Zoee 1/12/05 - 9/18/14

[Taz_Zoee]

We said goodbye to our Zoee girl last night.

She suddenly was not acting right so I took her to the ER where they did an ultrasound of her belly and found a tumor on her spleen had ruptured. She was bleeding out.
We made the difficult decision to let her go.

Here is her first day with us:
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And here is her last day with us:
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Part of me is angry, part of me is devastated and part of me is relieved. She's been through so much the past several years, with her knee and then I swear there was something not right in her head. But now she is at peace. It doesn't make me feel any better, but she is better.

[pomtzu]

Oh Cindy - I am so sorry. My heart sank when I saw this. I know how devastated you must be - it's so difficult to let them go - and we seem to question our decisions. Was it too soon??? - not soon enough??? - could I have done more??? Obviously you did the right thing by Zoee, and she loves you for it. May you find peace in knowing that she is healthy and happy again, as she waits for the day when she will have you with her once again.

{{{Hugs}}}

RIP pretty Zoee. You can run and play once more, and all is well with you now. :love:

[Freedom]

I am shocked. This was sudden, which will make it seem surreal for a bit, and you will need time to adjust to this. I just can't believe it, myself. My condolences.

RIP sweet Zoe, you knew love world wide, being a PT doggie.

[Scooter's Mom]

Oh my gosh. This shocked me, too. ((Hugs)) to you. I am so sorry. Zoee was so very loved - by you and all of PT.

[Karen]

Oh, Cindy, we are stunned, and I am sorry you are going through this. What a shock to everyone. Dogs hide their aches and pains too effectively sometimes, but maybe she never felt the tumor at all, so didn't suffer long. Oh, dear, such a shock. Picture her, knees healed, and youthful health restored, herding butterflies at the Rainbow Bridge.

You all will be in our prayers during this difficult time.

[Catty1]

Cindy, Cindy, Cindy - I am so so sorry! Your absolutely did the right thing but how horribly sudden and heartbreaking! {{{hugs}}} to you and I wish you and Bruce healing. :love::love::love:

[Taz_Zoee]

Thank you so much everyone. This is a very tough time. I've never dealt with a sudden loss like this.
I came to work today, so it's sort of normal for me. However, Bruce works from home so he is there feeling the emptiness and seeing Taggart all alone. :(
It will hit me like this too over the weekend.
Our big concern right now is Taggart. Yes he was fine while Zoee was gone for a year, but this is permanent. He was mopey for that year too. We don't want him to be too depressed.
Some say dogs don't get depressed, but I beg to differ. Bruce's mom is a grievance counselor and she said they've prescribed medications for dogs suffering after their owner passes away.
We aren't jumping into getting another dog by any means. But he will be our priority to make sure he is ok. Next weekend he gets to go stay with his cousins for three days while we are away. My poor mom will feel this at that time when Zoee is not with her as she usually is when we leave. :(

I knew I would get the support from my Pet Talk family. You all can relate to what I am going through.

[Karen]

Thank you so much everyone. This is a very tough time. I've never dealt with a sudden loss like this.
I came to work today, so it's sort of normal for me. However, Bruce works from home so he is there feeling the emptiness and seeing Taggart all alone. :(.

Do give dear Taggart an extra hug from me, please! We know for certain animals do grieve, as well as being empathetic about our feelings. Tell Bruce we're thinking of him, too. !

[Taz_Zoee]

Do give dear Taggart an extra hug from me, please! We know for certain animals do grieve, as well as being empathetic about our feelings. Tell Bruce we're thinking of him, too. !

Will do, thank you.

[chocolatepuppy]

I'm so sorry for your loss of Zoee. :( She was a beauty and will live forever in your heart. :love:

I had a similar situation with a dog years ago. He was fine one night, next night at EMG vet and putting him to sleep.:(

[lolli94]

So sorry! Zoee was a gorgeous girl, and so very loved! Hugs to all of you! :love:

[dukedogsmom]

So very sorry. We're never prepared for this moment. I know how your heart is breaking. She was a beautiful girl.

[Bonny]

I am so sorry to read of Zoe's passing. She had a wonderful life with you.

