Barney is an Angel Now.

[MBones]

I lit one as well. There are seven now. What a neat site. Thank you for sharing!

Mary

[Taz_Zoee]

I lit number eight.

[Grace]

I lit #10.

[jennielynn1970]

I lit a few, some for Lara and hubby, one for Barney, others for PT pets and people. Not sure of the numbers, but I usually put PT as my "group" initials, and JLH or JH for me.

[rg_girlca]

Lara, Scott and our beloved Barney. My prayers will be with you on Friday.
What can I say that hasn't been said before. Thank you and Bless you Lara & Scott, for making Barney's time with you, so full of love and care.

Darn I seem to have a blurry screen also. It must be contagious.

[krazyaboutkatz]

I just lit 2 candles for Barney.

[Emeraldgreen]

Lara,
I have also planned on lighting candles until Friday, with special prayers offered up in Eastern time zone, to help his passing.
This little guy continues to amaze me. I cannot read this thread anymore with out getting all choked up over him, and he's not even my kitty. Prayers to you and Barney throughout the week as well. I cannot get over the impact that he has had on every one of us. Amidst all of the sadness and letting go, the unity, hope and love that he has brought us is a beautiful thing indeed.
You will not be alone on Friday.....we'll be with you in spirit.
Mary

Thanks Mary. I really feel like I will be walking into that room with dozens of people! At least in spirit and that is just as powerful if you ask me. I'm grateful for the support. I'm so glad you too will be lighting a candle.

Jenn_Librarian wrote:
I just realized you'll be putting Barney to sleep on my birthday. It makes me sad, but I know it's his day, and all the candles on my cake will definitely light the way for him, lol. It's silly to be thinking of myself, how it's sad it's on my day, but I can share that with him, and will so gladly. He's grown to be such a part of my heart, across the miles, that I don't know that I'll ever forget about him ever.

I'll be thinking of Barney on Friday at about 5:15, and will have my candles ready and waiting, and I won't be blowing them out.

Love you Barn Barn, I wish we could have met. I wish you would have been able to get better and we all could have met you on a summer day full of sunshine and butterflies and a picnic or something that maybe we crazy Barney lovers could have pulled together. Just because.

I wish you would have gotten healthy enough because I really wanted to come and get you this summer and add you to my crew. I really thought of that a lot, and Lara knows if you had been healthy enough, I would have found a way to get to you and, if the trip would have been safe enough, I would have brought you back to PA with me (if Lara would have relinquished you at that point, lol).

I'll miss you, sweet Barney Frog. I'll miss the videos and the grumpy faces you made at the camera. I know you've gotten more love than you've probably ever received in your lifetime, but know that we all just wanted to see a miracle happen, and wanted you to get better. You're our Barney. You're in all of our hearts now, and it hurts to think of letting go.


I'm sorry that his day will be on your birthday. But, it's my belief that once we pass over, we can see our loved ones down here on earth and if that's true, Barney will see you, on your birthday and he will know that the wonderful parcel you put together for him was from you and that you had offered to come and get him before it was realized that his illness was terminal and moving him didn't make much sense. He will know how many wonderful people from PT stepped up to help him and check in on him and pray for him. I'm just so happy that he will finally know because it is the most amazing thing. So please don't be sad on your birthday, know that he will be filled with love and looking down on you with that little froggy face of his, wishing you only the best as you always did for him. :love:

Medusa wrote:
Well, try to look at it this way, Jennie: Jesus didn't command us to celebrate his birth, only to commemorate his death, emphasizing among other things, naturally, the importance of the transition from one life to the next. This will be a rebirth for our Barney. I think probably all of us at PT wanted to make him a member of our household; I know that I sure did. He'd make a wonderful member of our Fur Posse but he's right where he's meant to be, fulfilling his purpose. So many of us don't know our purpose in life and yet Barney lives his every day and he struggled against all odds to do it. All the days of cold, starvation, cruelty, illness and misery were erased w/one swoop of Lara's loving arms when she took him into her care and the outpour of love from the world over that he has caused transcends all belief, religion, race and color. He has united us all in love; that is his purpose and he's fulfilled it well and w/dignity. My hope is that I can learn from his example and fulfill my purpose in the same manner, that I can experience a similar symbolic rebirth, that we all can.

The instant that Barney takes his last breath there will be more kittens entering our world who, unfortunately, may experience the same conditions that Barney did but due to his brief sojourn into our lives, we all will have been changed and ever more alert to the suffering of cats and animals everywhere and will give them comfort in the way that Lara has done. I am humbled by this saga and although I would never want Barney or any animal to suffer, I feel privileged to have been a small part of it.


I too look at his upcoming passing as a rebirth. I will be relieved when he doesn't have to put up with cancer and discomfort anymore. I love the thought that he had a purpose, a mission and that he fulfilled it. He did create love, even though it seemed that he was the one that needed it the most, he ended up creating more and more of it. It is really special and I feel blessed to have known him. I'm sure he would have been in Heaven on earth with you and the fur posse though! lol But perhaps it's as you said, he may be where he is supposed to be.

Shepgirl wrote:
I think Medussa summed this up the best and I feel exactly the same way. Medussa you always seem to know the right answers.
I guess it's a part of pet ownership all of us have trouble dealing with but we have to do what's best for our friends.


I agree, she writes wonderfully!

Randi wrote:
Thank you for updating us, Lara. I'm glad to hear that Barney still wants to eat and talk to you when you visit him, and don't appear to be in pain.
I'm also glad that you have made the decision, because I agree he doesn't have a quality life, and it will get worse. None of us want him to go through more suffering.

Oh, I so wish he could have come to you a year or two ago, while he may have been in a condition to save, but at least he has had so much love and care in the past few months, and will have, until the end.

Barney is in my thoughts and I will light candles for him every day. And Lara, my thoughts are with you also. We're all thankful for all the help you have given him. Few others would have been so dedicated.

Big hugs and lots of kisses to Barney. Will you stroke him gently along his whiskers for me? Fister loves that, and I bet Barney will too

I wish he had found me sooner so I could have offered him a better life for a longer time. Who knows, maybe the first half dozen years of his life were okay and it was only the most recent ones that were pretty tough. I'd like to think that because 14 years of this would be too much I think and so unfair. He does know how to use a litterbox so he was somebody's at some point.

I had a really weird thought the other day actually. There was a man in his 30's who died here from a dirt bike accident about a year ago. It was tragic and he left behind a beagle that ended up at his mother's house which is a few blocks from me. This beagle was very attached to him and sadly, 4 months after the man died, his mother witnessed the beagle being attacked and killed by wolves in her yard. I was so sad to hear this but was also thinking that now the two of them would be reunited in Heaven. Now I'm wondering if little Barney might have belonged to this guy and maybe he was brought to his mother's house along with the beagle. Barney may have wandered off and her house is very close to the property that Barney started hanging around about a year ago, the time this fellow died. Prior to a year ago, Terri, my coworker who has lived at her house for 2.5 half years, said she hadn't seen Barney before.
The other thing is that Barney's eyes absolutely light up whenever he sees Scott. It's as if he 'knows' Scott. And maybe it's because his previous owner was a man. It's just a theory but if it's true, he will find his previous pawpie when he passes on Friday. I have talked with this man's girlfriend on a few occasions and I'm going to ask her if he ever had a black and white cat.

p.s. I'd love to stroke Barney's whiskers for you as you do Fister but he would definitely attack me. He lets me stroke him under his chin and on top of his head though, so that will have to do. lol

MoonandBean wrote:
I'm just so grateful that Barney's last few months were spent loved, warm, fed and safe. You truly gave him a great gift. I'm sorry you have to go through this again. As always, you do what is best for the animal and I thank you for ALL you've done for him


Thanks Deb and thanks to you and so many PT'rs assistance, I was able to help him.

MBones wrote:
Beautifully said. You both expressed very eloquently the essence of Barney and his mission here on earth.
Lara, please give him some scritches under his chin for me and some kisses too.
Love you, Barn Barn.
LES again.
Mary

I sure will! :)

Wolflady wrote:
I know a lot of you may not remember me as I have been away from PT for a long long time, but I check in here from time to time and I saw this thread yesterday and began to read...and read. Hours went by yesterday as I read each post and got caught up in Barney's story. I just have to say bless all of you who have helped this little cat have a "happy ending". I don't think I will ever cease to be amazed by the generousity and big hearts of the members here at Pet Talk. This is really an amazing group of people. I'm sorry Barney wasn't able to pull through, but I agree with what MoonandBean said in that Barney's last few months were spent loved, warm, fed and safe. This really is a great gift.
I'll be thinking of Barney on Friday and bless you Lara and Scott for all you have done.


Thank you for reading through all those pages! I agree whole heartedly this is an amazing group of people and feel blessed to have been a part of it.

Jenn_Librarian wrote:
I'm happy to share the day with Barney, if for no other reason than he'll be up there and my wish will be for him to be out of pain and free and happy again.

That is a wonderful wish. Since you only get one when you blow out your candles, it is very generous of you to give it to him. :love:

Weluvcats wrote:
It continues to amaze me how this precious little man has brought all of us together. It is amazing how many of us continue to keep him and you on our minds.

I have believed for a long time now that God sends these precious creatures to be four-legged angels in our lives. I think we often believe that when one of these unfortunate animals crosses our path, we are helping to save them, and we are...But, I also believe that these angels are sent to us for our benefit, too. Several times over the course of my life, one of our cats (they have all been strays), has appeared, seemingly from nowhere, just when something difficult has or was about to befall me and/or my family. And every one of them has been such a blessing!

I believe that Barney is one of these angels. And when he leaves us here on earth, he will return to where he came from, and will enjoy comfort and peace at The Rainbow Bridge. Thank you Lara for giving him the love and protection that he so deserves.
Judy


I agree, I think Barney has given more to me than I have to him. I'm certain of it. And he is the reason that I finally got off my duff and have started this feral TNR group. I've scheduled the first meeting 2 days after his passing and I don't think it would have ever happened without him. His condition shocked me so much and made me realize the kind of life these abandoned or feral cats live. I know so many PT'rs have a good deal of experience with this and I have no clue what I'm doing but I've got some help coming from some experienced people and we'll try and make a go of it. Barney is truly an angel.

Slick wrote:
All of you have such a way with words that I could never express. I can only day Ditto!!!
I've also decided that reading this thread at work is not a good idea. Someone just came in and asked me why my face was wet....
I think for me what makes this even more heartwarming is the fact that you, Lara and Barney, are only a couple of ferry rides away from me. So close, yet so far away.{{{hugs}}}


That's right, not too far at all. Probably about 4 or 5 hours away? I used to live on the Sunshine Coast which was only a 40 minute ferry ride away from Vancouver!

Grace wrote:
Barney may be an angel of the 4-legged variety, but you, Lara, (and Scott) have been his angel.

As it is written in Matthew 25:40 -
And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.


Thanks Grace and thank you for posting that scripture from the Bible. It is wonderful and really made me happy.

