I got a wake up call this morning. I haven't been to work in well, about two weeks (on and off as my body cooperates). Yes, again, due to this fabulous disease called Crohn's Disease. I'm learning how to live with it, how to not allow it to tear down the strength God and I have worked so hard to build up.
I've been so ill, but not willing to go into the hospital. I'm not having an obstruction, just the symptoms: extreme pain, horrendous nausea and vomiting, weakness, dizziness and the desire to throw anything called FOOD out the window (or let my roommate eat it?? ;) ) and then there's the fun "bathroom time", my chronic fissure and never to be least, my horrid acid reflux. My prescrion anti-reflux meds aren't working, I'm adding extra strength Pepsid as well as Tums oh, every few hours. Needless to say (well, I already did, huh?), I'm not happy physically.
I HATE my job. I hate who I work for, I hate the drama, the politics, the tattletails ("Kelly's sick, how come I have to work?"). I'm yet again dealing with not being paid for what I'm worth. I'm developing and maintaining this company's website in addition to answering phones (which is NOT condusive when you're working in the middle of a huge page of HTML coding!) - something I was NOT hired to do. Btw, the website accounts for 50% of their bussiness!!! They sell Touch Screen Monitors, which as you can probably imagine aren't exactly inexpensive. I'm still getting paid practically zilch and have asked repeatedly for my benefits - which were due over 2 months ago - I've explained in every way possible that I CANNOT AFFORD to pay rent AND COBRA! All falls on deaf ears. :rolleyes:
So, I'm onto the next thing. Oh! Forgot to mention the call from the temp agency rep who got me this job, Adam. He calls me a week or so ago while I'm sitting at my desk and says the following, "Hey Kelly, I was calling so say how sorry I am about how things went down at CyberTouch." Huh?? I said, "Well, um, that's odd, considering I'm sitting here AT CyberTouch working!" He tries to back-peddle and tells me to call him after I get off.
Long story short, he can't tell me anything, but that this company is CRAZY and he feels terrible that he even sent me there. That he would look for a new job for me ASAP. He only gets medical billing, which I CAN do, but I want to be with my patients, my lovely, sweet (and scary, but I love them too!) patients.
Luckily and praise God, I've gotten my settlement and it was higher than I hoped. Its enough to cover my rent for over 5 months if I don't find anything. I still get spousal support, so that would pay the rest of my bills. I'm not planning on ANY of that, but at least I have an actual savings this time, finally. I don't have that pressure that I'm letting everyone down and in turn, get really hard on myself.
Life isn't as bad as we all think it is. There is ALWAYS, ALWAYS a silver lining, a positive aspect...and open window to that closed door.
Plans:
I'm going to work out the week or maybe more with CyberTouch until I find a new job.
Prior to starting new job, I'll go do my Phlebotomy externship - 1 or 2 weeks at a fabulous hospital that'll give me clout for all the draws and experience I'll have gotten. That alone will get me a GOOD phlebotomist job.
I'm not sure if I'll just start doing my externship now so that I can put that I'm a fully licensed Phlebotomist for the US and California espeically. That may be the smarter move.
Either way, I have some time to heal and my positive attitude. That, my PT Family is in a LARGE part due to your support and AMAZING friendship to me. I must have the GREATEST support system in all the world. You all help me to florish....something that is going to enable me to eventually get to my goal of become the very BEST doctor I possible can to my patients.
Anyone or anything that enables me to get to my goals, the most important thing to my livelyhood, means the absolute WORLD to me.
You've all seen me through so much and I'd imagine about 2% of you have actually MET me! You all know more about my life and feelings and thoughts than anyone else in my life...and I'm so lucky to have you all to be there for me.
I want you all to know that I will NEVER, EVER be too busy for any one of you. I know in the past two years, I haven't been around due to my circumstances. But...I'm getting online in my room/apartment this month and will have all my very dear friends/family at my fingertips 24/7. As soon as that happens, I'm yours like you've been for me. I'll never, ever be able to express how amazing, how wonderful, how perfect you all are. How much you've all done for me. Its so odd that something as non-tangible as "friendship", "support", "love", "prayer" is worth more than all the wealth on this planet, more than all the fame in the world, worth more than anything, more precious than "priceless".
To say I love you all dearly...well, is exponentially true, but I feel more than that for you all. I'm so entirely grateful to each and every one of you. To Paul and Karen, without PT, where would I be? I shudder to think, so I wont. You two making this wondrous place was certainly devine.
Love you all,
Kelly, Noah, Basie, Micah & Phoebe
P.S. I'll be updating you all much more now. I'm on the "hunt" again and this time, this is going to be the job I'm going to be in until I move to San Francisco for Medical School. Oh yes...it will!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxxo times a billion!!!