[mrspunkysmom]

I am so sorry for your loss. hugz and :love:

[Taz_Zoee]

Thank you. :)

This weekend was rough. It was very difficult being home without her there. And poor Taggart is just so sad. He was this same way when Zoee was gone at my mom's house for the year in 2012. Except now we know she's not coming back. He runs outside when I take him out right before I go to bed. Then, it's like he realizes she isn't there, so he just stands out there looking around. He won't go potty! I have to take him to the front yard for him to go.
The other night I sat out in the backyard with him and just cried. He sat beside me looking around the yard expecting her to come running out of the ivy.
I thought I was going to make it through the day yesterday without crying. After I let him in from his potty break before bed I followed him out to the other room and he jumped in "his" chair and gave out a big sigh. Well, I went to bed crying..........again. :(

We are definitely going to be getting him another friend (I want a girl, but we'll see what happens) eventually. We are going out of town this weekend so we won't really start looking until next week or so.

Zoee, I know you are all better now, but my heart is still breaking. I thought I heard you lay down beside the bed last night, the bed kind of creaked like it would when you'd lean up against it. I've already called Paizly Zoee and daddy called Jax Zoee. I'm sure it will happen more.

I hope whatever was bothering you, besides your knee and stomach, is all better now and you can get along with all the other animals up at the bridge. You were such a brat with other dogs........remember getting into it with Tucker? Silly girl.

Let Taggart know you are ok, he really misses you!

Love you baby girl!

[pomtzu]

{{{Hugs}}} to you Cindy. I know from lots of previous experience - that in time you will feel better - and the tears will be fewer. I still have teary and emotional episodes when I think of ALL of my RB Kids - afterall - they were my kids. Myndi has been gone for over a year, and it's 2 years for Sparky in October, but the tears still flow - mostly when I'm feeling down or depressed over other issues. I'll never COMPLETELY get over their loss, tho I can smile too when I think/talk about them. Wolfy has been my rock thru this - don't know where I'd be without him.

Give Taggart LOTS of extra attention to help him thru this - and it will help both of you. :love:

[mon]

I am so very sorry for you and your family's loss. I am sending prayers and good wishes to you at this terrible time. We, almost all of us a Pet talk, have so much compassion for you because we have been in similar circumstances. Unfortunately, my Auntys beloved old dog Asia is very old and ill. A decision will surely have to be made about her passing very soon as well. Bless your heart, Zoee was the very best dog ever. She was so very loved. Take care, again, my sincerest sympathy.

[Lori Jordan]

Rest Well Zoee<3 You will be missed.

[Taz_Zoee]

Zoee you are home with us where you belong. This brought on some more tears last night. I actually haven't cried in several days.
I showed the box to Taggart. He sniffed it then put his paw out and touched the box. Probably coincidence, but it was still cute.

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[pomtzu]

Zoee you are home with us where you belong. This brought on some more tears last night. I actually haven't cried in several days.
I showed the box to Taggart. He sniffed it then put his paw out and touched the box. Probably coincidence, but it was still cute.

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It's always bittersweet when they come home to stay, and it brings a sort of closure too. It still hurts like hell tho......................:(

{{{Hugs}}} :love:

[Taz_Zoee]

It's always bittersweet when they come home to stay, and it brings a sort of closure too. It still hurts like hell tho......................:(

{{{Hugs}}} :love:

You know what? You are right! It's like it is final. This brings it home that she isn't just at my moms and will be home later. :( But at the same time, yes, closure. Kinda strange feeling.

[phesina]

Oh, Cindy, I am so very sorry.

My deepest sympathy to you and Bruce and Taggart and all who love and grieve her so very much. May all your precious memories and keepsakes help to bring you comfort. You gave her a wonderful earth-life so full of love and happiness.

Rest in peace, darling beloved Zoee, free of pain now at the Rainbow Bridge. Love is eternal, and you and your beloved family are together always.

:love::love::love::love::love::love::love::love:

[Taz_Zoee]

Well Zo-Zo, it's been a couple months since I said goodbye to you. I hope you are all better and getting along with ALL the pets up at the bridge.
As you know, we brought home Zeplyn last month. Taggart was excited at first, then he seemed bummed. Partly because we couldn't let them play too much due to her spay incision.
Now they get along (no more fights) and have fun. Every once in a while Taggart seems depressed. That's when I just sit with him and hug him and we talk about you. I know he really misses you Zoee. Even though he can't tell me.
So many times I think of the little things you did and wish you were here to do them again, no matter how annoying they were.