Taz Zoee wrote:
The other day Taz was sitting as you described between sitting and laying down. I stood there and looked at him for a minute and was just thinking of Barney.

Little things like that will always remind me of "our" Barney Boy.

I still can't get over the neat idea that people all over think about this little cat from time to time. I wish he could know and by Friday afternoon he will. :love:

Kb2Yjx wrote:
You all are one bunch of great people!!! I was touched by each of your posts!! Friday, I will be home cooking for our amateur radio club dinner that evening. I will light a candle and put it on the stove(it will be safe there from the Clan), and while I cook, I can say some prayers for Barney , Lara, and Scott. I will put the other candle outside on the front porch before Barry and I leave to bring the food and set up for the dinner. In spirit, we all will be together. Lara, I really hope you will feel all the vibrations from all of us, one BIG hug to wrap around you as you hold Barney, when he leaves for the Bridge...Sandra

I feel the same way! I love to read all the posts of everyone and look forward to seeing what people are saying, thinking and sharing.
Thank you for lighting the candles for Barney. I feel sure that I will feel everybody's thoughts on Friday. When I hug Barney for the last time, you all will be hugging him.

Catty1 wrote:
Lara - what's our Barn up to these days? How's he been?


Well, he's not doing so great today. :( I don't know if it's the lack of insulin or just the cancer. He isn't that keen on his food today. He'll take a few bites but is not nearly as eager as he has been recently. The other thing I noticed yesterday is that the tumor is really progressing. It is spreading and moving up his ear and in front of it now. It's bumpy and ugly. I hate cancer!! I've lost too many people to it and pets too. I stopped his prednisilone about 4 or 5 days ago because combining it with Metacam was upsetting his stomach as I was told it would. He had runny poop for a few days. So I took him off the pred and now he just gets the pain meds but I think the lack of steroids is one of the reasons the tumor is spreading so quickly.
Part of me wants to bring him in tomorrow but it's all been arranged and I have to work tomorrow at 1:00 and I've already arranged to have someone work my shift on Friday so I think I will leave the date. Plus, everyone has their candles all lined up! In the meantime, I will give him extra metacam to make him more comfortable.

Purr_Tender wrote:
I found a wonderful site where I lit a candle for Barney and Lara. It will stay lit for 48 hours. So it will stay lit until Friday around 7:30 pm EST. Here is a link to it. http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng

You can all be a part of this. It will be the candle for BarnB with my initials MBD. Go to "search" either put in my initials or Group search BarnB.


This is amazing! Thank you for posting that and for lighting a candle for Barney. I went onto the site and lit one too. I read everybody's messages and think it is so thoughtful. I got all teared up when I read the one from EM from Ohio who wrote "please say hi to our Emma when you get there". It was so sad and sweet. Is that you?

And thank you to everyone who lit a candle. I really appreciate it and I know your prayers are helping him.

Thank you Amy (3catcondo) who called in a donation to the clinic yesterday. It is not necessary but so very thoughtful of you. It will be combined with the leftover funds from all the wonderful previous donations of other PT'rs and I am more than happy to take care of the rest. It is the least I can do for my friend, and my angel, sweet Barney. :love:

[weluvcats]

is a wonderful thing. If I lived in your area, I'd be right there with you. We could use something like that in my area as well. I wish I could get my hands on the people who undoubtedly abandon these animals!!:mad: My husband and I have been married for almost 26 years, and over the years 10 cats have wandered into our lives. We have found homes for three of them, and the rest we kept. The only options were to surrender them to our animal shelter, which usually has a waiting list of about six months before they can take them or, and this is a completely unacceptable option, hand them over to the police's animal control, where if they aren't claimed in five days (and they never are), they are euthanized.:( We are ex Air Force, so we have lived in several places/states, and these sweeties find us no matter where we are... My husband is convinced that our house must smell like catnip, or there is a sign visible only to cats that must say "Cat Hotel"!:D

Please let us know how your group goes. Good luck! I think I'm going to call our animal shelter and see if there is any interest in starting something like that here.

Also, and I know that I and the rest of us here at PT have said this to you before, but I'm going to say it again...God bless you and Scott for everything that you have done for Barney. Not everone would be as selfless, patient and loving as you have been with this sick, homeless angel. Many, if not all of us here at PT have likely been in a similar situation with a needy animal, so we can all appreciate the lengths that you have gone to for Barney. You truly have been Barney's angels...:love:

I'm sorry Barney didn't have a good day... Bless his heart...The time really is approaching...In the meantime, I, along with the rest of us PT'ers, am going to keep praying and lighting candles, virtual and real, to help light Barney's way to the Bridge. Bless you all...:love::love::love:
Judy

[Nomilynn]

I just sat and read through all 34 pages. I read the first few posts when this thread started, but then I didn't come back until tonight.

A long time ago someone on this site posted a really special story called "Choosing Tears" and I've kept it bookmarked all this time. Here is the link to the thread: http://petoftheday.com/talk/showthread.php?t=72444&highlight=chosing+tears As I read through about Barney I was really drawn to this story, because people who love like you, do it comletely and without thinking of yourself. Barney was blessed to have you for these last few months. Just think how wonderful it will be for him, to move on to the Bridge only remembering love and warmth, and most importantly without fear of where his next meal will come from or trying to find shelter. I truly believe that his memories will only be that of you, Scott and Angela, and what a blessing for him to have!

When I lost my Bassett I was so overwhelmed with grief. The words of my friends at PT really helped me and I hope you can take comfort in them. One post has always resignated in my mind. I remember it every time I look at a picture of Bassett, and I want to share it with you as well, because I think you will find comfort in it:


Naomi, I do not know you. I have never met you. But when you talk about Bassett and your love for her, your concern for her and your care for her - I realize I DO know you.

I have gotten to know you through all of the emotions you have shared over your deep concern for Bassett.

That is all that I needed to know about you here.........that you love this one cat so deeply that you would do anything - almost anything to help her and save her.....made me care for you, a total stranger more than you could ever imagine.

I treasure you, and wish that there were thousands more like you, who understand what a great gift an animal can be in your life.

It was such a simple little circle.......you hugging Bassett, and all of us have joined your circle with so much love and care. We adopted you and now take great joy in your success in caring for Bassett.

And now, our circle is quite large........a community who cares, shares, grieves, and shouts to the roof tops in great joy
when we hear of Bassett's daily progress.

Thank you for being who you are and allowing us to share in this special moment in your life.

These words were written by gini, and I have always treasured them. Now, they make me think of you and Barney.

Thank you for caring for him and loving him.

Naomi

[pomtzu]

Another candle lit in the BarnB group.

[Randi]

I'm in tears that Barney has to go, but we all know that it is the right time for him. He made a huge impact on us all, and he got to know love and comfort in his last time here.

Lara, I'm sure he must have been someone's cat before, and probably wandered off in recent years, so I'm going to believe he's been happy most of his life. :)

More kisses to Barney :love: - and hugs to you and Scott.

I too lit a candle for you Barney, there are now 17, and I'm sure there will be more.

Have a safe journey, dear sweet Barney, you will be missed so much, but never ever forgotten. :love:

Lara, it is 2.30pm BC time you have the appoinment, right? That will be 10.30pm GMT. I will have candles lit at home for sure.

[kb2yjx]

Just lit 3 candles on the candle site! That is a great site!!! THANK YOU!!! Prayers that Barney has a comfortable day....

[stinkysmom]

Please, what will the time be in the central time zone? I can't figure it out.

Another candle lit - SS

[MBones]

I really feel like I will be walking into that room with dozens of people! At least in spirit and that is just as powerful if you ask me. I'm grateful for the support. I'm so glad you too will be lighting a candle.

Lara, you will be. I wish I could be there with you to hold Barney and to give you a hug. I will definately be thinking of you both tomorrow afternoon.

Well, he's not doing so great today. :( I don't know if it's the lack of insulin or just the cancer. He isn't that keen on his food today. He'll take a few bites but is not nearly as eager as he has been recently. The other thing I noticed yesterday is that the tumor is really progressing. It is spreading and moving up his ear and in front of it now. It's bumpy and ugly. I hate cancer!! I've lost too many people to it and pets too. I stopped his prednisilone about 4 or 5 days ago because combining it with Metacam was upsetting his stomach as I was told it would. He had runny poop for a few days. So I took him off the pred and now he just gets the pain meds but I think the lack of steroids is one of the reasons the tumor is spreading so quickly.

I am so sorry that he is not doing well today. Perhaps this is his sign to you that it is his time? I believe that he knows that you are agonizing over this decision, so he is letting you know that this one last final act of kindness that he is requesting of you will be granted. I pray that he is comfortable and pain free so that your remaining time together is memorable.

This is amazing! Thank you for posting that and for lighting a candle for Barney. I went onto the site and lit one too. I read everybody's messages and think it is so thoughtful. I got all teared up when I read the one from EM from Ohio who wrote "please say hi to our Emma when you get there". It was so sad and sweet. Is that you?

Oh Lara, that is my candle that I lit for Barney. I wondered if I was being selfish to ask him to do so, but it brought such comfort to me to know that he would be with my beloved Emma, as well as all the other PT pets who await their loved one's reunion. It helps me to deal with his loss, as well with my Emma's, who I still miss. (I have added her pic to my album.) Thinking of you and Barney,

Mary

[MBones]

CST will be 4:30 your time, as I am one time zone ahead of you.

Mary

[3Catcondo]

I lit a candle for BarnB. Lara, it was my pleasure to contribute some more to his medical expenses, and hopefully it will be put towards making his trip to the RB painfree and stressfree. I will also help contribute to his cremation if you will let me. Thanks again for all you have done! Prayers to you and Barney tomorrow around 5:30 my time. :love:

[Pinot's Mom]

:love: candle #27

Peace and Godspeed Barney, and Peace to your family as well.

:love:look for my babies Jamara & CK - They've been there a while, they'll show you around! :love:

[Catty1]

When my dad had cancer, he got prednisone for the last couple of months. It reduced swelling, but pred really boosts the appetite. As Mom said, "He ate like he was going to live forever." :(

So Barney's great appetite was likely due to the prednisone...and the diabetes and the tumour took all the good nutrition away from our Barn! :mad:

I hope your day with Barney is as peaceful as possible. Barney even has a few toasts in the Thursdays cyber-bar in Dog House.

Is Scott going with you?

HUGS and one more kiss on that dear tuxie forehead.:love: (More, if he'll let you! ;):love::love: )

[mamaducky]

Just visited Barney's candle page (he's up over 30 now), and am glad no one is nearby to see the tears. Lara, you know that hundreds of people will be with you and Barney in spirit and holding you up in prayer tomorrow; you've made everything as good for Barney as you possibly could, and now his life will have an ending with love and dignity and without pain.

I can't begin to tell you how proud I am to know you, even though we'll likely never actually meet -- you are a truly amazing person, and have been a blessing and an example to a lot of people (myself included) as you've gone about your work on behalf of Barney and feral cats. God bless you, sweetheart -- and Scott, too!

