I am just sad.

[jenluckenbach]

I am starting to feel depressed again, for no logical reason. :( I hate to feel like this. I am on the verge of tears. And if I had a reason for it, I could live with it, but I do not. :(

And I can't even see the doctor because since Charlie lost his job he lost his health insurance with it.

I know there are people out there who have chronic depression......Do you all have set backs? I have been doing so well, or so I thought.

I am even sitting here wondering if I should post this. I don't want to just attract attention or pity. I don't know what I want. :(

I am not at home right now so I can't go get any purr therapy. Any suggestions? :confused:

[Cookiebaker]

{{Jen}} I'm so sorry that you are feeling down. :( I hate that feeling. I'm sorry that I can't be of much help, but I hope you feel better soon!

Here's a picture that might bring a smile to your face:
http://www.pt.plainolpup.com/6042.JPG

[kittycats_delight]

Jen my husband has severe depression. He has had it for 10 years now. He has been quite well for almost 2 years but he has set backs. I can't say frequently but now and then. When he starts to feel like this he wants to be alone. I know he finds if at home he will go into the bedroom turn out the lights close the door and lay on the bed with the hairdryer on. The sound lulls him. He said it helps him forget everything. Just makes him draw a blank and no feel anything. After 30 minutes or so he is fine again. I don't know if this could help any. I am afraid I don't know what to tell you to do if you are out. Usually if he is out and feels this coming on him we are off home so he can escape. Is there somewhere you can go to be alone. Completely alone for 10 or 15 minutes and just sit close your eyes and think about nice thing. Like your furrbabies for instance? Please feel better.

{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}
Michelle

Lilith and Vixen sends purrs headbumpies and whisker kisses.


P.S. Vixen wants you to have this flower.
http://i5.photobucket.com/albums/y151/runaway_kitty/Vixennow.jpg

[catnapper]

Jen, I am so sorry. I'm sure the lack of insurance is not helping... becuase I would be sitting there feeling WORSE knowing I didn't have insurance... and that would start the depression ball rolling even more for me. Just one more thing wrong to add to the pile of other wrong things. :(

You know I'm here to talk or anythign you need.

[Soapets]

I can relate. I've been on antidepressants for the most part of 15 years, and recently had a mild setback so started taking another medicine to boost the antidepressants, and thankfully it's working. One thing that always helps me when I start feeling really down, and negative of everything, is the statement that "FEELINGS ARE NOT FACTS." I had a counselor tell me that years and years ago, when my clinical depression was first diagnosed, and that has stuck with me over the years.

I'm not sure what I would do without medical intervention, though. It's so tough to fight it, and the medications have helped me immensely. I know that a proper diet, and exercise, can help some. I sure hope it doesn't get any worse for you, and that it gets better........

[popcornbird]

Oh Jen...I'm so sorry to hear you are feeling so sad. :( Sadness is such an awful feeling. I know that when I'm sad, what helps the most is getting out of the house......just going out.....maybe to a park, or to see a friend, etc. Ask Charlie to go out with you for a stroll in the park, and hopefully, it will help you feel better. :)

[lizbud]

I would think your husband losing his job & health insurance
coverage would be very logical triggers for depression. I believe
most communities have low or no cost counciling for folks. Check
out a United Way agency in your area. There is no need to feel
depressed & alone if you don't have to. I hope things change for
the better soon.:)

[RobiLee]

I don't really have any advice or suggestions. I posted awhile back with by own depression problems. I just wanted to pop in and send out some great big hugs to you. Lots of people here with their own stories and advice. It does help to finally let people know and talk about it.

Hang in there, Jen. I'm thinking about you.

{{{JEN}}}

[dukedogsmom]

I'm sorry you're feeling so sad. I've never had severe depression so I can't offer advice. I'm hoping some others can help you. And here is one of my recent favorite pics of Duke.
http://www.boomspeed.com/dukedogsmom/061305_1.jpg

[Mad Mags Moo]

Sorry to hear that you are not feeling to great jen, Thinking of you and sending you hugs across the miles and across cyberspace too:D

[Rachel]

I concur with what Liz said. Also they say that exercise is supposed to be helpful, some studies have shown that it can be as beneficial as medication, so Popcornbird's suggestion of a walk in the park has merit too. And as Soapet mentioned, make sure you get a proper diet.

Your husband's loss of a job and health insurance could certainly have been a trigger to your current episode. I've experienced both those situations and it worried me silly. I am so very sorry that all this is happening to you right now. I do believe unloading your feelings here can be a bit of a help, and that is reason enough to come and share as often as you want. There are lots of folks here who genuinely care for you and care about what happens to you.

