Sassy

[Alysser]

Sassy, you went to the Bridge yesterday. I was strong until the moment we left. I couldn't even get out of the car at first, because of that look you gave me in the car. It was filled with confusion and fear and it left me heartbroken. You had no idea. Then I went into the room, I had to leave again as they were giving you the needle. Jaclyn said she was the last thing you saw. Even Grandpa was crying...I never in my life thought I would see my dad cry. He wouldn't let you go. Anyway, I am so sorry, but I couldn't let you be in that pain anymore. The condition you were in was worse then seeing you on the vet's table.

You were and will forever be my happy face, my sas-a-fras, my sped pup, my wup-a-dup, my puppy of the world, my princess, and my dog. I will always remember the "zzzz" game, tug-a-war, the apple game, swimming with you all summer. I will ALWAYS remember the craziness of your puppyhood and early years up until the horrible disease thta claimed your life. You would jump in the pool like a human and swim for hours and then you'd shake all over the living room. You would sit on the boogie boards and floats for hours as you got older. You certainly were meant to be a fishy. I will always remember giving you belly rubs, tormenting you with photoshoots and props, giving you treats. I will always remember the times you cried in front of the oven on a holiday so you could have turkey. I will always remember when you went full speed down the hallway and crashed into the front door. I will always remember the walks around the resivior and the one time you went into the snow and you ran away. You never were allowed out in it after that. I will always remember killing Mr. Bear and making his stuffing come out. I will always remember the jealousy one christmas when we opened our presents. You always helped by eating and KILLING that paper, eh? ;) Every time we took you to Petco you peed or pooped. I remember when you pulled Peter's boxers across the floor and wouldn't let him take them. I will always remember all the chewed up video games. I always loved how Regal you looked in your $45 collar from Atlantic City. I will always remember that happy face standing there when I came home from school or wherever. I will ALWAYS remember all the goodies YOU had to have!

I will remember many many things that cannot be put into this post. There are just to many. You filled my life with a decade of happiness little wup-a-dup. I love you so much and I miss you. I still think I hear the pitter-patter on the hardwood floor. I still hear your quack bark from inside the laundry room when I come home, which told us you wanted to be let out of your cage. I still hear the jingle of your tags, which are now around my neck as a necklace. I still smell that doggy odor I am so used to. I can't remove your bowls just yet. I can't get rid of the doggy kibble. I can't believe your gone right now.:( You will be FOREVER in my heart...there will be more dogs in my life but none like you. You weren't my heart and soul dog, but you will always be the best doggy in the world.

Rest in peace, princess. I miss you and will LOVE YOU forever!!

I will put pictures up later. I cannot look at that right now.

Love,
your heartbroken mommy

[Catty1]

{{{{hugs}}}}

Play happy, young and free at the Bridge, Sassy.

Look down on the family who misses you, and your heartbroken Mom who loves you more than anything in the whole world...who were all there for you.

Give them a little nuzzle, a little sign that you are all right - to remind them that you love them too, that you could have had no better life on earth than the one you had with them - and that you will be overjoyed to see them again, One Fine Day.

[Taz_Zoee]

RIP Sassy :(

Alyssa, that was a beautiful memorial. I got tears in my eyes every time I read through the other thread in Dog General. This time I am full out bawling. Sassy will always be with you. Just like my childhood dog, Pepper, will always be with me.

[chocolatepuppy]

Alyssa, I'm so sorry about Sassy. :( She is pain free now and playing at the Rainbow Bridge. That's a beautiful memorial you wrote for her. {{{hugs}}}

[Daisy and Delilah]

Rest in Peace Sweetheart:(

Alyssa, I wish I could be there with you to give you a long, gentle, hug. I'm so sorry :(:(:( Your tribute to Sassy has my keyboard soaking wet. In some way, I feel like I knew Sassy personally. I believe it's because of the love that you have/had for her. I could always feel it in your threads and posts about her. Her pictures brightened my days so many times. I will miss her terribly. She is running free and playing at the bridge right now. Smiling down on her loving Mommy. Feel happy knowing that you two will meet again, one fine day(as Gary would say).
{{{{{HUGS}}}}}

[Ginger's Mom]

That loving tribute to Sassy has me crying too. I love that you shared the things that you remember most, and I could picture those things in my mind. More hugs being sent out for you Alyssa.

