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Background
Today I finally plucked up the courage to do a reading with my precious CallyPuss. She was my little shadow for almost 14 years but I had to let her go to the Bridge due to cancer which started in her mouth and spread to her eye.
Her last few months involved daily trips to the vet for injections and liquidised food, which she licked off a spoon as I held it, but as the cancer had so obviously spread I made the appointment that was to let her go. However, Cally had other ideas. The dreaded morning arrived and, totally out of character, Cally was nowhere to be seen. She did not reappear until my husband got home from taking me to work, when she popped out of the flowerbed in the front garden the minute the car drew up. She spent the entire evening on my lap and made no attempt to escape when the time came for her appointment the next day.
To my never ending shame I could not bear to be in the room with her while the injection was administered. I left her with my vet who I have total faith in and she seemed very calm.
The reading:
I am so glad I contacted her today - I got the impression that she had been waiting for me to find the nerve. Her lively character shone through and she was very pleased with herself as her presence in my life converted me from being a 100% dog person to a cat lover as well. She assured me that our time together and the fact that I often think of her is far more important than anything else. She totally understood my anguish at her passing although to her it was simply a way of moving on to the next phase of her journey. She was with me to teach me about cats and open my mind to the joy of knowing other animals.
The timing of her illness coincided with the decline in my Dad's health and I am now sure that my grief at losing Cally was also an outlet for all my emotions at that terrible time.
I still have Cally's name tag on my keyring and actually held it during this reading. When I did this I experienced a surge of happiness and peace which I know was Cally's way of telling me to let go of any guilt. She didn't want my lasting memory of her to be her last breath - that is why she went out of her way to give me our lovely last evening together.
Our bond will never be broken