[Ginger's Mom]

Sorry to hear that you are feeling so down. My suggestion would be to go out for a walk, but by yourself. I know if I am depressed I don't want to talk to anyone, but I don't want to be by myself, because I then think too much. Get out, walk, if someone smiles at you as you walk by embrace that act of kindness (not the person that may get you in trouble ;)). And when you get inside, either look at the wonderful pictures that have been posted for you (they really made me smile), and know that there are people that care about you, or do something mind numbing like staring at the television. I really hope you can get past this setback soon.

[rg_girlca]

Awww Jen. You know you are one of my favorite people here on PT and I hate knowing that you are sad.
You have been given some great advice from others, as I was going to suggest going for a walk also. This helps me when I am feeling down.

I know you said you are not doing this for attention or pity and you're not. You are talking to the people who care about you and how you are feeling right now. We might not have all the answers, but know that we are here for you and will help you get over this setback, no matter what.

I hope you are able to get home soon to your furbabies and take some comfort in their purrs and headbumpies.

((((((HUGS))))))

[luvofallhorses]

I am so sorry. :( I deal with depression myself and it's so hard somtimes. My heart goes out to you. If you need to talk or anything I am one PM away.

I am going to upload some pics and will post one here :) ((((hugs)))) Please know that we all are here for you.

Here is one I just took recently of Miagi and Buster
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid174/pf13609842f61e2d0ca26ce842dbde676/f3a1a655.jpg

[jenluckenbach]

Thank you one and all.

[slick]

It's threads like this that absolutely kill me because I've had no experience with depression at all, so can offer no advice.

All I can do is pass along some prayers and lots of

{{{{HUGS}}}}

slick
xo

[jenluckenbach]

Originally posted by slick
It's threads like this that absolutely kill me because I've had no experience with depression at all, so can offer no advice.

All I can do is pass along some prayers and lots of

{{{{HUGS}}}}

slick
xo
I am sorry, Slick! :( I did not wish to depress anyone else.

But I really needed the hugs too. :)

[lizbud]

I believe you probably are a very private person, not unlike
myself. It must have been very hard for you to post anything
at all about personal feelings. Please don't feel you've depressed
anyone, you haven't. I really do hope the sadness is short lived.

Take care. :)

[lady_zana]

I suffer from depression and am on Zoloft and Wellbutrin. Due to the high cost of medicine, my husband and I would never be able to afford it on our own. I see a nurse practioner and she helps me get my medicine for free through Connection to Care. Please ask your doctor about it. Based on your income you may be able to get your medicine at a reduced cost or even for free. Also look into Care Credit. I'm not sure what they cover exactly but I know it works like a credit card that you can only use at doctors, including dentists and even vets.

[slick]

But I really needed the hugs too.
Jen, you have not depressed me...it's just that I wish I had some great advice to offer or some words to comfort you.
In this world, there is no such thing as too many.....
{{{HUGS}}}
{{{HUGS}}}
{{{HUGS}}}
{{{HUGS}}}
{{{HUGS}}}

[robinh]

Jen, you should never be sorry that you need a friend to help lift your spirits. Depression is a disease - you do not choose to have it. And there is no shame in having it.

If you need a place to talk, here is a good one. Everyone here cares about you and would do whatever they could to help you.

Robin

[finn's mom]

I wish there was something i could offer to help. I've been "depressed" before, but, never clinically. I can only hope that you have more good days than not. And, I'm truly sorry that I'm unable to help you.

[cyber-sibes]

Jenn, clinical depression is one of the things I've had to learn to live with. I have setbacks sometimes, and its so hard to ask for help. Sometimes it takes someone around me to notice it, I can't tell- I just feel overwhelmed. As others have said, medications really help - as does exercise (it stimulates good brain chemicals) and counseling (which I can't afford right now either). There are community programs to help you get the medications you need - contact your local health dept. to ask what's available in your area. At least you are reaching out on PT - please know you are not alone - feel free to pm me if you'd like to talk.

[Maya & Inka's mommy]

Don't feel sorry for venting here: we all care for you and we are happy to try to chear you up! I know depression is no laughing matter at all.... ; lots of people just think it's all between your ears; but they are so wrong!!! I've had severe depression before, and I know that I wouldn't have made it without medicine. So please try to follow the advise some gave here to get your meds for free.
a big http://users.pandora.be/bernardgabriels/images/smilies%20973%20Huge_hug.gif

ps. I am taking SERLAIN

[Barbara]

What I hear about depression is: Of course you can have setbacks. It seems to be a disease that comes back:(

But on the other hand your depressive feelings will not last forever, they will go again- and it is great that you can come over here and talk about it. I am sure that is the first step out of it.