Run pain free, sweet Sassy.

[shais_mom]

Godspeed Sassy.
May you run and play like you were a puppy.
Hugs:love:

[Karen]

Sassy, sweet girl, white as a cloud post-bathtime you were
To much of an adventurer to stay snow-white for long, that's for sure
Your black button nose and shiny dark eyes, cutie pie
Are forever engraved on your family's heart, and on ours

Funny, silly, and spunky as your name
Sweet as sugar, too - the world is not the same
But comfort you momma, dear, send her some love
And let her know you're out of pain now, and watching from above

She feels her heart is broken now, and we understand her pain
Help her begin to heal, Sassy, so someday she will love again
We know she will, and we also know you will be
Curled up in a little white ball in her heart for eternity

[jazzcat]

I'm so sorry.

Rest in Peace sweet Sassy.

[Cataholic]

Sassy, I could see you in my mind's eye from the post written by your heartbroken mommy. You had a life filled with much love, and you will be forever missed. RIP, sweet Sassy. Gentle hugs to your family.

[lizbud]

Rest In Peace now sweet Sassy. You will never be forgotten.

[gini]

I am so sorry for your loss. I hope in time the pain is eased and you are filled with all of the happy moments that you spent with Sassy.

[sparks19]

Oh I am SO sorry to hear this :(

RIP Sassy. You were such a sweet girl and loved by so many.

I'm so sorry

[Freedom]

Run free at the Bridge, Sassy! There is so much to see and enjoy while you wait for that day in the future when you will be reunited with your dear Mommy.

HUGS to you, Alyssa. The memorial you wrote is lovely. You will never forget her, as I have never forgotten any of my beloved pets. You did all that could be done for your dear girl.

[Casper]

(((hugs)))
Alyssa, this memorial thread for your little girl has reduced me to tears. Your love for that little white ball of fluff shines through so clear and beautiful. You and your family will continue to be in my thoughts during this difficult time.

Rest Easy, Sassy. You will live on forever in all of our hearts.

[cyber-sibes]

Dear Sassy, play happily at the Bridge till your mommy comes for you one day.

So sorry Sassy had to leave. She'll be greatly missed.

[*LabLoverKEB*]

Sweet, sweet Sassy, play hard at the bridge, my dear. You were a wonderful dog and were loved my many.

RIP, Sassy girl.:(

[captain]

Sassy,
Play hard at the bridge darlin.

{{{hugs}}} to you Alyssa.

[Kfamr]

How heartbreaking it is to learn Sassy has joined the ranks of the bridge kids. :( She certainly was a beautiful little pup and always had a puppy look to her.

Rest well, sweet Sassy. So sorry for your loss, Alyssa. :love:

[Pembroke_Corgi]

I'm so sorry to hear that you had to let your sweet Sassy go. :( She seemed like such a wonderful dog. (((Hugs))) to you and your family.

[K9karen]

Thanks you for sharing your beautiful memories, Alyssa.
Sassy's no longer with you physically, but will always be in your heart and soul. I know how devastated you feel. I'm so very sorry. Bye Sassy, we'll miss you.

[elizabethann]

That was a beautiful memorial to Sassy.

Sassy, you will be missed very much. Please peek in once in a while, and check on your family. Give them kisses & licks while they're sleeping.

RIP sweet little ball of white fluff.

[anna_66]

Alyssa, I'm so sorry to hear about Sassy.

