My Tasha is gone

[K9soul]

Can't type. Can't see to type. But once upon a time many loved her here. She's gone, as of an hour or so ago. I'll never be the same.

[bobsmom]

Can't type. Can't see to type. But once upon a time many loved her here. She's gone, as of an hour or so ago. I'll never be the same.

I am so sorry to hear about your Tasha. I remember her. We lost our Ginger and Dan was particularly distraught. We know how you feel and are feeling for you. No... it never really ever is the same, but we go on. She will always be in your heart.

[cassiesmom]

Oh, K9soul. My heart just dropped right to the floor when I saw this. I am so, so sorry. Many ((((HUGS)))). I'm sure Phred and Tommy were right there to greet her. You have taken such amazing care of Tasha. :love::love: I am so very sorry.

[K9soul]

Just wanted to add this. I made a couple days ago, when I knew I was going to have to say goodbye.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=esg-EreDNE0

Thank you...

[Freedom]

My heart dropped when I saw the title of this thread. Now I just finished watching your lovely tribute vid, and I am in tears.

Sure, I do remember you and your Tasha. I am so very sorry for your loss. She was special, and lives on, in your memories, in your heart.

:(

[Karen]

Awww, rest in peace, pretty girl! You were well-loved by many, but most especially your mom. Play hard at the Rainbow Bridge, and go see my Dad, I am sure he still has some cookies in his "magic pocket," just ask all the neighborhood dogs.

[Taz_Zoee]

Oh I am so sorry to hear about Tasha. I was in tears just reading your first post. I can't watch the video right now, but I will make sure to have tissue ready.

RIP sweet Tasha

[shais_mom]

loved by many - just as you are. please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.

[chocolatepuppy]

I'm very sorry for your loss of Tasha. :( She was a beautiful girl and will live forever in your heart. :love:

[K9soul]

I don't know how to get through this. She's not here today. The first morning in 15+ years, she's not here to wake up to, to feed, to love on.

I don't know how to get through it. I just want her back.

[mrspunkysmom]

Hugs to you, Jess. I am so sorry for your loss of Tasha

[K9soul]

I paid extra for a mobile vet to come and give her peace at home. I set up the old bed I got for her and Tommy years ago, all washed up. And her favorite snuggle blanket and old snuggle pillow (retired from my bed a few months ago).

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They gave her a sedative first, to relax her. She was a little nervous about strange people in our home carrying bags.

Then she and I laid on her bed together. I held her and petted her. Just held her and talked to her for a long time. I told her she wouldn't have the pain of winter arthritis again. That she wouldn't be falling down anymore. That she wouldn't get panicky when I had to leave her for awhile. She wouldn't have to have her flare of fall allergies and go get a shot. She wouldn't have to worry about her urinary and sometimes fecal incontinence anymore. She would be at peace and pain-free and be the dog she was 99% of her life. I've never had a bond like I did with my girl. I feel like the grief will last forever.

[kaycountrygal]

k9soul, I know you are hurting and feeling so bad. I've just read all the comments here and watched the Loving Tribute you did for Tasha. I am crying because I can see how much you loved your Tasha. Maybe if you can keep reminding yourself that she will not be in any more pain or discomfort, just maybe that will help you get through this terrible time. I know that's what I do when I have to let a furbaby go. It was so loving of you to have a vet come to the house, and for you to hold her so she wouldn't be afraid--such a loving thing to do for her; you loved her enough to let her go. I am so sorry for your loss. ((Hugs))... Kay

[Randi]

Jess, I'm so very sorry for your loss of Tasha, she was a beautiful and sweet girl. It's so hard to say goodbye, but the right thing to do... under the circumstances. She is free of pain and you will have the memories of your time together. I hope it will be a comfort to you that she had a good long and happy life.

Rest in peace, dear Tasha - you will never be forgotten. :love:


((((hugs))))

[Freckles]

I appreciated your loving tribute. If others click on K9soul recent started threads, you'll find an almost five minute loving video. Thank you.

[chocolatepuppy]

Jess, when Mandy died, I didn't think I could go on living. I still won't get rid of her toys or toy box eight years later, I tear up if I try.:(

It hurts so bad, like your heart's been ripped out. :'( It takes a long time to heal. Raven and Rudy will help you. :love: (((hugs)))

[robinh]

Oh Jess, I am so sorry to hear of Tasha's passing. My prayers go out to you. RIP Tasha.

[lolli94]

So sorry! RIP Tasha! :love:

[Roxyluvsme13]

This makes my heart ache. I am so sorry for your loss. RIP Sweet Tasha.

