On June 26th, my dear beloved Cosmo broke his neck in a fall. He was 5 1/2 years old.
Cosmo, his brother lil bit, his sister Persia, and his mommy sheena were all brought home from a shelter to keep my kitten chaos company after the loss of his brother Atlas.
Here is a photo of the twins, Cosmo on the left and lil bit on the right
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I picked up two little girls (or saved is more like it) for a grand total of seven cats.
For 5 1/2 years I worked at home with my babies. I got them all when they were around 8 weeks old. Cosmo never stopped growing. He grew and grew, not fat growth, just huge giant growth. His body was so long and he was so thick with muscle it was unreal.
The two sisters, muffy and baby, absolutely were going out with Cosmo. They always slept with him. Always. My house did not really have a hierarchy, it was more of a love fest. We all played together.
WHatever chaos would do, cosmo would follow. many a night or day was spent repairing a screen or finding htose two when they got outside once in a while.
Cosmo was always there at the door when I came home, first to eat, and he snored a little bit each night.
An open window or screen door found cosmo taking up the 'sitting space' for a day or so. He loved sitting by the window when it was open and sleeping next to the window when it was not.
He loved running out and just hiding in a bush. He just sat there and enoyed it.
When I would work at the computer he would come up and push me back, try to climb on my shoulder and end up falling asleep like a little baby on my chest and arms or lap. He always caused little rips in the back of my shirt due to his massve claws.
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His love and gentleness knew no bounds. He loved a belly rub anytime anywhere for as long as you wanted. He was obviously a maine coon and did not seem to stop growing.
Monday night, I heard a sliding sound from behind me as I sat in the office and then a long strange mewl. It sounded like a cat was stuck behind something or under something. I looked around and saw nothing. I realized it may have come from the garage and went to help whoever was trapped.
I opened the door and saw my other cats standing over the crumpled body of my gentle beloved giant. I screamed his name and picke up his broken body,.
I started CPR as I realized he was not breathing and had no pulse. I thought he may have choked or had a seizure. I grabbed my keys while trying to save him and rushed to emergency vet that night. IT is only a few blocks away and I almost hit two cars and did miss the entrance to the little mall they were in. I crashed through bushes and over parking curbs and slid to a stop at the vet. I ran right in and gave them my kitty....all the time massaging his chest and breathing gently into his nose and mouth.
They took him back and came out a minute later and said he was gone. I was upset cause I thought they did not try at all. But he had no heartbeat and he was blue in the mouth. He was dead.
I drove home but kept trying to save him. I laid him on the carpet and kept the cpr and heart massage for a while before I realized he was gone.
IT was the worst night of my entire life and I lost one of the candles in my heart. I held a little wake and a friend came over that night. The cats all saw their family member dead and were pretty freaked out, but it was better for them to see him.
I buried him that morning around 2am, 31/2 hours after it happened.
It has been about 5 days and the shock has worn off....I was in complete shock and devestated. I visited his grave in the yard a hundred times and talked to him.
I miss every moment with him each day as he was an integral part of everything I did at the house.
He was soo big, not fat, just a giant sized cat, that I always talked about him. showed him off to visitors, and loved holding him as he slept, gently rubbing his belly.
This photo was taken a year and a half ago....and he still grew after this photo. The black cat is around 13 pounds and is a slightly overweight normal sized cat. The brown one is my giant baby Cosmo......
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When people would come over and see my 6 cats, they would be saying that they were pretty big for cats...until the seventh cat, Cosmo sauntered into the room. Everyone would say 'oh my god' and would be astonished at how big he was. And the big fluffy furry Cosmo would just walk around then fall over for a belly rub.
He liked to sleep on the couch like this...remember, this is a couch...and he goes from back to front and is a little scrunched up...this was taken about 1 1/2 years ago...before he grew more...
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I am going to set up a foundation for cosmo and his family. Money, 100% to go to shelters and hard luck cases as well as the care of his family should they need surgeries or help.
I love all my babies, but his girth made everything all the cats did, like eating or sleeping, special and was the 'oompf' of the crowd and really made a startling presense.
The house is empty now, food goes uneaten, sleeping patterns are messed up, cats are mourning, sadness permeates my life. My baby was a big part of my life. I cannot vacuum as his hair is everywhere and so is his smell.
I finally went out to the store a few days later, first time I left the house. When I came home I cried as I opened the door. For 5 1/2 years he has met me at the door every single day of his life. I always was home and never went on trips except for xmas...and that was only overnight. He was always there at the door....now he will never greet me with his big hug and little meow....
I miss, and always will miss, everything about my little gentle giant. There is a hole in my heart and a light is missing that can never be replaced.
I love you Cosmo....forever.
I miss you Cosmo....unbearably.
Your little girlfriend baby is missing you something awful....(black kitty on the left, being lovey dovey with Cosmo on the right)
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