I haven't been around much so when I seen this thread I was sure it couldn't be "our" Sassy...I'm so sad to hear it is:(

Lots of (((HUGS))) to you in your time of sorrow.

Anna

[pitc9]

Many MANY {{{hugs}}} to you and your family.

She's at peace now and her health has been restored.

Run free Sassy, you'll be missed by many!
:(

[k9krazee]

Sorry to see this Alyssa.

Sending many (((((hugs)))))). I know just how hard it is. :(

[bckrazy]

I'm so sorry, Alyssa. =,(

RIP Sassy

[Alysser]

Thanks, guys. I still miss her. I want her back so bad. I don't really cry anymore, today was the first day I didn't cry. Me, my mom, and my sister looked through the photo albums for her puppy, early adulthood pictures and we have plenty. My dad will scan them for us tonight and I will share a few. :love: I don't think I'll ever get over it but I will learn to live with it. I still think she's here. It's really, really weird not having a dog in the house.

Also, you probably noticed I have changed my username. Maltese_Love was just a reminder of her, and I couldn't really deal with looking at it in every post. Alysser is one of my nicknames so I just made it that.

I also wanted to say we are getting her cremated. We will probably get a nice urn with a painting of her on it and the quote "God couldn't fix her legs, so he get her wings". I am sure there are places that make these types of things.

Thanks for the support, It helps to know I will always have it here.

[AdoreMyDogs]

I just wanted to again tell you how sorry I am at your loss. Sassy was just darling and she was so very loved. :(

[Alysser]

Some favorites of Sassy soaking up the sun in happier times and younger years..this was before arthritis came into the picture. :)
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v708/bobbernut/Sassy%20pictures/OMGLOVE.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v708/bobbernut/Sassy%20pictures/OMGLOVE1.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v708/bobbernut/Sassy%20pictures/OMGLOVE2.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v708/bobbernut/Sassy%20pictures/OMGLOVE3.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v708/bobbernut/Sassy%20pictures/OMGLOVE4.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v708/bobbernut/Sassy%20pictures/OMGLOVE6.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v708/bobbernut/Sassy%20pictures/OMGLOVE5.jpg

[caseysmom]

Alyssa, I am so sorry about Sassy, I have been out of town and came back to this sad news :( I know its a hard thing to do but it is the humane loving thing that we as pet owners have to decide. I hope the happy memories give you strength.

RIP pretty girl.

[Catty1]

Alysser - what lovely pics of Sassy! Did she ALWAYS have her pink tongue hanging out of that cute smile, with the black nose topping it off?

What a happy little pupper! How wonderful that you had each other!:love::love:

[Casper]

Oh, I loved seeing those pictures of sweet little Sassy!http://i147.photobucket.com/albums/r310/CheckAgain/t_love.gif
Her happiness radiates from those photos and it truly shows just how much she loved her life with you and your family. Thanks for sharing the pictures. Her huge smile put a smile on my face this evening. :]

[Zippy]

((((HUGS)))))
I am so sorry.
What Beautiful Pictures of your girl.She lived a very happy loved long life with you and your family.
Rest in Peace Sweet Sassy

[robinh]

I am so sorry to hear of Sassy's passing. I've tried to post before, but everytime I open the thread I start crying. It sounds foolish and selfish, but I'm in the same boat with my Carly. She has a limited time with me and your loss has hit me so hard. I can feel your love and loss for your Sassy.

Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. God speed Sassy.

[Alysser]

Thanks, everyone. I still miss her like crazy, and I know I will always. Today is a bit better. There are constant reminders everywhere I go. I am always about to call her name and then I realize she's gone. We finally put her food bowls away, but it was hard. It's funny how she's been gone for 4 days since it seems like yesterday. I was just reminded of a silly memory of her, when she stole food out of the pantry everyday. She learned how to push it with her nose to open it. She had to be the silliest, smartest princess alive. :)

I still miss you, Sassy, but I know you are free now.:love:

[K9soul]

I'm sorry the time came to let Sassy go, I can imagine how hard it was :(. Rest well little Sass, and know you live on in the hearts of so many. You are certainly missed, little Princess.