[ChrisH]

Jess. I am so, so, sorry. :( {{hug}}
Rest in peace, beautiful Tasha.

[K9soul]

Jess, when Mandy died, I didn't think I could go on living. I still won't get rid of her toys or toy box eight years later, I tear up if I try.:(

It hurts so bad, like your heart's been ripped out. :'( It takes a long time to heal. Raven and Rudy will help you. :love: (((hugs)))

It's how I feel. I just want to sleep so I don't have to feel. It gets worse every day right now. It's unbearable. I can't eat, I don't even feel hungry. I feed the pups and pet them but it's like I don't have the other feelings I should. I woke up this morning and turned to pet Tash, and she wasn't there. I don't know what to do. I keep seeing her face in my mind. Nothing dulls the pain, except to be asleep. Nothing.

[Catty1]

Hon - how you feel is so so understandable and normal. My only concern is that if you go without eating too long it could really hurt you.

Consider seeing your doctor just to check in. S/he may suggest a temporarydose of meds, just so you can stay healthy. We need you and your pups need you.

HUGS. :love::love:

[kaycountrygal]

Hon - how you feel is so so understandable and normal. My only concern is that if you go without eating too long it could really hurt you.

Consider seeing your doctor just to check in. S/he may suggest a temporarydose of meds, just so you can stay healthy. We need you and your pups need you.

HUGS. :love::love:

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Yes, I agree with above comment. I don't really know you except as a member of this group and I would hate it if something bad happened to you. Truly we all understand the loss of a beloved pet/friend but we must continue for those pets still with us. Probably they are mourning also and wondering where is Tasha. They too need comforting and love as do you. I don't know how long one can go without eating (I've rarely had that problem) but I think it is probably not a healthy thing to do long term. I/we all know it's very difficult right now but you must put one foot in front of the other and go through the motions of moving and living and taking care of the other dogs. ONE DAY AT A TIME!

[Queen of Poop]

Thru tears I send you my deepest condolences. Felt the same way you're feeling when I lost Sami and then again a few years later when I lost Sasha. It hurts and is just about the worst thing ever. I'm so very, very sorry.

Each day that passes will get a little better, easier. Know that Tasha is watching over you and still wants you to be happy.

[CountryWolf07]

So sorry to hear about Tasha!

[K9soul]

I'm trying to get medicinal help, but no one can get me in today. I've lost a "pet" not a child. I'm not a priority. I feel dead insdie and I need help. I will keep trying. someone has to lsten to me. someone has to understand. There has to be some medicinal help.

[Queen of Poop]

I'm trying to get medicinal help, but no one can get me in today. I've lost a "pet" not a child. I'm not a priority. I feel dead insdie and I need help. I will keep trying. someone has to lsten to me. someone has to understand. There has to be some medicinal help.

Is there a pet loss support group near you? Please look and see if there is. They will help you.

[Catty1]

Even call your vet or a shelter/humane society. They may know a doctor who will understand! HUGS.

[cassiesmom]

When I lost Cassie, I called my employee assistance program through work. I felt very silly explaining why I was calling. But the rep I spoke with has 3 dogs and completely understood why I was calling and what I was feeling. He was terrific.

PAWS Chicago (copied from PAWS Web site)
"Are you struggling with the loss of a pet? Join us for PAWS Chicago’s HEAL (Helping Each other Alleviate Loss) Pet Loss Support Group at the PAWS Chicago Adoption Center at 1997 N. Clybourn. The support group is facilitated by Joy Davy, a licensed clinical professional counselor, and is designed to help grieving pet parents work together to deal with the difficult emotions related to losing a pet in a calm, safe, and nonjudgmental atmosphere. Refreshments will be served. This pet loss support group is provided to the general public as a complimentary service, thanks to generous contributions by Hinsdale Pet Memorial Services.

RSVP to Lauren at 773-475-3316 or email [email protected]"

Chicago Anti-Cruelty Society - call (312) 644-8338

Chicago Veterinary Medical Foundation
100 Tower Drive, Suite 234
Burr Ridge, IL 60527
Phone: (630) 568-9760
This is about a 2 minute drive from where I live. I'll contact them and see if they have any print resources and if they do, I will mail them to Karen and maybe she can add it as a sticky thread.

(877) 394-2273 - University of Illinois CARE Pet Loss Helpline - (toll-free) Sun/T/Th 7-9pm CST; voice mail messages will be returned. Local calls: (217) 244-2273. http://vetmed.illinois.edu/CARE/, [email protected]


FREE Pet Loss Counseling at Wisconsin Veterinary Referral Center, 360 Bluemound Road, Waukesha, WI 53188, 866-542-3241, http://www.wvrc.com

See also www.pet-loss.net/resources

[Karen]

I'm trying to get medicinal help, but no one can get me in today. I've lost a "pet" not a child. I'm not a priority. I feel dead insdie and I need help. I will keep trying. someone has to lsten to me. someone has to understand. There has to be some medicinal help.