Much love,
Diana

[Maya & Inka's mommy]

I forgot to write it here, but I lit a red candle for Barney all day! I hope he saw it, in this for him far away country Belgium:love:

[Purr-tender]

I was checking Barney's candles and saw the link for the mini candle. If you go to the candle that you have lit, the mini link will be there. Click on it and you can minimize it and keep it burning in a corner of your screen while you are online. It feels good to see it. It is wonderful how many people this sweet boy has touched. We should all be so blessed.

Lara, I pray that Barney is having a better day today. Please give him a long, gentle hug from me. I love him dearly!!!

Huge bear hug for you!!!
Mary

[slick]

Candle #33 lit.

[momtomany]

I also lite a candle for our Barney and our Lara. Thank you both for blessing my life with your journey.

[weluvcats]

I lit another candle this evening for our sweet Barney, and Lara and Scott...My heart is heavy tonight as tomorrow is fast approaching...But even though tomorrow will bring sadness, it will also bring peace for Barney's angels, Lara and Scott, and most importantly for Barney himself. Soon he'll be busy joyfully chasing ladybugs and butterflies at the Rainbow Bridge with the rest of our own beloved angels that have left us over the years.:love::)

I just checked...40 candles and counting...:love:
Judy

[Cinder & Smoke]

I found a wonderful site where I lit a candle for Barney and Lara.
It will stay lit for 48 hours.
So it will stay lit until Friday around 7:30 pm EST. Here is a link to it. http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng

You can all be a part of this. It will be the candle for BarnB with my initials MBD.
Go to "search" either put in my initials or Group search BarnB.

Here's a direct link to Barney's Group = BarnB
http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng&gi=BarnB

Find and *click* on an UNlighted candle - it will become Your Candle for Barney.
Follow the instructions that will appear beside your candle.

Safe Trip, Barney!

{{{HUGS}}} to You and Lara & Scott

[Emeraldgreen]

is a wonderful thing. If I lived in your area, I'd be right there with you. We could use something like that in my area as well.

Please let us know how your group goes. Good luck! I think I'm going to call our animal shelter and see if there is any interest in starting something like that here.

Also, and I know that I and the rest of us here at PT have said this to you before, but I'm going to say it again...God bless you and Scott for everything that you have done for Barney. Not everone would be as selfless, patient and loving as you have been with this sick, homeless angel. Many, if not all of us here at PT have likely been in a similar situation with a needy animal, so we can all appreciate the lengths that you have gone to for Barney. You truly have been Barney's angels.

I'm sorry Barney didn't have a good day... Bless his heart...The time really is approaching...In the meantime, I, along with the rest of us PT'ers, am going to keep praying and lighting candles, virtual and real, to help light Barney's way to the Bridge. Bless you all...:love
Judy

That would be so great if you could get some help together for feral and/or abandoned cats in your area.

Thanks for the kind words about taking care of Barney. Someone else said something really similar a few pages back and I've looked for it but can't find it now. I meant to reply to it but somehow didn't. I feel certain that everyone who has posted in this thread, and everyone who has read this thread would do the same. And so many have. I could list them all but the post would be a mile long! :) But Jenluckenbach's rescues and Jenn_Librarian's and Purr_tender's Wilson, Katie's Splinter and Mary's Buddy and Ellie's Sherbie and rg_girlca's Minou. Oh my gosh I could just keep going and going. Everyone here is so giving and kind and I feel blessed that Barney crossed my path. But I know if he crossed any of yours, he'd be in YOUR bathroom, or even better, maybe your livingroom or bedroom!
Anyway, thanks for posting that because I really wanted to say that and have been thinking about it for awhile. :)

Nomilynn wrote:
I just sat and read through all 34 pages. I read the first few posts when this thread started, but then I didn't come back until tonight.

A long time ago someone on this site posted a really special story called "Choosing Tears" and I've kept it bookmarked all this time. Here is the link to the thread: http://petoftheday.com/talk/showthre...=chosing+tears As I read through about Barney I was really drawn to this story, because people who love like you, do it comletely and without thinking of yourself. Barney was blessed to have you for these last few months. Just think how wonderful it will be for him, to move on to the Bridge only remembering love and warmth, and most importantly without fear of where his next meal will come from or trying to find shelter. I truly believe that his memories will only be that of you, Scott and Angela, and what a blessing for him to have!

When I lost my Bassett I was so overwhelmed with grief. The words of my friends at PT really helped me and I hope you can take comfort in them. One post has always resignated in my mind. I remember it every time I look at a picture of Bassett, and I want to share it with you as well, because I think you will find comfort in it.
These words were written by gini, and I have always treasured them. Now, they make me think of you and Barney.

Thank you for caring for him and loving him.

Naomi


Thank you Naomi. I really appreciate that and the words that Gini wrote for you are so kind and caring. I'm so sorry you lost Bassett, it's so tough. The thought of there being a Rainbow Bridge pretty much keeps me going. There just has to be a Heaven and a place where will see them again. I'm sure of it.
I will have a look at the thread 'Choosing Tears' over the next couple of days. Thanks for sharing that link.

Pomtzu wrote:
Another candle lit in the BarnB group.


Thanks Ellie.

Randi wrote:
I'm in tears that Barney has to go, but we all know that it is the right time for him. He made a huge impact on us all, and he got to know love and comfort in his last time here.

Lara, I'm sure he must have been someone's cat before, and probably wandered off in recent years, so I'm going to believe he's been happy most of his life.

More kisses to Barney - and hugs to you and Scott.

I too lit a candle for you Barney, there are now 17, and I'm sure there will be more.

Have a safe journey, dear sweet Barney, you will be missed so much, but never ever forgotten.

Lara, it is 2.30pm BC time you have the appoinment, right? That will be 10.30pm GMT. I will have candles lit at home for sure.


Yes, that's right, I'll arrive around 2:30 but his appointment is 2:40 but I'm pretty sure they will be able to see us as soon as I get there. Thanks for lighting a candle for Barney and thanks for the hug!

kb2yjx wrote:
Just lit 3 candles on the candle site! That is a great site!!! THANK YOU!!! Prayers that Barney has a comfortable day....

Thanks for the candles and the prayers.

stinkymom wrote:
What time?
Please, what will the time be in the central time zone? I can't figure it out.

Another candle lit - SS


I'm a Stinky's mom too! I have a 7.5 year old tuxie girl named Stinky who goes by various nicknames of Stinkerbelle, Stinks, Stinker-roo, Stinkybink. She is very spoiled. :)
I'm sorry I don't know the time off hand regarding Central time but someone posted a link to time zones and I think someone posted an answer for you a few posts after yours.
Thank you for lighting a candle for our Barney Bear.

MBones wrote:
Lara, you will be. I wish I could be there with you to hold Barney and to give you a hug. I will definately be thinking of you both tomorrow afternoon.
I am so sorry that he is not doing well today. Perhaps this is his sign to you that it is his time? I believe that he knows that you are agonizing over this decision, so he is letting you know that this one last final act of kindness that he is requesting of you will be granted. I pray that he is comfortable and pain free so that your remaining time together is memorable.
Oh Lara, that is my candle that I lit for Barney. I wondered if I was being selfish to ask him to do so, but it brought such comfort to me to know that he would be with my beloved Emma, as well as all the other PT pets who await their loved one's reunion. It helps me to deal with his loss, as well with my Emma's, who I still miss. (I have added her pic to my album.) Thinking of you and Barney,
Mary


Yes, the not so good day he had and the 'just okay' day he had today is actually helping me be 100% certain about my decision. It is absolutely unbelievable how this cancer has spread since he's been off the pred. It's a situation that can only get worse so I know it's unfair to let it continue and that letting him go tomorrow will give him the peace he so deserves.
I'm so glad you mentioned your cat Emma in the candle message. The reason it brought tears to my eyes was because it made me remember that we all feel so much love with these wonderful animals and then we all have to go through such a tough time when we say goodbye. The wondering if they are happy where they are now and if they know how much we love them seemed so evident when you wrote that and it is how I feel about every cat I've lost. Thank you for writing that and I have asked Barney to look for Emma when he gets there. I know he is hard of hearing but some believe that animals think in 'pictures' and if you think exactly what you want to convey, but in pictures, rather than words, then they are supposed to pick up on it. I looked at Emma's picture in your album today and pictured her when I sent Barney the images. Not sure if it works but it sure doesn't hurt to try.
I've been trying to send Barney 'thought pictures' of him going with me for a car ride tomorrow and then curling up and having a very cozy sleep with no pain. And then I try and picture Rainbow Bridge so he can see it.

It's kind of weird because he's acting a bit different. When I walked into his room when I got home from work, I gave him some food. Then I went to get some paper towels to clean up the pee and when I came back in and knelt down to do the usual cleaning, he raced over and put his paw on my foot and just looked me in the eyes. He has never done that and it was really neat. I felt like he was trying to tell me something, or that he understood what was going to be happening with him tomorrow.

3catcondo wrote:
I lit a candle for BarnB. Lara, it was my pleasure to contribute some more to his medical expenses, and hopefully it will be put towards making his trip to the RB painfree and stressfree. I will also help contribute to his cremation if you will let me. Thanks again for all you have done! Prayers to you and Barney tomorrow around 5:30 my time.


Thank you for the candle Amy and for your donation. Please don't worry about contributing anything else. :) You've been so generous and I have appreciated it very much. I'm happy to take care of the remaining bill for Barney. Thank you again.

Pinot's Mom wrote:
candle #27

Peace and Godspeed Barney, and Peace to your family as well.

look for my babies Jamara & CK - They've been there a while, they'll show you around!

Thank you for the candle and well wishes. I will tell Barney to lookout for your Jamara and CK. Also Mary's Puddy and Candace's Pyka and my big Maine Coon Tiger and everyone else's beautiful pets that have crossed over.

Catty1 wrote:
When my dad had cancer, he got prednisone for the last couple of months. It reduced swelling, but pred really boosts the appetite. As Mom said, "He ate like he was going to live forever."

So Barney's great appetite was likely due to the prednisone...and the diabetes and the tumour took all the good nutrition away from our Barn!

I hope your day with Barney is as peaceful as possible. Barney even has a few toasts in the Thursdays cyber-bar in Dog House.

Is Scott going with you?

HUGS and one more kiss on that dear tuxie forehead. (More, if he'll let you! )


I'm sorry to hear about your dad Candace. I lost mine to cancer too. :( I hate this disease.
But you're right, the pred must have kicked his appetite into overdrive and now it is quite a bit less. But today he has had a better appetite which is good because it means he gets all his pain meds. I'm giving him 4 drops of metacam in the a.m. and 4 drops in the p.m. I was only supposed to give him 2 drops a day but at this point, he seems to be handling pretty well and I think it's helping him.
I'm so thankful that I don't have to give him the insulin shots anymore. He is such a skinny mini and it was hard to find enough of Barney to put the needle into. I think he is happy I'm not doing it anymore either.

Thanks for telling me about the Barney toasts going on in the Thursdays cyber bar in the Dog House. I've only looked on there one or two times before but I read all Barney toasts and thank you to all of you for thinking of Barney.

