "Hey Zack, if I get a strike, or a spare even, you have to take me out on a date! That's a deal, ok?!?!" HAHAHA.. ;)
