I'm so upset I miss them so much
I miss the kitten so bad. We had to turn them into the shelter. I feel so bad. I just keep thinking about them there, and since they are boy/girl, they seperated them right away:( Boy can't stand to be away from his sister. Whenever she got out (that's one of the reasons we had to take them in, she was jumping a 4 foot barrier) he would scream and cry for her. I can't stand it. I miss them and I just keep thinking about them. I cried for 3 days after, and last night for some reason I started thinking about them. I made myself sick. I wanted to throw up. I felt horrible. I cried for 2 hours. I finally calmed down enough so I was able to cry myself to sleep. I used about 50 Kleenexes and a roll of toilet paper. My mom could hear me out in the living room. She just said that I was doing this to myself and that I needed to let it go. But I couldn't. I couldn't help it. I mean, I raised them since they were 3 weeks old. I was their momma. I loved them to death. I really really want to go visit. The lady at the shelter just grabed the kennel, took them to another room, threw them into a different kennel and said "Bye" and we left. I want them back sooooo much! I need them, they need me. They are both black and they have over 200 kittens there already so I don't know their chances of being adopted. They can't be put to sleep. No, I won't let it.
Sorry this is so long, I just needed to let it out. Does anyone have any suggestions or anything?