No, Scott will be saying his goodbye's to Barney here at the house and then Barns and I will make our way to the clinic.

I will certainly give Barney a forehead kiss for you. He lets me give him tons of those and he purrs when I do it and starts to do paddies with his paws. It's is the sweetest thing ever and always breaks my heart.

Mamaducky wrote:
Just visited Barney's candle page (he's up over 30 now), and am glad no one is nearby to see the tears. Lara, you know that hundreds of people will be with you and Barney in spirit and holding you up in prayer tomorrow; you've made everything as good for Barney as you possibly could, and now his life will have an ending with love and dignity and without pain.

I can't begin to tell you how proud I am to know you, even though we'll likely never actually meet -- you are a truly amazing person, and have been a blessing and an example to a lot of people (myself included) as you've gone about your work on behalf of Barney and feral cats. God bless you, sweetheart -- and Scott, too!
Much love,
Diana


I love how many candles are on that website. It reminds me of what Sandra PM'd me earlier. She said 'all the candles for Barney will outshine the sun!".
I really am going to stop and think about all you guys thinking about Barney and me while he crosses over. It means a great deal to me that so many people care enough to think of us and I just can't get over it.
Thank you for your caring words. I feel surrounded by people that you described in your post. It seems that everyone here is just that kind of person. Thank you for seeing that in me. :)

Maya and Inka's Mommy wrote:
forgot to write it here, but I lit a red candle for Barney all day! I hope he saw it, in this for him far away country Belgium
Thankyou for lighting a candle all the way from Belgium! Barney will see them far and wide tomorrow.

Purr_Tender wrote:
Mini Candle
I was checking Barney's candles and saw the link for the mini candle. If you go to the candle that you have lit, the mini link will be there. Click on it and you can minimize it and keep it burning in a corner of your screen while you are online. It feels good to see it. It is wonderful how many people this sweet boy has touched. We should all be so blessed.

Lara, I pray that Barney is having a better day today. Please give him a long, gentle hug from me. I love him dearly!!!
Huge bear hug for you!!!
Mary


I'm going to make my candle mini so I can continue to see it. Thanks for letting us know about that.
Barney is having a better day Mary. I'm so thankful for that. I'm still sure that it's time but at least he is eating normally again. His tumor is a mess though and he scratched it up pretty badly. The tumor has only been like this for a few days but it looks awful. I keep gently cleaning it up with a warm cloth and tonight I washed his paws to help keep the wound cleaner and to get him ready for tomorrow. He does NOT like it when I wash his feet but I use warm water and soap and try and do it as fast as I can. When I go to dry him with the towel, he attacks it. He still has such gusto considering everything.
Thanks for the hug for Barney and for me.

Slick wrote:
Candle #33 lit.
Thanks Slick. :)

Momtomany wrote:
I also lite a candle for our Barney and our Lara. Thank you both for blessing my life with your journey.


Thanks for that Julie. :love:

weluvcats wrote:
Another candle lit...

I lit another candle this evening for our sweet Barney, and Lara and Scott...My heart is heavy tonight as tomorrow is fast approaching...But even though tomorrow will bring sadness, it will also bring peace for Barney's angels, Lara and Scott, and most importantly for Barney himself. Soon he'll be busy joyfully chasing ladybugs and butterflies at the Rainbow Bridge with the rest of our own beloved angels that have left us over the years.

I just checked...40 candles and counting...
Judy


Thank you Judy. My heart is also heavy. I need to go and spend some more time with our guy. I'm going to spend every single minute with him tomorrow as well.
I think you're right, tomorrow will bring peace for all of us. For me, it has been getting tough to watch him like this, knowing that I could bring him in at any second to end it. It's been weighing on me and I will find relief when that part of it is over. I will miss him with all my heart but I will be thankful that I won't have to see him be uncomfortable anymore.
I love the image of him chasing ladybugs and butterlies at the Bridge and will send those thought images to him when I go in to see him in a few minutes and hope that he sees them. :)
Wow, 40 candles. That is so amazing. Thank you everybody.

Cinder & Smoke wrote:
Here's a direct link to Barney's Group = BarnB
http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/...l=eng&gi=BarnB

Find and *click* on an UNlighted candle - it will become Your Candle for Barney.
Follow the instructions that will appear beside your candle.
Safe Trip, Barney!
{{{HUGS}}} to You and Lara & Scott


Thank you for the direct link. I've fumbled around a few times looking for Barnb's group but always find it. This will save some time.
Thank you Phred for wishing Barney a safe trip tomorrow and for the hugs. :)

I will take a short video of Barney, either tonight or tomorrow and post it here. I took the sweetest video of him about 5 days ago that I've been saving for his Memorial post. It is my favourite video of him of all the ones I've taken and it just seemed right that it be the last one I post. So I will save that one for tomorrow night. But I will post a short one tomorrow before we go.
Thank you guys for everything. I'm just taking this one moment at a time and trying not to get overwhelmed. I know it's the right thing and just have to remember that.

[jennielynn1970]

If anyone wants to read a kid's picture book about a little cat that passes away, it's an oldie but goodie that still brings me to tears. It's by Judith Voirst, and it's called "The Tenth Good Thing About Barney" (http://www.amazon.com/Tenth-Good-Thing-About-Barney/dp/0689712030/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1231479505&sr=8-1). A little boy loses his cat, Barney, and his mom and dad say that he has to find 10 good things to say about him.

It's a tearjerker of a little book, and makes all the little girls at school cry, lol. But it's so tender and sweet.

Just thought I'd mention it. It's also got our boy's name in the title. Can't be bad there.

[weluvcats]

I'm familiar with Judith Viorst's work, but didn't know about this one. Thanks so much for telling us about it...Even though it's a children's book, everyone can appreciate the wonderful story. And the fact that the cat's name in the book is Barney, is so sweet and just perfect. Thanks again...:)

P.S. Thanks for the link, too!:)
Judy

[pomtzu]

Another candle for Barney - 53 now in 4 countries.
Lara - all our thoughts and prayers are with you and Barney - especially today. I know how difficult this is, as I, along with so many others here, have had to do the same thing.
Peace to you, Scott, and most of all, to dear sweet Barney. :love::love::love:
I'm trying to send Barney thought pics of RB and my RB kitties from across the miles. I hope they can travel that far. :)

[Maya & Inka's mommy]

Can somebody please post the link for these virtual candles?

EDIT: I just found this site, and lit a white candle for Barney!
http://virtual-candle.org/showcurrent.php

[Medusa]

Here ya go: :)

http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng

[Moesha]

My thoughts are with you guys today. Thank you for taking the time to respond to all the messages so personally. You are a dear heart that is for sure. We'll all be saddened today, but it is comforting to know that this sweet little kitty will no longer be in pain and that he was able to find love at least once in his life. And it is quite possible it is for the second time if what you mentioned before about having a home in the past is true. And it must because there's no way he could have lived to the age that it is estimated that he is without being cared for by someone. Thank you again. *HUGS* to sweet Barney!

[Maya & Inka's mommy]

Here ya go: :)

http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng

Thanks for the link!! I just lit a candle there too for Barney; my initials are LL

[Medusa]

Barney Boy and Lara, my thoughts will be w/you all day as they have been recently. May your trip be easy and light, sweet Barney. Look for my Puddy and Peeka at the RB. All three of you have endured so much during your time on earth that life at the RB is such a sweet respite. We'll all miss you so much and I envy those at the RB who will have the pleasure of your company. :love:

[gini]

My heart is with you today! Bless you for all that you have done for this sweet little spirit.

[kb2yjx]

The candle in the kitchen is lit all day for Barney. I was thinking about the poem " Lend me a Kitten," and thought about how we have some of our cats for a very long time, and then there are those that stay for such a short time. No matter how long they were with us, we willis still a hole in our hearts. Emily Dickerson wrote something about that. I will see if I can find it. I looked, but cannot find the poem....Barney, I have asked that all the Clan Angels be there for you when you cross the Bridge...Lara, we will be there with you and prayers, too.....HUGS, Sandra

[Purr-tender]

I lit another candle early this morning. It was both for Barney and my Molly. I never got to kiss her one more time or tell her how much I love her. I want Barney to find her and tell her for me. I know that's silly but it is comforting to think that it is possible.

Lara, it was so touching that Barney touched your foot and looked you in the eyes. I can see him, he is so grateful to you and Scott! Bless that sweet boy!

Barney, you are so loved and we will all miss you so very, very much. There will be an army of PT angels waiting for you.

Love,
Mary

Here is the link for "Lend me a Kitten" it's wonderful! http://www.catquotes.com/lendmeakitten.htm

[Randi]

Lara, Scott, Angela and not least, Barney sweetheart... you're in my thoughts today, and I am sending so many hugs to you all that I hope you can feel them. I also have my own little candle burning for you. :love:

Barney, I hope you will have a nice and quiet day with lots of kisses, before your journy to the RB. Fister says: Go look for my mom, Mrs. Spot, she is a tough lady and will protect you - and Pjevs is waiting for you too. He will want to play and chase butterflies with you. :) I have lit a few candles so you find them easily.

Lara, I went back to watch some of the previous video clips of Barney. I really like the one in post #293, he seems happy to be able to explore and also relaxed, but still alert. He is so enjoying the outdoors! :) I want to remember him that way.

Barney, have a safe journey and play hard with the other kitties. You have made a deep impact on so many people and will always be in our hearts. :love: :love:

[slick]

I was awake at 4:15 this morning and couldn't get back to sleep. Max couldn't figure out why my face was wet again......

RB Speckles sent me a message last night that she will be waiting for Barney and will guide him to the red carpet. Word has it that Bootz Da Kat, Tubby, Peanutter, Mz Puddy, Mz Sophie, Mz Hoppy and so many other PT Fur Angels will be waitin' on his arrival.

Thinking of you both today and saying a prayer for Barney's smooth journey on "da silver clowd express".

{{{hugs}}} :love:

[Catty1]

{{{{hugs}}}} to you and forehead kissies to Barn-Barn. :love:

[Pinot's Mom]

A Pets Prayer
If it should be, that I grow frail and weak,
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then, you must do what must be done
For this, the last battle, can't be won.
Don't let your grief stay your hand,

For this day more than the rest,
Your love and friendship stand the test.
We've had so many years,
What is to come can hold no fear.
You'd not want me to suffer, so
When the time comes, please let me go.

Take me where my needs they'll tend,
Only, stay with me to the end
And hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.
I know in time you'll see it is a kindness you do for me
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I've been saved.

Don't grieve it should be you who this thing decides to do.
We've been so close, we two, these years,
Don't let your heart hold tears.
SMILE, FOR WE WALKED TOGETHER FOR AWHILE.

Author Unknown
:love:

Sent with Love,
Pinot's Mom - Maggie

[Grace]

The candle in the kitchen is lit all day for Barney. I was thinking about the poem " Lend me a Kitten," . . . . . . .

I had never read this poem before -

Lend Me a Kitten

I will lend to you for awhile a kitten, God said.
For you to love while he lives, and mourn when he's dead.
Maybe for twelve or fourteen years, or maybe two or three.
But will you, 'till I call him back, take care of him for me?

