Desert Arabian
09-09-2004, 09:09 PM
As if it couldn't get any worse in the rat department...I am loosing Suzie. She is in HORRIBLE condition internally- externally she doesn't look too bad. She was supposed to have her surgery this morning to remove her tumor, but there is no way she would have made it. She is bleeding from both her vagina and rectum. She is so pale, and cold to the touch, she is so weak she can't even walk without almost killing herself. I can't stand to see her like this, I am going to have her put to sleep.
I sat with her on my bed for a while with her limp head resting on my arm and I petted her and told her how happy I was that I bought her from the pet store and I was thanking her for all the joy she has brought me in her life, and I kept telling her how much I love her, and I apologized for the rabbit- and that she shouldn't be jealous.
This happend so soon, she was not ready at all to leave- when we were at the vets office last week having her examed for the surgery she was as happy as a clam and was her normal zippy self.
I want to know why the #@*! my rats and I are being tortured like this, was it something I did!? I am so $@*!ing sick and tired of my children having to go through this kind of crap- and getting us all excited to have tumors removed, then the day they are supposed to be removed they are too sick and weak.
I feel so terrible, I can't even being to tell you, I feel like there was more I could have done, I tried sooo hard to be the best rattie owner ever and keep my kids safe and healthy- but I guess it was just not meant to be.
I want to sit on the couch and hold her so I can bond with her til the end, but I just can't it is too hard. I can't stand to see her like that, I just want to stab myself so I can feel pain like her.
I wish they could communicate with me so I knew EXACTLY what was going on, so I these things wouldn't happen to late.
Suzie, I am so sorry honey, I love you SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much! I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO sorry. Please, please, please, please, please, please forgive me!
Ok, I can't talk about this anymore.
:( :( :( :( :(
I sat with her on my bed for a while with her limp head resting on my arm and I petted her and told her how happy I was that I bought her from the pet store and I was thanking her for all the joy she has brought me in her life, and I kept telling her how much I love her, and I apologized for the rabbit- and that she shouldn't be jealous.
This happend so soon, she was not ready at all to leave- when we were at the vets office last week having her examed for the surgery she was as happy as a clam and was her normal zippy self.
I want to know why the #@*! my rats and I are being tortured like this, was it something I did!? I am so $@*!ing sick and tired of my children having to go through this kind of crap- and getting us all excited to have tumors removed, then the day they are supposed to be removed they are too sick and weak.
I feel so terrible, I can't even being to tell you, I feel like there was more I could have done, I tried sooo hard to be the best rattie owner ever and keep my kids safe and healthy- but I guess it was just not meant to be.
I want to sit on the couch and hold her so I can bond with her til the end, but I just can't it is too hard. I can't stand to see her like that, I just want to stab myself so I can feel pain like her.
I wish they could communicate with me so I knew EXACTLY what was going on, so I these things wouldn't happen to late.
Suzie, I am so sorry honey, I love you SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much! I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO sorry. Please, please, please, please, please, please forgive me!
Ok, I can't talk about this anymore.
:( :( :( :( :(