Aww, we are here for you, and completely understand. Grief is a powerful force, and needs proper help whether it is for a child or a pet or a friend.

[mon]

So very, very sorry for your loss. Was a holiday here so went to Stanley park, but was reminded of you so many times today. My heart goes out to you, had a couple good cries myself. So good that you are sharing your feelings, Tasha was so important and mattered so much, so do you. Sure hope you can get more support and help soon, bless your heart honey!

[Karen]

Oh, and do not feel badly about keeping her toys and things for now. On my keychain is a dog tag from Peppy, my Great Aunt Bertha's beagle, he died a long tome ago, but was a much loved family member. I found it when we bought her house all those years ago, and just couldn't part with it.

[Karen]

Do start a little notebook - I fin handwriting it helps, but you can do it on the computer if you are more comfortable that way. And every day, take it out and write down one Tasha memory that made you smile, or laugh or just made your heart swell with love. Big or small, write one each day, and I promise, eventually you will fell a little better. And of course hug your other dogs - fur is remarkably good at absorbing tears.

And if you want, you can call me, I will PM you with my phone number, or I can call you, just let me know. Like my first and last name, yours is not terribly unique either, so I won't try Googling you!

[Bonny]

RIP Tasha. I watched Tasha tribute & read the posts. It is so hard to say goodbye to our best friends ever. She led a wonderful life with you.

[K9soul]

She was my heart girl, and I can barely function. Going in to see a doctor in a bit this morning. I can't begin to describe the devastation I feel.

[K9soul]

I made this nearly a year before she passed. I just wanted it to be here in her memorial thread. Somehow it shows her sweet soul the way nothing else does.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7bpAZPmPJgc

[Karen]

Awww, so sweet!

[Vette]

Aww =/ im sorry for your loss an wish there was something i could say to help you feel better but i know theres prolly not jack beans of anything that anyone can say thatd help.

i was feeling guilty after Kirbys last vet visit but then my dad picked me up an dusted me off when i told him i felt guilty for having him put to sleep. my dad said: "dont. you have no reason to. you gave him a long and happy life and you ensured he stayed happy. thats all that should matter"

i wish you lots of luck an sending you lots of virtual hugs.
PM me if you like as well

[mon]

Loved seeing the beautiful video of Tasha, what a sweetheart.

[K9soul]

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This was my Tasha girl in her younger years. My girl who hated water; wouldn’t so much step in and get her feet wet. But I waded out to throw balls for Tommy, and there was no way she was going to leave me out in that dangerous water on my own.

So out she followed me. I never called her or coaxed her, she just came. Oh, she tried to keep one foot raised up above that nasty wet stuff, but she just kept following me and following me, no matter how far out I waded. Finally I felt so bad for her that I turned back and went back to land. She joyously followed me back to the beach.

That was my girl. That was her dedication and loyalty to me.

Tasha, you were my good girl. How many weeks and months does it take for the pain of a bond like that to heal? I hope I did everything right by you when you became old, sore and disabled. I hope I gave you the merciful and sweet passing you deserved. Because nothing could ever repay all you gave to me — your whole self.

[cassiesmom]

This thread still has me in tears. I believe with all my heart that you did everything right by Tasha and more, because I have been privileged to witness your loving care for her through your posts and facebook updates. I believe I'll have the honor of meeting her across the Rainbow Bridge, One Fine Day. Please give Raven and Rudy some big hugs for me. ((((HUGS))))

[K9soul]

I brought Tasha's ashes home today. I've been crying most the day. I feel so gutted, and I don't know how to get through this. She was my go-to girl for every loss I dealt with, and I can't seem to deal with losing her. I feel like I'm going crazy sometimes, the missing of her is so intense I feel physically ill much of the time. I can barely eat, I just want to sleep, sleep and sleep. Every day seems to last a year. It seems unreal that there can be a life here without my Tasha by my side.

[Karen]

I brought Tasha's ashes home today. I've been crying most the day. I feel so gutted, and I don't know how to get through this. She was my go-to girl for every loss I dealt with, and I can't seem to deal with losing her. I feel like I'm going crazy sometimes, the missing of her is so intense I feel physically ill much of the time. I can barely eat, I just want to sleep, sleep and sleep. Every day seems to last a year. It seems unreal that there can be a life here without my Tasha by my side.