He'll bring his charms to gladden you and, should his stay be brief
You'll always have his memories as solace for your grief.
I cannot promise he will stay, since all from earth return.
But there are lessons taught below I want this kitten to learn.

I've looked the whole world over in search of teachers true.
And from the folk that crowds life's land I have chosen you.
Now will you give him all your love, nor think the labor vain?
Nor hate me when I come to take my kitten home again?

I fancied that I heard them say 'Dear Lord Thy Will Be Done'
For all the joys this kitten brings the risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shelter him with tenderness, we'll love him while we may.
And for the happiness we've known, forever grateful stay.

But should you call him back much sooner than we planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes, and try to understand.
If, by our love we've managed your wishes to achieve,
Then in memory of him whom we loved, please help us while we grieve.
When our cherished kitten departs this world of strife,
Please send yet another needing soul for us to love all his life.

Author Unknown

[Emeraldgreen]

http://i225.photobucket.com/albums/dd102/emeraldcreek/MeandBarns.jpg

This is a picture taken of Barney last night. (I'm in my usual Barney Bathrobe!)
You can see how the cancer has spread to in front of his ear now.
I wrapped him up in his favourite microfleece blanket and sat by the fire and then walked over to the glass doors and let him look out at all the snow. He looked intently at the yard and then rubbed his head on my chest as if to say "I'm sure glad I'm not out there meowmie". I was a complete mess because he kept looking outdoors and then bonked his head on me over and over again. I cried so much his little head was all sopping wet and when the drops would land on him, he'd look up at me. I told him how sorry I was that I couldn't change things and make them better so he could stay.

Then Sneakers walked into the room and he spotted her. He's never seen her before. He was so focused on her and his little ears faced forwards and he watched her wherever she walked. She was really putting on a show for him and was doing rollies on the floor and looking at him and talking. I never put him on the floor but he never took his eyes off her. I really think he liked seeing her.

I've put together a clip of him eating last night and then a few pics inbetween and a final short clip of him this morning. I will also post the pics below the movie because in the movie they fly by so fast. There is one pic of me holding Barney while I stand in the stairwell and you can see Sneakers down below. She followed us everywhere last night.

This morning I brought in a bowl of warm sudsy water and gave Barney a birdbath. I gently washed his wounds again and washed his fur a bit and then really washed his feet again to get rid of all the kitty litter that always got stuck between his toes. I removed the kitty litter from his box and put a towel in there because I didn't want him to get more litter on his paws because then I'd have to wash them again and he isn't fond of it.

He has been eating Fancy Feast this morning and really enjoying it. He's already had 3/4 of a can. He is so sweet. I find myself in a of a fog this morning. It's kind of like autopilot because if I wasn't, I couldn't see to drive.

He has been so affectionate these past few hours and has rubbed up against me more times than he ever has. I really think he knows.


Thank you all for your posts. I wanted to respond to each one as I usually do but my time with Barney is running so short now, I need to go and be with him.

I will post that really short but special video of our Barney (that I took 6 days ago but have never posted) tonight in his memorial thread. It's a heartbreaker but I think we will all want to remember him this way.

I will be forever grateful for all of your support in the many ways that you guys were here for me and for Barney. :love: Words cannot describe. Major LES here. I have to go. :(

http://i225.photobucket.com/albums/dd102/emeraldcreek/th_b61ac884.jpg (http://s225.photobucket.com/albums/dd102/emeraldcreek/?action=view&current=b61ac884.pbr)

http://i225.photobucket.com/albums/dd102/emeraldcreek/IMG_5134.jpg

http://i225.photobucket.com/albums/dd102/emeraldcreek/BarneywatchesSneakers.jpg

http://i225.photobucket.com/albums/dd102/emeraldcreek/BarneyandSneakersjan8th.jpg

[weluvcats]

Lara, Scott and sweet Barney...Bless you all and Godspeed Barney on your journey to the Rainbow Bridge...Our thoughts, prayers and love go with you.:love::love::love:

Judy

PS...I wanted to add this...This is the prayer that we said when our beloved Billy died last June, and we buried a copy of it with him. It's a wonderful prayer...

Blessings for a Dying Pet

Oh, Beloved most merciful Lord, we thank you for the time together
with our beloved pet. We ask that (his/her) crossing will be peaceful
and painless. We ask that you impart to our pet how much we love
(him/her.) We ask that they cross over Rainbow Bridge with ease,
joy and delight, looking back and seeing us standing there with
shining hearts of love that radiates so great that it reaches them in
Heaven. We ask also for your blessings for our own hearts as we
prepare to let go and give our pet back to you, dear Lord. Bless our
pet's last days that as this life comes to a close, our last days and
hours together are gentle, peaceful and filled with love. Let the
pools of our tears reflect the light of your love. Dear Jesus, meet
our pet at Rainbow Bridge and walk them gently to the beautiful
fields of flowers, where all pets romp and play.

We ask this blessing, dear Lord, in our sincere love and gratitude.
Amen.

[Randi]

LES here. :(

Lara, thank you for sharing Barney's last day with us. He goes with a full tummy, clean, and with a deep feeling of love and comfort. :love: He even had a beautiful kitty girl to look at. :)

He looks so sweet with his crossed paws in the picture of you holding him in his favourite blanket.

When I wathced the video, Fister jumped up and looked too, and he purred a goodbye.

It's almost time to cross over, Barney - have a gentle ride and a good rest, before you join the other kitties. We will all keep you in our hearts.

Sending lots of love with you. :love: :love: :love:

[Purr-tender]

PS...I wanted to add this...This is the prayer that we said when our beloved Billy died last June, and we buried a copy of it with him. It's a wonderful prayer...

Blessings for a Dying Pet

Oh, Beloved most merciful Lord, we thank you for the time together
with our beloved pet. We ask that (his/her) crossing will be peaceful
and painless. We ask that you impart to our pet how much we love
(him/her.) We ask that they cross over Rainbow Bridge with ease,
joy and delight, looking back and seeing us standing there with
shining hearts of love that radiates so great that it reaches them in
Heaven. We ask also for your blessings for our own hearts as we
prepare to let go and give our pet back to you, dear Lord. Bless our
pet's last days that as this life comes to a close, our last days and
hours together are gentle, peaceful and filled with love. Let the
pools of our tears reflect the light of your love. Dear Jesus, meet
our pet at Rainbow Bridge and walk them gently to the beautiful
fields of flowers, where all pets romp and play.

We ask this blessing, dear Lord, in our sincere love and gratitude.
Amen.

In Jesus' name, AMEN!

Mary

[slick]

Big time LES here when viewing that video and pictures. :(:( A wonderful tribute to such a sweet boy.

The time is near and two more candles have been lit. One for Barney B and one for Lara and Scott.

We cry with you.
We feel your hurt.
We will help you through this.

Jump freely little Barney. :love::love:

[MBones]

Blurry moniter again.... When I was watching Barney's video, my cat Abby jumped up on the desk and watched Barney too! It's like there's this unspoken cat language thing going on.

How neat that Barney has been so affectionate today. I think that is his way of telling you "thankyou for all that you've done for me and will do??"

Peace to you Barney as your crossing nears.

Peace and Hugs to you Lara, as well.

Mary

Murps, meeps, purrs and headbutts from Abby and Suki to assist Barney in his transition.

Love you, Barney :love:
We will all miss you.

[Taz_Zoee]

20 more minutes (or so) and you will be pain free and running like a kitten at the bridge, Barney.

I lit another candle for you, since my first one was getting short. And I have the mini-candle up on my screen and it will stay there until I leave work at 4:30.

(Must make sure I have more tissue.)

Rest in Peace Barney, you are loved by so many people that have never met you and have touched our lives in a way that is indescribable.

Big ((HUGS)) to you Lara.

[rosethecopycat]

Let's chain our hands together and think of sweet Barney.....


Someone grab my hand.....[name]

[slick]

Here's my hand Rose....

[Purr-tender]

Rose, I've got you're hand, squeezing tightly!:(

Mary

[weluvcats]

While I reach for more kleenex...:(

Judy

[Purr-tender]

Judy, pass the Kleenex, please:(

[jennielynn1970]

Here's some tissue, and my hand, Mary.

Jennie

[slick]

I brought a box of kleenex with me. It's here on the table if anyone needs it.:(

[weluvcats]

some virtual kleenex...:(

Judy

[weluvcats]

We all sure need 'em...:(

Judy

[Purr-tender]

There's nothing better than friends at a time like this. (Grabs another tissue) Thanks for bringing them.


Mary

[Taz_Zoee]

I even have someone at my desk and the tears are still falling.

Someone take my hand. And pass the tissue please.

I think Barney must be on his way to the Bridge now.

There should be enough candles lit right now to light your way Barney Boy.

[Nomilynn]

I'm here too, and just posted this thread as well..

http://petoftheday.com/talk/showthread.php?t=149771

Now I need some tissues for my LES!

[weluvcats]

I've been a mess all afternoon...We're all in this together, and that is so wonderful...:(:)

Judy(grabbing more kleenex)

[slick]

**sniff**
**blow**
I'm supposed to be working but as far as I'm concerned this is more important....the gathering of friends to give comfort and support to one of our own.

You are free now Barney. No more pain, no more cancer, but forever basking in the warm rays of the rainbow. :(:(

Here Nomi **hands over the kleenex box**

[weluvcats]

Sweet boy...I'm sitting here with 2 of our 4 kitties sitting on me, trying to be of comfort...:love:What would we all do without our precious babies??

Judy

[Purr-tender]

sniff, sniff....our dear sweet Barney had 85 virtual candles and endless real candles lighting his way to his new home.

We need to send a huge, long hug to dear Lara. Bless her.

Mary

[kitten645]

Grabbing Cindy's hand since she's closest to me but giving a group hug to everyone :( In his short time with us, Barney taught us alot about love. Godspeed little one. :love:
Claudia

[weluvcats]

to Lara and Scott...:love:

Judy

[MBones]

Pass the Kleenex, please? Here's another group hug (((((((((()))))))))

RIP, dear Barney.

[slick]

85 candles and endless real ones?! Boy, the RB must be so bright...maybe we should have given dear Barney some sunglasses.

Big {{{hugs}}} to Lara and Scott who desperately need us now.:love::love:

[Moesha]

I wasn't near a computer, but I was thinking of Lara and Barney this afternoon. I hope all went well.

[weluvcats]

sun glasses from all the lights shining for him!:):love::cool:

Judy

[Taz_Zoee]

Barney should be just as toasty warm as he was in Lara's bathroom with all the candles that are lit for him today.

Claudia, thanks for the hand. :)

[pomtzu]

I turned on my lighthouse in the front window for Barney at 5 pm. All day long I've had tea light candles burning in a ceramic lighthouse that I have. The last one flickered out at 5:54. I can't help but wonder if that was the actual time....
Kleenex needed here please, and I could use a hand to hold too.