{{{Hugs}}}

[carole]

Jen just want to offer you my support, love and HUGS, I am sad to hear you are feeling so low again, depression is like that, it just knocks you down when you least expect it, I can only hope that it will in time get better again,and that awful feeling will depart and soon, ,know I am thinking of you and understand competely where you are coming from.


I think it is a good thing that you feel you can post about it Jen, it means you know you are amongst friends, and we are always here for you as much as we possibly can be, cheer up sweetie and take care of yourself.:)

[jenluckenbach]

Thanks again all. Reading your responses are wonderful.

By the way, I am on a program to receive my medicine for free until I can get back in a health insurance program. The part I am concerned about is.....if I think I need a new medicine or new dosage that the doctor might need to SEE me first (not just prescribe over the phone). But I have not tried yet. I feel good this morning, I may wait a bit to see if the feelings happen often or if that was an isolated incident.

Debbie is right, since I remember how horrible the lows can be, I fear that is what is coming next. :(

I hope to try to exercise (something I absolutely HATE!), but it is something I need to try to do.

Thanks again. :)

[Pawsitive Thinking]

glad you feel a bit better this morning - have some experience of how you feel....take each day as it comes and remember there are a lot of people here with hugs ready for when you need them

[moosmom]

Jen,

I'm sorry you're feeling so down. I suffer from clinical depression and yes, I do have setbacks. I try to ride them out.

I've been on a program called "Bridges to Access" in Michigan. The doctor fills out a prescription and paperwork and submits it to the pharmaceutical company. They send you your medicine free, directly to your house.

Feel better Jen. Depression sucks! But we're survivors. You'll get through it!!

(((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))

[anna_66]

Jen I'm very sorry to hear you've been so down lately and by the sounds of it, you have a valid reason.
Please just know that all of us are here for you if you ever need a friend to talk to.

Glad your feeling a little better today, maybe this will make you smile just a bit more...
http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid173/p4193d4dea75538c409c712415ec0130a/f3bad6d9.jpg

[furrykidsmother]

Jen; I am afraid I don't have any advice to offer, but wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you and hoping that you are feeling better.

[JenBKR]

I don't know much about your situation, but I do know about depression from my own experience with it. People say that proper diet, exercise, and vitamins can help, but it is not nearly enough. Having no insurance makes it that much worse. Talk to your doctor and see if there are any free/low cost clinics near you. Also, if you are in college or went to college, and you live close to the campus, there should be a counselor on staff that can help you for free, even if you don't go there anymore. If you need help, or need to talk, please send me (or someone else) a message. Don't let yourself get too low, I know exactly how that feels. You think you'll always feel that way and you'll never come back up. Asking for help is the first step. Let me know if you need anything!

[sirrahbed]

Wondering how you are feeling - any better???

Dread about falling back into deep depression is very scary! I have never again fallen back there, but the fear is real.

Those setbacks will happen now and then and may be normal "blues" and not depression at all:) Memories of that horrible darkness makes us think we may be headed back there - but I think you will find that this is temporary and you WILL bounce back. ((((JEN))))

If you really feel the need - I think it is likely that your doctor will adjust your dose or possibly add something to the recipe - over the phone....especially if you explain your temporary lack of insurance. He may even offer office samples for you to pick up. If he does not already know the "fix" you are in at present, I would let him know. Just the worry about insurance, etc - can add to the depression and he would probably want to know this.

But again - what is happening is more than likely short lived:D

[catcrazylady]

Jen, I'm late as usual! I'm so sorry to hear that your feeling sad and down. Depression is such a horrible thing.

Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope that since I was so late that maybe you are feeling a bit better.

{{{HUGS}}} to a great person!:)

[smokey the elder]

{{{Hugz}}} to you. Is there some kind of hobby (gardening, making a puzzle, crafts) that you enjoy doing? Sometimes a distraction's all you need. I hope your doctor will work with you; mine has helped me when I wasn't working.

[slick]

I'm glad to see that you are feeling better today Jen. :)
{{{hugs}}}

[sandragonfly]

hey..this site is not depressing! ;) ;)

really..that was a bad joke? :( having no insurance therefore no help really suck.. I didn't think everyone need a "threapist", just a buddy sometimes! and we all are here..

how are you this morning still? :)

[jenluckenbach]

Originally posted by Gina's Ark Inc.
hey..this site is not depressing! ;) ;)



You are very correct, this site is NOT depressing. :D

Today my mood is good but my headache is horrible. :( DRATS!

But you know what, I will take the headache over the sadness any day.