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roscoe3
03-18-2005, 11:34 PM
Today is Friday March 19 and I have to say goodbye to my friend Roscoe tomorrow. Yesterday, I was advised by his vet that he has chronic granulotyic Leukemia and that he only has a matter of days on this earth. To alleviate any further pain to him my husband and myself are asking the vet to come to our house to euthanize him tomorrow. The vet says that we did not do any thing wrong, even if his condition was diagnosed earlier there is nothing we could have done. I know that this is the only thing we can do but I am not ready to have him leave our family. Roscoe, is the most friendly, even tempered animal I have had the pleasure to meet. He is a golden lab x german shepherd. I am having a hard time saying good bye to him, this sudden turn of events has devastated me. My husband is out in camp and will not be in town for the next couple of months. I have two other dogs that I know need me but I feel resentful because they seem at this time to need my attention now. Has anyone had to deal with this so quickly.

Suki Wingy
03-18-2005, 11:50 PM
I am so sorry for you. He will feel so much better at the Rainbow Bridge. I suggest you find the post and watch the touching movie about the RB.
Welcome to Pet Talk. There are many wonderfull, caring people here to help you through down times.

Karen
03-19-2005, 12:21 AM
I am so sorry to hear that. My Dad's beloved St. Bernard, Bruni, was PTS last year after she suddenly was stumbling one weekend, and was found to have late-stage leukemia. It is never easy to say good-bye to a beloved pet. But know that Roscoe will always be with you, in your heart. Think of him going to sleep tomorrow, and waking at the Rainbow Bridge, well and whole.

Give him a hug for me. The other dogs probably lnow something is wrong, which is why they are being needy. It will be hard for all of you. Goodnight Roscoe. Say hello to Bruni for me.

roscoe3
03-19-2005, 12:34 AM
thank you Karen.. I cannot tell you how much it helps, having people who understand the grief one feels when they are faced with such an ordeal

LorraineO
03-19-2005, 07:15 AM
I am so sorry you have to go thru this.... but we all do eventually and its never easy..... you asked if anyone had to go thru this so quickly,,, yes,, I did and my hubby wasnt home.. Our Scottie boy MacDuffers became very ill and had to be put down within hours... and it was my decsion..... it was hard, but I knew letting him go was doing him a favour in the end despite how bad it made me feel. He is now pain free, walking runing and eating his bones at the RB waiting patiently for us to meet again.

Hugs......

pitc9
03-19-2005, 07:47 AM
I am so sorry ..... :(

Please know that you have found a wonderful place here... I'm sorry it's on such a sad topic, but please stick around and share your great memories of Roscoe, and to introduce us to your other two pups.

GraciesMommy
03-19-2005, 08:06 AM
I am sorry that you are having to deal with this...yes, several of us have gone thru this situation...and it is very hard..

But remember you are doing a kind loving thing for Roscoe, helping him cross that bridge where there is no more suffering and no more pain.

Allow your other 2 to comfort you..they may be doing what they can to ease your pain. I am sure they sense something is going on. They will miss Roscoe too in their own way.

Lexi_Lover
03-19-2005, 11:20 AM
I know I am late to reply to this thread...I am so sorry for your loss...he sounded like a wonderful dog and had an amazing life up until now.

Again, I am so very sorry for your loss! Godspeed to the bridge dear Roscoe and watch down on your owner and 2 siblings during this hard time. You will be loved forever and always.

R.I.P Roscoe! :(

Sudilar
03-19-2005, 01:58 PM
Today you will show Roscoe the greatest love....release from pain, no matter how much it hurts your heart to do so. Hugs.

The Last Battle
If it should be that I grow frail and weak
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then will you do what must be done,
For this -- the last battle -- can't be won.
You will be sad I understand,
But don't let grief then stay your hand,
For on this day, more than the rest,
Your love and friendship must stand the test.
We have had so many happy years,
You wouldn't want me to suffer so.
When the time comes, please, let me go.
Take me to where to my needs they'll tend,
Only, stay with me till the end
And hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.
I know in time you will agree
It is a kindness you do to me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I have been saved.
Don't grieve that it must be you
Who has to decide this thing to do;
We've been so close -- we two -- these years,
Don't let your heart hold any tears.

-- Unknown

tatsxxx11
03-19-2005, 06:27 PM
We're all here for you, friend. We do, we really do know how devastated you are:( Letting go, saying good bye to a doggie, a furkid as special as Roscoe is one of the hardest things we humans have to face. I'm so sorry you're alone. I hope you have other family and friends to be with you right now but know we are here for you too, any time you need to talk, cry or vent. My heart aches and breaks for you:( Your other babies are there for you to help comfort you, so reach out to them and let them do their job. They love you and don't want to see you sad. All of our RB furangels are welcoming your dear Roscoe and he is not alone. And never forget that he's waiting there for you and you two will be together again, one day in the future. I'm so sorry. I send you my love and a big hug. Sandra

momof5slobberslingers
03-20-2005, 10:23 AM
I'm so very sorry to hear this...may the wonderful memories you and Roscoe have made, help to carry you through this sad time...you are in my thoughts, and all the houndies here are sending healing drool your way, to ease your aching heart...