[weluvcats]

and counting for sweet Barney!!:love:

Judy

[Purr-tender]

passes Kleenex box...here's my hand, Ellie.

Mary

[weluvcats]

some kleenex...:(

Judy

[jennielynn1970]

I have tealights lit in all my saltbox houses on my mantle. It looks so nice and cozy. I know Barney will feel warm and cozy at the Bridge.

Here's another hand, Cindy.

[weluvcats]

most of the afternoon...It'll feel like summer for Barney...

Judy

[Taz_Zoee]

I have tealights lit in all my saltbox houses on my mantle. It looks so nice and cozy. I know Barney will feel warm and cozy at the Bridge.

Here's another hand, Cindy.

Thanks Jennie. :)

[pomtzu]

Thanks Mary & Judy - what a great bunch you ALL are. :love:

And funny - but I was thinking of sunglasses for Barney too when I saw that candle count growing.

I hope Lara's okay...

[phesina]

My 3 candles in the window are still burning.

Godspeed, Barney, you are home now, safe and healthy and pain-free and happy, where you will await the arrivals of your beloved Lara and Scott, One Fine Day for each one.

Extending both hands to whoever will please grab them,

Pat with major LES and a blurry screen

[Purr-tender]

cleaning up tissues..

It has been wonderful to have you all to hold on to. I need to make myself get up and go feed the fur kids. Take care. Barney should be safely home now.

Mary

[Taz_Zoee]

I hope Lara's okay...

Me too.


My 3 candles in the window are still burning.

Godspeed, Barney, you are home now, safe and healthy and pain-free and happy, where you will await the arrivals of your beloved Lara and Scott, One Fine Day for each one.

Extending both hands to whoever will please grab them,

Pat with major LES and a blurry screen


I've got your hand Pat! Even though I'm already holding Claudia and Jennies, in cyberspace you can do anything.
And I think we all have the blurry screen syndrome right now.

[gini]

Dear Barney, I know that you will find a way to let your Mom and Dad know that you are now happy, free of cancer and enjoying the huge greeting you had at the Rainbow Bridge.

Just a gentle paw on their cheek should do it.

Beautiful spirit - enjoy your freedom and health - you will be reunited one day.

[weluvcats]

(holding hands and picking up tissues)..."Thanks everybody" is right!!!:)Wow! As bad as it's been, it's easier with lots of support from everyone...I hope Lara's okay, too. I think she is...She's strong and has a lot of love and support, and knows that Barney is now free of pain and sickness at the Bridge...:love::)

Judy

[pomtzu]

Extending both hands to whoever will please grab them,

Pat with major LES and a blurry screen

I've got you Pat.
I swear - there must be a problem with everyone's screen!

[weluvcats]

of Blurry Screen-itis going on...:)

Judy

[Medusa]

I just got home so I didn't get to light my candle at 5:00 as I had planned. The weather is terrible and so are the roads so it took forever to get home so I ran upstairs right away and lit Barney's candle to help light his way to the Bridge, although I know he won't need it. Barney's sweet little face is light enough. I also lit a candle for Lara. It's so difficult to help a fur child to the Bridge but I think we'll all agree that this time it's really special. I thought of nothing else all day and when I got slowed down in traffic I used the time to say a prayer for Barney.

A round of tissues for everyone.....:love:

[slick]

**sniff** Here's a big garbage bag. Just dump your tissues in here. I must find a way to dry off my face and collect myself. I surely have to get some work done today.

Welcome home sweet Barney! Thank you for sharing your time down here with us.

Lara and Scott, when you get home, take some time to breath and grieve. When you've settled down please come back and let us know that you are OK.

{{{more hugs}}} all around:love::love:

[weluvcats]

all afternoon, but thanks for more...We've got icky weather here, too...We had 10 inches of more snow overnight...

And you're right about Barney...His light shines brightly enough, I'm sure, but boy does this little guy have the candles burning for him today!!:love::)

Judy

[pomtzu]

A round of tissues for everyone.....:love:

Thanks Sis.

I guess this has been a rough day for all of us, but the worst is now behind us. I'd like some happy and positive thoughts of Barney now, and knowing that he is now free, is a good place to start.

We all love you Barney! :love:

[weluvcats]

for the garbage bag...It's gettin' full!

Judy

[weluvcats]

I just thought the same thing...It's like going through a storm and now the storm has passed, and the sun is peeking through the clouds...Barney is happy, healthy and free...Let's all be thankful and joyful about that!!:love::)

Judy

[Medusa]

Yes, whenever you light a candle, a sense of peace and warmth washes over you, so we should allow this feeling to stay w/us. Barney has been through the worst of it; it only gets better for him from here. Today is his birthday. :)

[Purr-tender]

The "kids" are cleaning their paws after supper, so I'm back with you.

Mary, I'm glad you made it home ok. We're suppose to get your weather in the morning.

Ellie, you're right about just happy thoughts of Barney now. Isn't it wonderful that that little "Scrawny" boy could bring so many people together in love and compassion!! He is truly are angel now.

Just as slick said, Lara as soon as you get settled in, please let us know that you're ok. I hope you felt us with you, you must have!!:love:


Mary

[pomtzu]

I just thought the same thing...It's like going through a storm and now the storm has passed, and the sun is peeking through the clouds...Barney is happy, healthy and free...Let's all be thankful and joyful about that!!:love::)

Judy

I'll bet he's up there getting fitted for his wings by The Tuxie Troupe!! Quite a sight with all those black and whites just fussin' over their new member! :)

[Catty1]

I had my 'reminder' blink on my cell phone this afternoon...I am sorry to not be here.

Does anyone else need a hand? Here's mine...

I pray all was peaceful for Lara and dear Barn Barn.:love:

[weluvcats]

I'll bet he's up there getting fitted for his wings by The Tuxie Troupe!! Quite a sight with all those black and whites just fussin' over their new member! :)

How great!!!:D

Judy

[weluvcats]

I had my 'reminder' blink on my cell phone this afternoon...I am sorry to not be here.

Does anyone else need a hand? Here's mine...

I pray all was peaceful for Lara and dear Barn Barn.:love:

Judy:)

[slick]

I'm reminded of this
"Every time a bell rings, an angel gets his wings"
...and I'm also thinking of sweet Samantha and I'm sure she's part of Barney's Welcoming Committee.

I'm almost jealous because they are in a much better place than I am. I can hardly wait to get up there and meet them. **happy thoughts**:)

[Catty1]

Barney.

12,636 views of his thread.
598 posts.
88 candles from FIVE countries.

I wish we could bottle whatever this is and send it to heal all the war in the world.:love:

[weluvcats]

Barney.

12,636 views of his thread.
598 posts.
88 candles from FIVE countries.

I wish we could bottle whatever this is and send it to heal all the war in the world.:love:

Judy:)

Gotta go feed the critters...The two-legged and four-legged kinds! Back later!:)

[pomtzu]

Barney.

12,636 views of his thread.
598 posts.
88 candles from FIVE countries.

I wish we could bottle whatever this is and send it to heal all the war in the world.:love:

Quite an accomplishment by that sweet little rag-a-muffin, isn't it? :D

[Purr-tender]

I'm sure Barney's not the braggin' kind, but if he was, boy wouldn't he have major braggin' rights!! He arrived, sent by those here who loved him dearly, on the wings of prayers and warm breezes from his many candles!! What an arrival!!! :cool::cool:

[wolflady]

Gosh, I probably shouldn't have opened this up at work, but I wanted to read everyone's posts on Barney's last day. I got LES after that last post by Lara. I've had my mini candle burning here on my computer screen all day, and when I get home I'll light one for Barney.

Purr-tender, you said it beautifully! :) I'm sure his was an amazing arrival. :love:

[caseysmom]

I will light a candle this evening when I am home for the night.

RIP sweetie.

[weluvcats]

I'm sure Barney's not the braggin' kind, but if he was, boy wouldn't he have major braggin' rights!! He arrived, sent by those here who loved him dearly, on the wings of prayers and warm breezes from his many candles!! What an arrival!!! :cool::cool:

I'm sure all the other angels at the Bridge are thinking "Boy, does the 'new guy' like to make an entrance or what???" :)

Judy

[mamaducky]

... and more prayers for Lara and Scott as they go through what must be such a rough evening.

Barney, look for our Murphy up there -- he'll be sure to be able to show you where the sunny spots and the hidden stashes of milk rings are.

OK, my screen is having the same problem as everybody else's, so I'm off for the Kleenex, too...

Love to all of you,
Diana

[weluvcats]

It's been a tough afternoon all around...Especially for Lara and Scott...Bless both of them. Here's sending them both more hugs and warm thoughts to help them through this difficult evening.:(:) I know that Barney is smiling down on them...:):love:

Judy

[Catty1]

Lara and Scott - you each feel worn and burnt out and ragged inside to varying degrees at different times...


gentle {{{{hugs}}}} from me, and I think I can speak for all your friends here.

I hope Barney knows that we were his friends, too. :love:

{{{{hugs}}}}

[Moesha]

Snuggle with the other kitties. Let them lick the tears away.

[Grace]

I Did Not Die

Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow;
I am the diamond glints on snow.

I am the sunlight on ripened grain;
I am the gentle Autumn’s rain.

When you awaken in the morning’s hush.
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft star that shines at night.

Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there;
I did not die.


- Anon -

[weluvcats]

beautiful...It really is...:)

Judy

[kb2yjx]

I lit my outside candle at 1600. I thought of Barney while cooking at the ham club meeting/supper. I am so glad you all were there holding hands and hugging each other!!! I was there in spirit!!! Here is a little poem book that I bought after Ralph Syracuse left for the Bridge.

WEEP NOT FOR ME Constance Jenkins

Weep not for me though I am gone
Into that gentle night.

Grieve if you will, but not for long.

Upon my soul's sweet flight.

I am at peace, my soul's at rest.

There is no need for tears;

For with your love I was so blessed
For all those many years.

There is no pain, I suffer not;

The fear now is all gone.

Put now these things out of your thoughts,
In your memory I live on.

Remember not my fight for breath,
Remember not the strife.

Please do not dwell on my death,
Bur celebrate my life.

Sleep softly, sweet Barney...

[slick]

Grace, that's beautiful.
Kb, such comforting words.

I'm finally home from work and will be lighting a candle for Barney shortly. It seems I've perfected the talent of driving and crying at the same time...:(

Gosh, I'm worried about Lara and Scott. This first night will be a long one for them. They have us and each other along with the rest of their furbabies but I fear that may not be enough to bring them comfort tonight.:(

{{{Group Hug}}}:love::love:

[Emeraldgreen]

Wow you guys! So many pages of posts have appeared since this morning! I've read every one of them and thank you for all being there for Barney and for me and Scott.

What a day. What a cat.
I had butterflies in my stomach from the moment I woke up to the moment he left for Rainbow Bridge.
When I opened his door this morning he was so chipper and meowed very loudly at me. It made me sad. But Barney just carried on as usual and looked at me like "come on, give me my yummies already!!", which of course I promptly did.

