I feel the same way. {{{hugs!}}} I know I'm not a strong spirit, that one of my jobs this time around is to learn how to be stronger, and sometimes I'm too chicken to visit even this gentle and supportive place because I'm not up for more bad news.
I find it really does help to
light a candle online. It quiets the chattering in my head, the admonitions that I should be able to Make It All Better and the jeers that nobody without discretionary income has any place trying to be helpful when what's really needed is so often material. Sometimes turning off the stereo and singing a simple little chant or a happy song like Bells of Norwich helps too.
Be well, dear Boo. Even if you're confused, be content. Even if you're bewildered, don't cause your Meowmie to worry. Even if you're disoriented, don't be afraid. Love is all around you, in you, moving through you like the wind through the branches of a tree. Be well, little Boo, and if you can't, tell your Meowmie what's the best thing to do. She trusts you, and we do too. :love:
Love, Columbine