Sevens
08-20-2003, 12:05 AM
Ok, I need to vent about this....my maternal grandmother was diagnosed with stage 4 (i think) ovarian cancer about a month or so ago. The doctor told my mom that Granma has less than a year to live. Most of the family has been making the five hour trek to see her. My two uncles, aunt, parents, and about 7 cousins have already been to see her.
It is now going to be my turn this weekend. My parents are driving up wih my brother and sister (all us kids are mid to late twenties) and will be picking up my husband and I so we can all go together. Luckily, since my best friend just moved to my city, she can dog-sit for us.
I just don't know what to do. I feel completely helpless. My husband has been very understanding and supportive about the whole thing. I just feel like I will be a complete mess when I see her. She has lost so much weight, mainly due to a failed attempt at chemo.
I have been trying to be strong for my mother mainly, just be a sounding board for her when she needs to vent, and try to be "there" for her emotionally. She's had things so hard so far. We lost my granpa (her dad) to a brain aneurysm when I was 5, we lost my aunt (her older sister) to multiple sclerosis when I was 12, and most recently last October, we lost my uncle (one of her younger brothers) to a sudden massive heart attack. I have to say, through all of this with Granma and my uncle, I have gained a new respect for the amount of strength my mother has.
I am just so "nasty feeling in the pit of my stomach" about this situation. I cry whenever I think about it. I mean, I am happy that I will be able to see her, but extremely sad because I think this might be the last time I do see her.
I guess part of growing up is losing people you love due to various illnesses and whatnot, but sometimes I just wish I was a kid again and didn't have to think about death so much.
Thank you so much for letting me vent, I feel a bit better.
It is now going to be my turn this weekend. My parents are driving up wih my brother and sister (all us kids are mid to late twenties) and will be picking up my husband and I so we can all go together. Luckily, since my best friend just moved to my city, she can dog-sit for us.
I just don't know what to do. I feel completely helpless. My husband has been very understanding and supportive about the whole thing. I just feel like I will be a complete mess when I see her. She has lost so much weight, mainly due to a failed attempt at chemo.
I have been trying to be strong for my mother mainly, just be a sounding board for her when she needs to vent, and try to be "there" for her emotionally. She's had things so hard so far. We lost my granpa (her dad) to a brain aneurysm when I was 5, we lost my aunt (her older sister) to multiple sclerosis when I was 12, and most recently last October, we lost my uncle (one of her younger brothers) to a sudden massive heart attack. I have to say, through all of this with Granma and my uncle, I have gained a new respect for the amount of strength my mother has.
I am just so "nasty feeling in the pit of my stomach" about this situation. I cry whenever I think about it. I mean, I am happy that I will be able to see her, but extremely sad because I think this might be the last time I do see her.
I guess part of growing up is losing people you love due to various illnesses and whatnot, but sometimes I just wish I was a kid again and didn't have to think about death so much.
Thank you so much for letting me vent, I feel a bit better.