cmayer31
07-22-2005, 08:28 PM
Well it's Friday again and here I am sitting at home... again. So for as long as I can remember I have been anti-social and it's been very tough to meet new people. For years I had my ex girlfriend who was an angel to me and I could go anywhere and do anything as long as I knew she'd either be there or a phone call away. Well, we were both young when we met and we have both gone through some very hard issues with each other and rescued each other, but sadly grew apart and although we could still be good friends more drama has separated us and I doubt we will ever speak to each other again.
Flash forward months later to now. I work my butt off Monday through Friday, but it is in a small office and an hour drive from where I live, so I don't meet anyone there. Due to the previously mentioned drama and other factors it is like pulling nails to get any of my tiny group of friends to go out. I swear they would rather sit at home and drink than at least go out and do anything.
So now I'm stuck because I have, in my opinion, poor social skills because I freeze up around new people no matter how comfortable I may be in my surroundings. However, I'm going insane with have no one to even go somewhere with. I haven't seen any movies at all; not even the movies that I would love to go see. Argh it is so frustrating and I have no clue how to fix either myself or the situation.
I do "lurk" here because one thing that I do love are pets and I find that people who care so much for their pets are almost always better people than who treat animals as just some inanimate object, or some doll that they can parade around and discard whenever. I can't post from work, but I can read the posts and it is always a highlite of my day when I get to see pictures and hear the latest tales of everyone's fur babies. I know my Riley has been my greatest friend and always will be because she always has a smile and always knows the right thing to do.
Anyhow, even if no one reads this I can take a deep breath and sigh because I do feel better letting this out and knowing that I won't get scoffed out. I know other people have posted about situations much worse with loved ones and themselves. Although I dont pray, I do feel the good thoughts go a long way and I do think good thoughts and best wishes for those who have suffered or have had to deal with loss.
Thanks for listening and I'll end the rant with this: Although I truly don't know anyone here other than from what I have read, I do belive this is the closest and most caring board that I have ever experianced and you all make this place great.
Flash forward months later to now. I work my butt off Monday through Friday, but it is in a small office and an hour drive from where I live, so I don't meet anyone there. Due to the previously mentioned drama and other factors it is like pulling nails to get any of my tiny group of friends to go out. I swear they would rather sit at home and drink than at least go out and do anything.
So now I'm stuck because I have, in my opinion, poor social skills because I freeze up around new people no matter how comfortable I may be in my surroundings. However, I'm going insane with have no one to even go somewhere with. I haven't seen any movies at all; not even the movies that I would love to go see. Argh it is so frustrating and I have no clue how to fix either myself or the situation.
I do "lurk" here because one thing that I do love are pets and I find that people who care so much for their pets are almost always better people than who treat animals as just some inanimate object, or some doll that they can parade around and discard whenever. I can't post from work, but I can read the posts and it is always a highlite of my day when I get to see pictures and hear the latest tales of everyone's fur babies. I know my Riley has been my greatest friend and always will be because she always has a smile and always knows the right thing to do.
Anyhow, even if no one reads this I can take a deep breath and sigh because I do feel better letting this out and knowing that I won't get scoffed out. I know other people have posted about situations much worse with loved ones and themselves. Although I dont pray, I do feel the good thoughts go a long way and I do think good thoughts and best wishes for those who have suffered or have had to deal with loss.
Thanks for listening and I'll end the rant with this: Although I truly don't know anyone here other than from what I have read, I do belive this is the closest and most caring board that I have ever experianced and you all make this place great.