[cassiesmom]

Alyssa, I am thinking of you today. [[[HUGS]]] -- elyse

[chocolatepuppy]

Sassy sure looked happy in those pictures. What a pretty girl. You have so many wonderful memories of her Alyssa. Keeping you in my thoughts.{hugs}

[Jadapit]

I'm so sorry it took me so long to reply to this. I'm so very sorry about sweet Sassy. You know I loved her, she was one of my very favorite dogs here on PT. You did what was best for her.

The pictures were adorable. She will be missed so, so much. You have been in my thoughts. {{{HUGS}}}

[Almita]

I was going to read the whole thing, but i started crying so couldn't anymore.
may sassy rest in peace.
she was a dork, and cutie.
had a great family too.
we all love you and know it.

[Alysser]

Today we got Sassy's ashes. I thought maybe, just maybe, a part of the emptiness would go away, but I was wrong. The box was nice enough. It was a wooden with flowers carved on it and a little golden plate that read "sassy", which we will keep instead of the Urn idea I had since we couldn't get exactly what we wanted. Her ashes came in a little velvet bag. Okay, so TECHNICALLY, I have my dog back. But it's obviously not the same:

-never again will I pet her white fluffly fur.
-never again will I save Mr. Bear from a mauling.
-never again will I feed her and make her do stupid tricks for goodies.
-never again will I do anything with her.

I miss her so much..it will never be the same, will it? It's also been a week since she died. Not to mention, the emptiness is still there, as whole as ever.

:(

[Miss Z]

I'm so speechless. :(

Alyssa, I am SO sorry I haven't been around whilst you've been through this. Forgive me :(:(. You were such a wonderful friend when I lost both Zsa-Zsa and Tia. I feel in some way as if I have failed you. Sending you HUGE (((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))).

I never knew that pup of yours but I really am going to miss her. She was my personal favourite here on the boards, whenever I logged on I would always check for Sassy updates and pics. That's what I did just now...and found this. :(

May she rest in peace. Anytime you want to talk Alyssa, I shall be here.

[Alysser]

Zara, you have not failed me. Do not ever think that. As you said, you will always be there for me, how can I be mad at you? You didn't know Sassy was in such a bad state, niether did anyone else on PT, maybe besides Jenna. I guess I was just afraid of critisim, even though we tried hard to get her back to normal. Thank you to all those who replied.

I appreciate it. I made her a memorial video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BTeKrk2YbQk

[vinjashira]

oh ALyssa, I'm so sorry for your loss :(

Rest in peace, Sassy!

[Tollers-n-Dobes]

:( I'm not around PT as much as I used to be, so am just seeing this now... but I want you to know how very sorry I am to hear about Sassy. You most certainly did do what was best for her. (((hugs)))

[petslover]

I am saddened to hear about Sassy. She was such a fun spirited pup who was loved by many, but especially by you.

[Alysser]

It's been three weeks today. :(

[jennielynn1970]

I'm so sorry to read about Sassy. I was just looking through the memorials and it's so heart wrenching to see all of these sweet animals that I loved seeing pictures of, now in Memorial.

I hope you are feeling some relief that Sassy is no longer in pain. She is playing and enjoying herself at the Bridge. It is so hard to say goodbye to our beloved pets... my thoughts and prayers go out to you during your grief. Know she is looking down on you and loves you for loving her. Big hugs to you during this time.

[Alysser]

Thank you all.

I have one question. WHEN does the pain go away? WHEN will I happily think about her? I can't stand the sense of loss anymore. I hate coming home to no Sassy. No silly quack barking, doggy odor, or a wagging tail. No giving her goodies anymore. She was such a huge part of my life. I just can't imagine completely moving on. Will I ever think about her happily again? Please make this sense of loss go away. :(

There are some days I'm completely fine, but others I want to loose it, knowing she's gone. I'm doing okay overall. But I miss her so much.

