Oh Lacey, how I miss you already!

[Freedom]

My Lacey Dacey was PTS this afternoon. She was between 12 and 14 years old.

She woke me screaming bout 6 AM. I had to call a neighbor to come help me get her on a board and into the car, and I got her to the ER vet. Initially, her blood pressure was high, heart rate rapid, blood glucose extremely high. They started fluids to try to get her stabilized. I left her with them for blood work and tests.

A few hours later the vet called. Ultrasound showed multiple masses in both her liver and spleen, enlarged lymph nodes in her stomach, enlarged heart, both kidneys had extensive damage and were shutting down. They were not able to lower her blood pressure and get her stabilized.

In a way, I knew this was coming. She'd been losing weight, and having trouble eating. The regular vet did a blood work up on her and that showed all well, which meant most likely she had cancer, something was eating up her calories. We decided to wait and see what developed. But NOTHING showed up until this morning.

We all went walkies at Bridgham Farm yesterday. Lacey was so excited, she whined the entire ride over, running to look out first one window then another. She enjoyed the walk, trotting here and there, sniffing smells. Last night at bedtime, she climbed the stairs onto my bed, did her little race around the bed and then did her dig-dig-dig that she often did prior to settling down.

My sweet girl, Mommy's Girl, is gone. I can't hardly take in, just yet.

[pomtzu]

I read this almost in disbelief. No - this didn't happen - it couldn't have................

But it did and I sit here with tears streaming down my face as tho I had lost one of my own. For some reason I always felt a strong connection to your Fluffs and loved them all.

I'm so sorry, Sandie, and tho that seems so little to say, it comes from the depths of my heart. You gave Lacey a wonderful and active and happy life and she never would have known that without you. And how absolutely wonderful that she got to spend her last day with you and her sibs at the Farm. She took a lot of fond and loving memories with her to share at RB, and created many for you to hold in your heart forever.

{{{Hugs}}} :love:

[Catty1]

Oh, Sandie. Hugs hugs hugs hugs. :love:

The only good thing is she was so happy and energetic til this morning, almost to the last moment. She didn't linger in poor health and pain.

Lacey is waiting at the Bridge and dig dig digging in the big meadow, playing like the pup she is.

I am so, so sorry. :love:

[Karen]

Oh, Sandy, our deepest sympathies. We are so glad she had a grand day yesterday, sniffing around Brigham Farm and having such a good time. Let that memory cheer your heart, and know that her pain and discomfort are over. We'll think of her whenever we see the Queen Ann's Lace blooming at the roadside, Lacey flower that it is.

[Bengalz]

I am so sorry to hear this and know how very special Lacey was and is in your heart. To echo Catty, cherish Lacey's last hours with you as great ones, your happy little girl enjoying the good life you gave her.

My heartfelt condolences to you - it takes so much time to heal from such a loss:love:.

[cassiesmom]

Sandie, my heart just dropped when I saw this. I am so very sorry for your loss. Her day yesterday was definitely a happy one. ((((HUGS))))

And a candle http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/message.cfm?l=eng&cid=19029441

[phesina]

Oh, Sandie, I am so very sorry. All my sympathy to you and your crew and all who love her and grieve her so much.

What a wonderful life you and she shared, and what a delightful day you all had together yesterday!

Rest in peace, darling Lacey, so beloved and so full of love, whole and healthy at the Bridge awaiting that glorious Reunion.. One Fine Day.

{{{{HUGS}}}} and :love::love::love::love::love::love::love::love:

[Felicia's Mom]

I am so sorry to hear this. RIP Lacey.:love:

[kaycountrygal]

Sandie, I am so sorry for your loss. She was such a pretty girl and I know your heart is breaking. I got tears reading your post. I know she had a wonderful life with you and the other fluffs. You did all you could to give her a good healthy life full of love and then you were brave enough to let her go so she wouldn't suffer. So sad. ((Hugs))

[Scooter's Mom]

I saw this on FB and my heart fell. I am so sorry. Sorry just is never enough to say.
My condolences on losing your sweetie. (((hugs)) to you and pets to your remaining little fur footed ones.

[Cataholic]

I am so sorry to hear this. As said, what a great day she had yesterday, Sandie. Hugs.

[Queen of Poop]

I am so very sorry for your tragic loss.

[Moesha]

My sympathies are being added to everyone else's. Such a sudden loss is so difficult. Then again, be thankful that you didn't have to watch her suffer and have to wonder if you were doing the right thing for her. Let those happy memories, like yesterday, bring you comfort during this difficult time.