I went in to visit with him so many times and gave him quite a few plates of food too. I bundled him up and walked around with him again. It was probably the best day I've spent with him since I brought him home.
I kissed him hundreds of times and cried a bunch. Scott filmed me holding him just a few minutes before Barney and I left for the hospital and as usual, it is the darkest video ever but this time I'm glad because half way through I started crying when Scott started talking about Rainbow Bridge. So hopefully you can't see that part! I will post it at the end of this post.

I put Barney into a carrier and I hated the look in his eyes, he looked so scared. I loaded him up into our truck next to me. Scott said his goodbyes and then we drove down the driveway. Barney was meowing so much and I hadn't heard this meow before. He was scared. So, when I pulled onto our street, I pulled over and took him out of the cage and bundled him in his blue fleece blanket so he was all snuggly and I put him on my lap as I drove.
He never meowed again and was quiet as a little mouse.

The ferry ride was really rough and the boat was tossing all over the place. I was actually a bit scared. I thought 'if Barney dies from drowning instead of at the vet clinic, I'm going to be so mad!'

Travel time to the vet took about 45 minutes in all and he just snuggled in and didn't make a peep. He wasn't sleeping because I kept petting him and looking at him. His little eyes were open and he was just looking around but had his chin resting on the blankets.

We drove along the ocean and the waves were crashing in. I told Barney that his time was almost here. When we got there, I carried him in, in his blanket and paid for everything first so I wouldn't have to do it afterwards with blurry eyes.

A receptionist put us in a room and Barney remained so still. Robin the vet came in and she unwrapped him a bit and it was so weird, it was as if he had already been sedated. He let her handle him anyway she wanted and was kind of limp. Just an hour before, he was walking around, meowing and eating. She had a look at his back leg because that is where she wanted to give him the sedative. Normally he would have really put up a fight if you touched any of his legs but he didn't move.

I don't know if he was scared or if he was sleepy because he'd been bundled up for 45+minutes with me or if he knew what was coming and wasn't fighting it one bit or if it is all three things combined.

Robin gave him the sedation shot while I rubbed his head to distract him. She left us alone for about 5 minutes. I think by this time it was around 2:30 or 2:35. He was really out of it after the shot but at one point he sneezed and it really startled me.
Shortly after, she came in with the tech and they gave him the final shot. Robin said "it's time to go to sleep now Barney". Tears were just falling by the dozens from my eyes onto my jeans. I was so incredibly sad.
Robin was very kind and said that Barney sure found the right person when he found me and I was happy to hear that. I was concerned that she would think that I'd left him too long. But I think she could see how much he meant to me.

I was left with him for as much time as I wanted. It was strange to see him 'gone' but he was in peace and the suffering was over. I wrapped him up and took him out to the truck because I had arranged to drive 40 minutes south to a pet crematorium. I know the vet clinics also offer this but I've heard of some stories about ashes coming back that don't seem to fit the animal. A ton of ashes come back for a cat while the ashes for a Rottweiler come back in a box the size of a hamster. I was just so worried that I wouldn't get 'Barney' back so I found a small place where I thought it would be better.

So I drove down to the town with Barney and did a bunch of crying. I don't really remember much of the drive. Probably shouldn't have been driving. I called my husband and he said that he had lit a candle for Barney at 2:30 too. :love:
It was starting to get a bit dark by the time I got there but I couldn't find it!! I drove on all these country roads and had to put my truck in 4-wheel drive because of the snow and almost got stuck a few times. I never did find it and when I called, they didn't answer. So, after about an hour, I headed back up to the clinic where Barney was put down. Around 5:00p.m. I brought Barney back to them and asked if they could have him cremated and explained that I couldn't find the other place. They were really nice about it and took Barney. I wrapped him in a fleece shirt that he always liked to sleep with and asked that he be cremated with that.

So, he is gone. Thank you all for your posts and support and candles. Barney is officially an angel now and I miss him terribly as I know all of you do too. He really was one amazing little cat. I'll never forget him and I'm so glad that he found all of us. :love:

I will post a Memorial thread for him now. Below is the video of us just before we left today. I will post the other video in the Memorial thread.


http://i225.photobucket.com/albums/dd102/emeraldcreek/th_Barneysday007.jpg (http://s225.photobucket.com/albums/dd102/emeraldcreek/?action=view&current=Barneysday007.flv)

[weluvcats]

these wonderful poems? They are so sweet and beautiful... Thanks for sharing these...:)

Judy



I lit my outside candle at 1600. I thought of Barney while cooking at the ham club meeting/supper. I am so glad you all were there holding hands and hugging each other!!! I was there in spirit!!! Here is a little poem book that I bought after Ralph Syracuse left for the Bridge.

WEEP NOT FOR ME Constance Jenkins

Weep not for me though I am gone
Into that gentle night.

Grieve if you will, but not for long.

Upon my soul's sweet flight.

I am at peace, my soul's at rest.

There is no need for tears;

For with your love I was so blessed
For all those many years.

There is no pain, I suffer not;

The fear now is all gone.

Put now these things out of your thoughts,
In your memory I live on.

Remember not my fight for breath,
Remember not the strife.

Please do not dwell on my death,
Bur celebrate my life.

Sleep softly, sweet Barney...

[Moesha]

I wish you could all see how many people are reading this thread right now. I just clicked on the online users link and way over half on the first page were reading this thread. Barney was a very loved kitty. What a rough day you had. I do hope that you feel some comfort and support from all of us here.

[kb2yjx]

MEGA HUGS Lara!!! It was a rough day for you...take care of yourself....Sandra

[Purr-tender]

Thank you Scott for Barney's good-bye video.

Thank you Lara for allowing us to be part of his life, too. I am so very sorry for your loss, for our loss. It hurts so much even though we all know he is at peace and surrounded by PT angels. God bless you, Lara and Scott.

Love,
Mary

[weluvcats]

But, as you said, he is at peace and his suffering is over. We were all a mess here this afternoon, as I'm sure you saw in our posts, but I am glad that Barney's and your ordeal is over. Bless his sweet little heart, this is a kitty that none of us will ever forget. We will also never forget your kindness, love and compassion for this lost little angel. I believe that there is a special place in Heaven for people like you. Take comfort in knowing that while Barney was with you, you did your absolute best for him, and when the time came, you said goodbye to him with love and compassion. None of us can ever hope for more. God bless and keep you, Lara and Scott. Your Barney is purring happily and smiling down on you from the Bridge.:love::)

Judy

[kt_luvs_kitties]

Lara, I am just so sorry. I am crying my eyes out, with the rest of you.

I could not sleep at all last night, just thinking about sweet Barney. I prayed for him all day long. All last night. And I mean constantly. I kept looking at the clock and cringing. My heart hurts right now.

I wish I could give you one big *HUG*. I hope that you truly know the impact you had on Barneys life. It was the difference for him.




RIP sweet Barney. I am so sorry your whole life was not filled everyday with the love you felt in your last days. You were so unlucky, but then again, very much lucky. I think God knew you deserved the very best last few months with someone who loves you completely and wholeheartedly. You can now be Lara and Scotts Angel, and protect them like they did you. I hope that you can see my tears, and know that I loved you very much, even though I never met you. I feel I knew you anyways.... Gentle kisses sweet Tuxie boy.

[Taz_Zoee]

RIP Sweet Barney

[krazyaboutkatz]

I'm just now getting caught up on this thread and was unable to post anything until now.:o

Lara, Scott, and Barney, I thought of all of you today and like everyone else has said it's been a very sad and tearful day.:( I'm glad that Barney is finally painfree and at peace now. We'll never forget you Barney. RIP sweet boy.:(

[Medusa]

Lara, I know that you and Scott realize how much Barney meant to all of us on PT. I do hope, however, that you realize just how much you and Scott mean to us as well. This has been quite an experience and a real blessing in my life. And now I can add another name to my Cat Angel list. :love:

[pomtzu]

Lara & Scott
Bless you both for all that you did for this once lost soul. You not only cared for him in regard to his health, but you allowed him to find himself once more, never to be alone and lost and forgotten again. You gave of yourselves - love and care and compassion. Never doubt for one second that you gave him anything but your best, and never question yourself on your decision to help him leave this world with peace, love and dignity. You are very special people, and I am proud to consider you as my friends. If only there were more folks like you in this world - what a truly wonderful place it would be. I believe that there is a special place for you in Heaven, and Barney will be waiting there for you. :)
Comforting hugs to you across the miles........................:love::love::love:

[Randi]

My candles were burning for Barney all evening, of course. It must have a wonderful sight with a long alley of candles to guide him :)

I’m glad Barney had a good last day, with lots of cuddles, kisses and yummy food. And it’s a comfort to know that he was in your lap on the trip.

Lara, I know that Barney felt your love, and also the love we all sent to him. He is your special angel now, and one of these days, he will give you a sign that all is well. :)

Thank you Lara, Scott and Angela for all the love and compassion you gave him.

Sleep softly, Barney - you have touched our hearts all over the world and will be remembered forever.
:love: :love: :love:

[phesina]

Rest in peace, sweet beloved Barney.

The peace of God be with you, Lara and Scott.

Thank you all for the love you have shared with each other and with all of us.

Oh darn, my screen is getting all blurry again..

Pat

[sasvermont]

Gosh, I cannot stop crying.

He is at peace now. Bless you both for taking such wonderful care of Barney!

He is an angel, for sure.

[weluvcats]

I tried to PM you this evening about something, but I got a message saying that you were at your maximum quota and couldn't receive any more. Can you get back to me about this? Thanks!!:)

Judy

[kittykatharine]

I cannot not stop crying.... that last blog really touched my heart and I am so very sorry that Barney had to go. I had grown to love Barney, even though I have never even met him. His story was so sweet and I had so much hope for him. Sometimes I just wish we could save everyone, and that is a feeling I constantly have to deal with. You must be so upset, but you did the very best for Barney and he is at peace now. I am sure my Baby and Hercules have met him in heaven - and they are showing him the ropes. ***sobbing*** Barney will be forever loved and never forgotten.

[Emeraldgreen]

Barney.

12,636 views of his thread.
598 posts.
88 candles from FIVE countries.

I wish we could bottle whatever this is and send it to heal all the war in the world.:love:

That truly is amazing Candace. It's unreal to see those numbers! He was a little tiny rockstar. :D


Purr_Tender wrote:
I'm sure Barney's not the braggin' kind, but if he was, boy wouldn't he have major braggin' rights!! He arrived, sent by those here who loved him dearly, on the wings of prayers and warm breezes from his many candles!! What an arrival!!!

On wings of prayers and warm breezes from his candles. I love that.

Wolf Lady wrote:
Gosh, I probably shouldn't have opened this up at work, but I wanted to read everyone's posts on Barney's last day. I got LES after that last post by Lara. I've had my mini candle burning here on my computer screen all day, and when I get home I'll light one for Barney.

Thank you for lighting candles (both cyber and real) for Barn Barn.

Caseysmom wrote:
I will light a candle this evening when I am home for the night.
RIP sweetie.