She will always be there of you, Jess, but we know it is hard to say good-bye to her physical presence. I am glad her ashes are home with you again, though. A reminder and a touchstone for you. How are the other dogs reacting?

[captain]

Dearest Jess,
It is hard. It takes time, and yes, it can take a long time, but don't think that it will go on forever. You will ALWAYS remember her, and look for her, but think of how grateful she is now she is no longer in pain. Think of what a great life she had with you. Think of all the fun times you had.
Most of all, take care of yourself. It is HARD, IT IS! Please try eat a little, take care of your fur-kids, as they will miss her too.

Take care of YOU
Cry Shout Rant, but Love, Love, Love, and remember the good times.

Love
Michelle

[K9soul]

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I’ve always known losing Tash would be extremely difficult, but I didn’t realize the true impact it would have on me. It’s amazing the insights that come to you about someone after they are gone. Losing Tasha wasn’t just losing a beloved dog, I’ve realized she was really my primary emotional support since I adopted her in March of 1999.

I’ve always had anxiety issues, and I used to struggle a lot with very poor self-esteem. Tasha was the first (and only) dog to fully attach herself to me, and only me. The way she is looking up at me in this photo, she didn’t look at anyone else that way. She would tolerate anything I asked of her, she would stay at my side even if I went somewhere frightening or unpleasant for her.

I had a bad bout of prolonged anxiety in summer 2012 with frequent panic attacks and unrelenting anxiety day after day. I would often go sit out on my deck steps and just sit there, heart pounding, trembling, trying to just “live” through it. Tasha always came with me, and never left my side. I could sit out there an hour, two hours. She stayed with me. She never even went to lie down, she just stood quietly next to me, and sometimes kiss my hand or my face.

You don’t truly realize what you have until it’s gone. I thought I knew, but living these past few days, the first time in over 15 years without her presence, I just didn’t fully realize it. I’m plagued with bursts of grief and guilt and doubts about what I did. I think to myself how she may still be with me. The logical part of me points out her deterioration and all the things that led to me deciding she was tired, and was hurting and anxious too much. But it’s hard. My mind plays the day over and I think, “How could I have done it?” And I remember watching her last 2 breaths, and I feel so sick. I have to accept she’s gone, but it’s so hard. And when I am feeling so terrible, and she is not there, her comfort is not there has it has been for so long, I feel even more horrible.

I’m writing some of this out to purge it from within me because it is just sitting there in my heart like a lead weight. I actually feel afraid, kind of set adrift without the one I always had to hold onto. I know all of this is selfish in regard to her, and the point she was at, but I just can’t help it. I feel like I’ll never experience again that kind of bond. She just intuitively seemed to know when I was suffering and was always there. It has left an immeasurable hole in my heart and in my life.

[lolli94]

I'm so sorry for your loss of Tasha. I've never lost a dog who meant so much to me. I dread the day I have to say goodbye to Lolli, because she is my 'heart dog', as Tasha was for you. But you WILL get through this! Make yourself eat, take your other dogs on a walk, and remember the happy times with Tasha, but don't forget how much she was suffering. Don't forget why you made that decision! And I understand, writing is how I sort out my feelings too! Big ((Hugs)) to you!!! :love:

[Karen]

I hesitate to suggest this, but maybe a visit to the local shelter for some puppy therapy would help? You own dogs are likely grieving as much as you are.

[Alysser]

I am so sorry I didn't reply to this until now. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful Tasha, she is absolutely beautiful and always will be. I don't know the feeling of losing your heart dog *yet* and hope to not know it for a very long time. They do leave such a void within you and it truthfully is the worst. Rest in peace, pretty girl :love:

[Cookiebaker]

I am sooo sorry for your loss, Jess! There are no words to make it better.....but maybe just knowing that others share your grief in a small way will help. Huge Hugs!

[dukedogsmom]

I am so very sorry. I'm just seeing this. She always had a special place in my heart. I know you're feeling destroyed right now. It's a hurt like no other. She knew how much you loved her each and every day. I really can't say anything to make you feel better. Just know we're here for you.

[dukedogsmom]

I made this nearly a year before she passed. I just wanted it to be here in her memorial thread. Somehow it shows her sweet soul the way nothing else does.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7bpAZPmPJgc
I just got off work and can barely see to drive. I'll have to watch this later. I still treasure the one you made for Duke.

[bevrice]

It's never easy whether it's a long illness or sudden. Try to remember the wonderful times with your Tasha and know that Tasha's spirit is with you forever. Be safe and happy over the Rainbow Bridge sweet Tasha and watch over your loving family on Earth.