Oh, and Grandma misses you too. :love:

[pomtzu]

{{{Hugs}}} Cindy. :love: I think the holidays make us a little more nostalgic when it comes to family, and furkids, that are no longer here to celebrate with us. I experience this more and more every year that I grow older. But we have all the wonderful memories that can never be taken from us, and we can bring them front and center whenever we want. :)

Yesterday was my day remembering some things that Sparky did - and how he used to clean up any bread cubes that dropped on the floor as I was cubing bread for the turkey stuffing. Wolfy has taken over that job with great delight. :D

Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours.

[Taz_Zoee]

{{{Hugs}}} Cindy. :love: I think the holidays make us a little more nostalgic when it comes to family, and furkids, that are no longer here to celebrate with us. I experience this more and more every year that I grow older. But we have all the wonderful memories that can never be taken from us, and we can bring them front and center whenever we want. :)

Yesterday was my day remembering some things that Sparky did - and how he used to clean up any bread cubes that dropped on the floor as I was cubing bread for the turkey stuffing. Wolfy has taken over that job with great delight. :D

Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours.

Thank you Ellie. It is a tad bit easier having the other animals to keep me busy. I couldn't imagine not having fur kids in the house. It was strange to be home for three days with only the cats last week. Oh, but they sure loved having all my attention.

Happy Thanksgiving to you as well. :)

[ramanth]

I totally understand. The memorial box is beautiful.

I still need to pick out a grave marker for Kia. I can't decide on a photo. Kia would roll her eyes at my indecision. :love:

HUGS!!

[Taz_Zoee]

Today you would be 10 years old Zo-dog! We had a bonfire out at Camp Daniel since you and Jennifer (my SIL) share a birthday. I know you would have rather gone over to grandma's if you had been there.

I am getting to the point that I can talk about you without getting tears. But when I am alone (like right now) my eyes are full. I found a video I took of you and Taggart playing in the backyard. I would post it here, but it is too large to even email to myself. I did post it on Facebook. Maybe I'll see if I can put it on the Pet Talk page on FB.

Anyway, Happy Birthday Baby Girl!!! I hope you will get lots of carrots today up there at the Bridge.

[Karen]

Today you would be 10 years old Zo-dog! We had a bonfire out at Camp Daniel since you and Jennifer (my SIL) share a birthday. I know you would have rather gone over to grandma's if you had been there.

I am getting to the point that I can talk about you without getting tears. But when I am alone (like right now) my eyes are full. I found a video I took of you and Taggart playing in the backyard. I would post it here, but it is too large to even email to myself. I did post it on Facebook. Maybe I'll see if I can put it on the Pet Talk page on FB.

Anyway, Happy Birthday Baby Girl!!! I hope you will get lots of carrots today up there at the Bridge.

I am sure she had a grand party today up at the Rainbow Bridge!

[mrspunkysmom]

Happy Birthday, Zoee. :love:

[Taz_Zoee]

I don't know why, but something compelled me to come write here today. I was just sitting here working away and tears just filled my eyes. Sometimes I just think of letting you go.
I always say I could never cry on command. But I think I could now. All I have to do is think of that night we had to say goodbye. Oh geez, now I am bawling here at work.

I am always comparing Zeplyn to you. I know I shouldn't do that. Like Bruce says.......she's not Zoee. You were MY first dog ever. Sure we had dogs growing up, but I never had one I called MINE.

Ok, I just had to let that out. Now I must go fix my make up!


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[Taz_Zoee]

.....I had to say goodbye. We still talk about you all the time. "Remember when Zoee would do this, or Zoee would have loved (or hated) that."
The dogs got skunked Friday morning and we brought up the 2 times you were skunked. The first time the worst.

It's so strange that it doesn't feel like it's been 3 years since you've been gone. But at the same time it feels like we've had Zeplyn for much longer than just 3 years.
I always wonder what it would have been like to have you and Zeplyn together.

I will turn on your sentsy warmer tonight in your honor (plus it will help with the skunk smell in the house).

Love you Zo dog!!!

[bevrice]

I send an electronic hug to you and one to Zoee over the Rainbow Bridge. I know those feelings well.

[Taz_Zoee]

I send an electronic hug to you and one to Zoee over the Rainbow Bridge. I know those feelings well.

Thank you! :):love:

[Karen]

Aww, she is still in your heart, and in those of pall of Pet Talk. Time is never a constant when it comes to grief and loss.

[Taz_Zoee]

Aww, she is still in your heart, and in those of pall of Pet Talk. Time is never a constant when it comes to grief and loss.

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