[chocolatepuppy]

Oh no, what a shock! I'm so very sorry Sandie. :(

[krazyaboutkatz]

I'm so sorry for your loss.:( I already saw this on FB but I'm still in shock. I'm so glad that she had a wonderful day before all of this happened. When it's time for me to go, I would also love to go quickly without any suffering. RIP sweet Lacey.:( Please take care. (((HUGS)))

[ChrisH]

Such sad news, I am so very sorry. :( You are in my thoughts and heart. {{hugs}}

Rest in peace beautiful Lacey.

[Bonny]

I am so sorry to read of Lacey's sudden passing. Rest In Peace Sweet Lacey

[Freedom]

Thank you so much everyone. I keep reading and re reading this thread, it helps. I miss her so much.

[lizbud]

Sandie, I am so sorry to hear the sad news about Lacey.:( I feel like I knew her thru your sharing of pictures and stories.
I'm shocked at how suddenly our pets can be taken from us.:( I'm glad you shared Lacey's near perfect day at the farm with the other
fluffs. She sounded so happy to go on her walkie with the other pups.

Rest easy now sweet Lacey. You will be missed by all that knew you. (((Hugs))) to you Sandie.

[Freedom]

Thank you, Lizbud.

[Asiel]

Just read about your Lacey and I can only repeat how very sorry I am that you're going through this . At least you have such wonderful memories of her last day with you-- sounds like she couldn't have been any happier than when you took her to the farm, I'm sure she fell asleep dreaming of all the things she saw and got to sniff on that walk.
I know how hard the next days will be but try to remember all the good times you shared. Her last memories were of that wonderful day and she will be with you again.

[Freedom]

Thank you, Asiel. I am so so sad, I keep thinking of how she came to live with me, and all the things we did together over the 6+ years. Lacey was my heart dog, we had a special connection I've not had with the others.

Lacey is the last of my original 4, they came here within 8 months: Sugar, Lacey, Marlin and Ozzy. Then came my one week foster, Ben. The current group (Tasha, Willy and Riley) are my second wave.

[lizbud]

Thinking of you and of Lacey today. Hoping God grants you a peaceful heart.:)


I'm Still Here

Friend, please don't mourn for me
I'm still here, though you don't see.
I'm right by your side each night and day
and within your heart I long to stay.

My body is gone but I'm always near.
I'm everything you feel, see or hear.
My spirit is free, but I'll never depart
as long as you keep me alive in your heart.

I'll never wander out of your sight-
I'm the brightest star on a summer night.
I'll never be beyond your reach-
I'm the warm moist sand when you're at the beach.

I'm the colorful leaves when fall comes around
and the pure white snow that blankets the ground.
I'm the beautiful flowers of which you're so fond,
The clear cool water in a quiet pond.

I'm the first bright blossom you'll see in the spring,
The first warm raindrop that April will bring.
I'm the first ray of light when the sun starts to shine,
and you'll see that the face in the moon is mine.

When you start thinking there's no one to love you,
you can talk to me through the Lord above you.
I'll whisper my answer through the leaves on the trees,
and you'll feel my presence in the soft summer breeze.

I'm the hot salty tears that flow when you weep
and the beautiful dreams that come while you sleep.
I'm the smile you see on a baby's face.
Just look for me, friend, I'm everyplace!

Author Unknown

[Freedom]

Thank you, that is beautiful. And now I am teary eyed again.

[Casper]

In tears here. :( I am so so sorry to hear about Lacey. Atleast her last days were good going to the park and such, she didn't have to endure a lessened quality of life. Try to take comfort in that. (((((HUGS))))) I know how strong the bond between a heart dog and their human is. Its painful to lose them, but the lessons they teach and the memories they leave behind are worth it.

[Freedom]

Thank you Casper, for posting here. Every day is a tiny bit easier.

[Taz_Zoee]

Oh my, somehow I missed this on Facebook and here!
I am also in tears. I remember the original four. They were my favorite groups of fluffs from when I originally joined Pet Talk.
Sandie, I am so very sorry for your loss.

RIP Beautiful Lacey Girl

[Freedom]

Thank you, Cindy. Day by day

[Asiel]

Freedom I soo understand when you mention Lacey was your heart dog----- they say we are very lucky to have had that one special friend in our life and you did have Lacey. I've had only one heart dog myself and one heart horse if that applies. Lots in between but never to the point of the bond we shared where you're sure they can read your mind before you even have the thought.
It gets better each day but never completely disappears---I would never want it to.
The poem Lizbud put here says it all and I truly believe those words.

[Freedom]

Thank you for posting here, Asiel. Yes, each day is a bit easier.

[Alysser]

I am sorry I just saw this. Rest in peace, Lacey girl. I know you are missed.

[Freedom]

Thank you Allyser. Each day, step at a time.