roscoe3
03-20-2005, 11:39 AM
The vet came yesterday and took Roscoe with him, although I knew what was going to happen, I just wasn't prepared for how fast it happened. In the morning Roscoe woke me up and wanted to go outside. I quickly got up and went outside with him. He had so much energy compared to the past couple of days. When I spoke to the doctor he said that it may have been the prednistone that gave him the energy. I asked him if with this energy would treatment be ok, however he told me that Roscoe would not be a good candidate for chemo or other treatment because he was too weak to be put through the effects of what these treatments would do to him. I spent the morning with him, took him for a walk in the field behind our home, a place where he loved to go, where a herd of deer spend most of the winter. The Deer were not there in the morning except for a big flock of geese after he passed on I noticed the herd back. Roscoe wanted to spend the day outside, we are currently experiencing a last blast of winter with wind and snow, but there was a time when the sun came out. He always loved to rest in the sun, so I spent most of the morning outside with him. I could not go to far with him as I had to wait for the telephone call from the doctor to advise when he would be coming. This was so hard knowing it would happen but not knowing when he would be coming. I just wanted more time with Roscoe, but I know that if I kept him alive he would just suffer more and the Roscoe I want to remember is my big handsome man. Today I am feeling guilty, he followed me around yesterday staying so close, I feel that I betrayed his love and loyalty. All of our family lives approx 1000 miles from us and we just moved to this area but in a way I just wanted to grieve by myself. My other dogs, when they go outside, I think they are looking for him. Roscoe, even though he was normally 90 lbs. would always sleep with me when my husband goes to camp, in the winter he is gone for 4-5 mos at a time. Last night my border collie came up on the bed and snuggled with me. He has always been my mama's boy. Next week Heavenly Trails Pet Crematorium will return Rosce in a hand made cedar box made by the Huderite colony with his name, birthdate and March 2005 engraved on it so that he can be with us always.

momof5slobberslingers
03-20-2005, 12:14 PM
You did the right thing...you gave him release from his pain. That is the greatest gift we can give to those we love so much...I'm glad you got to spend as much time with him as you could, doing what he loved best...

Know you are in our thoughts...

Roscoe will always be with you in spirit. Love lives forever, in our hearts....

Sudilar
03-20-2005, 01:56 PM
(Tears)......Sending more hugs.

joycenalex
03-20-2005, 07:00 PM
when i helped my sweet duke over to the bridge, i cried buckets, i missed him so much. the only good part was in my sure knowledge that we will be together again at the rainbow bridge, and he no longer hurts. he no longer hurts, i gave my sweet boy release from the pain. ((HUGS)).

Buddy Blaze Lover
03-21-2005, 04:55 PM
I am so very sorry to hear about Roscoe!!:( That is so sad! I will keep you in my thoughts. Say hi to my Bandit, dear Roscoe, and rest easy sweet boy!:(

tatsxxx11
03-21-2005, 05:44 PM
More tears for you and your precious Roscoe:(:(:( I remember so well, like it was yesterday, the incredible guilt I felt the day I had to help my beloved Jingles to the Bridge. Even though she had been suffering from liver cancer for 6 months, hadn't kept down any food for days and days, was having periods of blindness from the built up toxins, I held onto any sign from her that there might be hope, a "good day," a wagging tail, a kiss on my cheek. You were the most loving and caring Mom to Roscoe. I know how difficult and bittersweet those last hours together were, but I hope you can take some comfort in knowing that Roscoe spent his last hours on this earth in a place that he loved with the person he loved most on earth. And his separation from you is only temporary, because one day you will be reunited with your precious boy. We're here for you. I'm thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers. Love and warm hugs to you, Sandra

Logan
03-21-2005, 06:45 PM
It is so hard.............

I grieve with you over the loss of precious Roscoe, but you did a good thing for him, a very courageous thing, and one that I now know that I would not hesitate to do for one of mine if they faced pain and suffering. I have had to make the same decision that you did, before, and I have never regretted it. :)

Much love and sympathy to you. Rest in peace, Roscoe.

Logan

roscoe3
03-28-2005, 01:26 AM
It has been a week since Roscoe died, tonight I wonder if I could have done anything to help him. Why did I not see that he was illl before this. Why was it I did not see that he was sick. Am I such a bad mom that I can not see that he was ill. Why when he turned his nose up at treats I didn't thing there was a problem. I keep thinking back as now I see some of the signs why didn't I realize he was in trouble. Wh did God take him from me

Buddy Blaze Lover
03-28-2005, 04:58 PM
Please don't think those things!!:( It's not your fault Roscoe passed from this world...there's nothing you could have done to stop it, believe me, I've thought the exact same things! How could God let things like this happen?? Well, it's in the plan for the world, and good things will come of it, you'll see! By losing Bandit, we got Blaze, the sweetest pup in the world!! I love him so much, just like Bandit, and it helped ease the pain. ((HUGS)) to you again!!:(

Priskas
03-29-2005, 10:53 AM
On Sunday i lost my loved one. He left so sudden. He was going to be 3 years old this June. My baby boy is now in a better place i know and i miss him a lot. I cant stop thinking of him and i wish he was here with me. Is ok to feel guilty i feel the same too but deep inside me i know neither u or i could have done anything to change that. If it was up to us they would have lived for ever with no pain or suffering.