Thank you.

weluvcats wrote:
I'm sure all the other angels at the Bridge are thinking "Boy, does the 'new guy' like to make an entrance or what???"

LOL!

mamaducky wrote:
... and more prayers for Lara and Scott as they go through what must be such a rough evening.

Barney, look for our Murphy up there -- he'll be sure to be able to show you where the sunny spots and the hidden stashes of milk rings are.

OK, my screen is having the same problem as everybody else's, so I'm off for the Kleenex, too...


I bet Murphy and Barney are sunning themselves together right now!!

Moesha wrote:
Snuggle with the other kitties. Let them lick the tears away.


Thanks Moe, that is just what I did! Our pets always seem to know when we are down and they stick close and it was so nice. My cat Stinky was very snuggly and she fell asleep with me that night.

Thanks for thos poems you guys!!

Slick wrote:
I'm finally home from work and will be lighting a candle for Barney shortly. It seems I've perfected the talent of driving and crying at the same time...

Gosh, I'm worried about Lara and Scott. This first night will be a long one for them. They have us and each other along with the rest of their furbabies but I fear that may not be enough to bring them comfort tonight.


Thanks for worrying. :) That was a long day and very sad. I still feel really tired but each bit gets easier and I know he is at peace. It was hard to grapple with that on 'the day' but it's sinking in now and we're doing okay.

I was learning to drive and cry quite well too! ;)

Purr_Tender wrote:
Thank you Scott for Barney's good-bye video.
Thank you Lara for allowing us to be part of his life, too. I am so very sorry for your loss, for our loss. It hurts so much even though we all know he is at peace and surrounded by PT angels. God bless you, Lara and Scott.
Love,Mary

You know, I don't think I ever said this and your post reminded me of it,
I'm so sorry for the loss that you guys must be feeling too. You all have been so kind about how I'm feeling and Scott but I hope that everyone out there is doing better today too. Everybody opened their hearts to Barney and I know it was hard to say goodbye. Wouldn't be neat if he came to visit each one of us in his new role of 'Barney Angel'?? I think he will.
Last night I was laying in bed and had my cat Stinky sitting on me and she was fixated on my pillow and the headboard. She is with us every night and never does this. Maybe Barney was on my pillow. :love:

weluvcats wrote:
I believe that there is a special place in Heaven for people like you.

For all of us! :love:

kt_luvs_kitties wrote:
You can now be Lara and Scotts Angel, and protect them like they did you. I hope that you can see my tears, and know that I loved you very much, even though I never met you. I feel I knew you anyways.... Gentle kisses sweet Tuxie boy.

That is a wonderful thought and I hope it's true!!
I'm sure he did see you and your tears and does know how much you loved him. :)

Medusa wrote:
Lara, I know that you and Scott realize how much Barney meant to all of us on PT. I do hope, however, that you realize just how much you and Scott mean to us as well. This has been quite an experience and a real blessing in my life. And now I can add another name to my Cat Angel list.


Thank you so much Mary. I also feel that it has been a blessing and I'm so glad to know you guys.

krazyaboutkatz wrote:
Lara, Scott, and Barney, I thought of all of you today and like everyone else has said it's been a very sad and tearful day. I'm glad that Barney is finally painfree and at peace now. We'll never forget you Barney. RIP sweet boy

Thank you.

pomtzu wrote:
Bless you both for all that you did for this once lost soul. You not only cared for him in regard to his health, but you allowed him to find himself once more, never to be alone and lost and forgotten again.

...never question yourself on your decision to help him leave this world with peace, love and dignity. You are very special people, and I am proud to consider you as my friends. If only there were more folks like you in this world - what a truly wonderful place it would be. I believe that there is a special place for you in Heaven, and Barney will be waiting there for you.
Comforting hugs to you across the miles


I've been re-reading posts these past few days and I feel better reading what you wrote about him being once lost and then being allowed to find himself again. And that he left the world with dignity and wasn't alone. I hadn't been thinking alot about how he 'could' have died, outside and painfully. When I think about that, I feel so much better that he didn't.
I consider you a friend as well! Thank you.

Randi wrote:
Lara, I know that Barney felt your love, and also the love we all sent to him. He is your special angel now, and one of these days, he will give you a sign that all is well.

I think he surely must have felt the warmth of those candles and all that love. There is no way he didn't. I do hope he will give a sign of some sort, that would be so great. I will post if he does!

Phesina wrote:
The peace of God be with you, Lara and Scott.


And with you. :love:

Sasvermont wrote:

Gosh, I cannot stop crying.
He is at peace now. Bless you both for taking such wonderful care of Barney!
He is an angel, for sure.


I was like that too the other day. I feel better today and hope you do too.

weluvcats wrote:
I tried to PM you this evening about something, but I got a message saying that you were at your maximum quota and couldn't receive any more. Can you get back to me about this? Thanks!!
Judy

sorry about that. I realized that I had every 'sent' message in my mailbox too and that counts as space that is taken up. I deleted a whole bunch and thankfully got your PM. :)

kittykatharine wrote:
I cannot not stop crying.... that last blog really touched my heart and I am so very sorry that Barney had to go. I had grown to love Barney, even though I have never even met him. His story was so sweet and I had so much hope for him. Sometimes I just wish we could save everyone, and that is a feeling I constantly have to deal with. You must be so upset, but you did the very best for Barney and he is at peace now. I am sure my Baby and Hercules have met him in heaven - and they are showing him the ropes. ***sobbing*** Barney will be forever loved and never forgotten.


Lots of tears in this thread! :( I have that same feeling of wishing to save everyone and I know it's unrealistic but it's hard to change. And even harder when they don't make it.
I'm sure that Barney and big beautiful Hercules and Baby are together and having a wonderful time rolling in the grass and climbing trees together.

[Randi]

Barney's candles: http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng&gi=barnb

[Catty1]

Lara - I lit a candle at church for you, Scott, and Barn-Barn.

[Purr-tender]

I lit another one yesterday. I hated to see his candles going out.

Mary

[pitc9]

I've not been here on PT much and when I clicked on this thread this morning at work, I knew I had to read it.
So here I am... an hour (or more.. I don't even remember) after I first clicked on this thread. 20 tissues later, red puffy eyed, make up running down my face, co workers looking at me funny...

Barney sure struck gold when he found a PT'er to take care of him! {{{{HUGS}}}} to Lara and Scott!!

Rest easy now and forever Barney.
{{{{{HUGS}}}}}} all around!!!

[Taz_Zoee]

I also lit another candle for Barney. And I'll try to remember to light one often.

[Pinot's Mom]

another candle for Barney, and for Lara & Scott in their healing, with a mini-candle on as well....

RIP Barney; play well and visit every once in a while~ :love: Purrs from Pinot, too!

Maggie

[Grace]

I lit another one yesterday. I hated to see his candles going out.

Mary

Me too. As soon as one gets low, I light another.

[pomtzu]

I did also. I'll light one each day for at least his first full week at RB. I hate to see them going out! :(


I have a thought - anyone interested?...
Start a group in the candles and call it PT. I was thinking of lighting a candle on the first of each month for ALL the PT RB angels as a whole - dogs, cats, rabbits, etc. You could specifically mention the name of your fur kid/kids in comments if you want, or just a candle for all that have left you over the years.

[Taz_Zoee]

I have a thought - anyone interested?...
Start a group in the candles and call it PT. I was thinking of lighting a candle on the first of each month for ALL the PT RB angels as a whole - dogs, cats, rabbits, etc. You could specifically mention the name of your fur kid/kids in comments if you want, or just a candle for all that have left you over the years.

I think that is a great idea. :) We could have a thread in General maybe to bump up as a reminder occasionally. I would definitely take part in that.

[Grace]

I did also. I'll light one each day for at least his first full week at RB. I hate to see them going out! :(


I have a thought - anyone interested?...
Start a group in the candles and call it PT. I was thinking of lighting a candle on the first of each month for ALL the PT RB angels as a whole - dogs, cats, rabbits, etc. You could specifically mention the name of your fur kid/kids in comments if you want, or just a candle for all that have left you over the years.

I think that is a wonderful idea.

[weluvcats]

I did also. I'll light one each day for at least his first full week at RB. I hate to see them going out! :(


I have a thought - anyone interested?...
Start a group in the candles and call it PT. I was thinking of lighting a candle on the first of each month for ALL the PT RB angels as a whole - dogs, cats, rabbits, etc. You could specifically mention the name of your fur kid/kids in comments if you want, or just a candle for all that have left you over the years.

I think this is a wonderful idea!!! A candle group dedicated to all of our beloved RB fur babies is just terrific. I think many here would definitely be interested in this.

I too have been lighting more candles for Barney:love:. I've lit one every day since he died...I just couldn't stand seeing the candles go out, one by one.:(

I love this idea!!! Count me in!:)

Judy

P.S. I just checked at Light a Candle...There already is a group called PT, and it is obviously for another purpose...So, we'll need to come up with a little different designation...Maybe, PTRB? How would that be? Ideas???

Judy

[Randi]

I too like the idea for a candles group of PT pets - how about calling it Pet Talk. ;)

[weluvcats]

I too like the idea for a candles group of PT pets - how about calling it Pet Talk. ;)

Pet Talk works, too...Thoughts???:)

[pomtzu]

I too like the idea for a candles group of PT pets - how about calling it Pet Talk. ;)

That would probably be best. That way, there's no mistaking what it is! Start on Feb 1st?

[weluvcats]

Ellie...Feb. 1st sounds good to me!:)

Judy

[Randi]

Sounds perfect! :)

[Medusa]

That would probably be best. That way, there's no mistaking what it is! Start on Feb 1st?

Sounds like a plan! Do an old blonde lady a favor, though, and post a reminder the day before? :)

[pomtzu]

Sounds like a plan! Do an old blonde lady a favor, though, and post a reminder the day before? :)

Ah - anyone out there that could remind this feeble-minded old lady to remind that old blonde lady??? :D

[Taz_Zoee]

I will set up a task on my work computer to remind me, so I can remind you "older" ladies. LOL ;)
Oh, the 1st is on a Sunday. I'll send myself an email home and try to remember to set up a reminder there too. :)

[phesina]

This is a fabulous idea! I'll be there! (another old lady, brunette with some graynette)

[weluvcats]

Looking forward to it!!;) I'll put a reminder on my computer, too!:)

[Pinot's Mom]

I'm in - I think it's a great idea, too! Thanks! :):love:

[pomtzu]

I will post later in General to invite ALL PTers that are interested to join in, since many will not see this.

Lara - I'm sorry - this wasn't meant as a hi-jack on Barney's thread! :( It's just that he happened to give me the inspiration. He still reaches out to touch us even from RB - doesn't he?

[kb2yjx]

Can you put a post in Cat General?? I rarely get over to the regular General...This is a good idea, there are so many creatures that need prayers!!!!

[Taz_Zoee]

Can you put a post in Cat General?? I rarely get over to the regular General...This is a good idea, there are so many creatures that need prayers!!!!

Putting it in all of the General's might be a good idea. :)

[pitc9]

GREAT idea!!!