I don't know how long I can do this.
It's my mom and I again.
I was cutting watermelon and my brother was asking me all these stupid questions. I cut the watermelon in half and he's like, "That's a huge piece for you and I!", and I was like... ummm... "I'm going to cut it into squares." I had a little bit of annoyance in my voice, and my mom heard me. She was like, "Knock it off. You do NOT need to yell at your brother like that. He is NOT your slave." I didn't listen to her.
Then I began slicing the watermelon and Jake goes, "Those don't look like squares." I glared and said, "Well... HANG ON! I'm going to cut them into squares." The my mom looked at me and started screaming at me.
"I TOLD YOU TO NOT TALK TO YOUR BROTHER LIKE THAT! I SWEAR TO GOD IF I HEAR YOU TALK TO HIM LIKE THAT AGAIN! KNOCK IT OFF!" Her face was blood red and I screamed, "CHILL OUT!" because she was totally blowing it out of proportion. Then, the way she looked at me, she looked like she was going to come over and slap me. I felt so scared. If I would have said anything more, she would have hit me.
Right now I'm almost bawling because I'm so scared and angry. My head is pounding and I can't see straight. I am shaking and I feel like I'm having a panic attack. Just the way she screamed at me... I almost knew she was going to come hit me. Luckily she didn't.
I just want to curl up and die. I feel like sh*t... like she wants me dead. I cannot stand this anymore. I just want to go to my own house and go to my room and cry.
Re: I don't know how long I can do this.
Sending you lots of (((^..^)))