I still miss you babe. I wish you would just come home.

[chocolatepuppy]

The pain will ease up Alyssa, in time. You will always miss her but you will be able to think of Sassy and talk about her and smile. It's really painful, I know.:( {{{hugs}}}

[Alysser]

It's been a month since she died today. :( A whole month. Where did time go?

[cloverfdx]

Alyssa, the pain does ease but it takes time & everyone is different {{Hug}}.

Sassy will always be a part of your life, and will be in your heart forever.

[Alysser]

It's been over six weeks since she left.

Should I feel guilty for not crying anymore? :(

[RockyRoad]

No, you shouldn`t feel guilty. As time goes on, Sassy wouldn`t have wanted you to cry whenever you thought about her. The happy memories you had with her will take the place of the sadness you feel, and soon not only will you not be crying, but you`ll be smiling. Thinking of all the times that Sassy would make you smile, and laugh. Sassy still can make you smile, Alyssa, except now you have to smile so much wider, so that she can see it from heaven. :love:
{{{HUGS}}}

[chocolatepuppy]

It is ok that you aren't crying. You may have come to terms that Sassy is at the Rainbow Bridge. Believe me, there will be times, you will shed a tear or break out bawling about her and that's ok too. She's in a wonderful place and happy and healthy again. She wants you to go on, you'll see her down the road one day. Do you talk to her Alyssa? I always talk to Mandy, still over two years later. I will always believe she hears me. And do you talk about her? I'm sure you do. ;)
The other day, making up Lacey's birthday thread and seeing Mandy's picture in my siggy, I broke down. Mandy and Lacey were buddies. :(
Hang in there hon. {hugs}

[Miss Z]

Aw Alyssa, I don't think you should feel guilty at all. Tears are not the only form of grief, they are just the most immediate. Sassy wouldn't want you to cry over her forever. You will always miss her, but you are moving on from the sadness and you've accepted that she's not gonna be around any more. It's not a bad thing at all. You're being strong and I'm really proud of you for it. :love:

((hugs))

[Alysser]

I found Mr. Bear..he still smells like you. Thanks for making me cry all over again. :( I miss you so much.

[Alysser]

Wow, it's been over 2 months since you left me.

The words "it was for the best.." and whatever else people say to comfort you are getting old. Maybe that's true, but why does it still feel like I could have done more to save you? I am just sick of feeling sorry for myself when I know I should feel sorry for you. Today was a horrible day for me, I could hardly focus on anything at work, maybe that's why I was in such a horrible mood. People keep saying you're in heaven, that's great and all but YOU'RE NOT here with ME. You shouldn't have died so young, it wasn't fair. Baby, I'm so sorry. :( I STILL miss you! The worst part is no one really understands this feeling. I don't like talking about it with anyone. It just doesn't feel right.

I know, I sound so selfish, but I can't help it. Living without a dog is like living in hell, honestly. I can't wait till I move out so I can get one.

love you sas,

mommy :(

I think this guy knows how I feel-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O-86nvBVjaY

[chocolatepuppy]

Sometimes people don't know what to say and what they do end up saying isn't what you want to hear. You want Sassy back, I know. :( Please remember Alyssa, Sassy is with you, she is a part of you and always will be. If you need someone to talk to pm me anytime, ok? {{{hugs}}}

[pomtzu]

The worst part is no one really understands

You may think this, but anyone who has ever lost a beloved pet, feels the same way. She'll always be with you and as time goes by the pain does get easier to bear. There will always be times when you are reduced to tears when you think of Sassy, but you'll find that the times you smile and laugh when you think of her will outnumber the times of sadness. You have so many wonderful pictures and memories of the happy times you spent together, and no one can ever take that away from you. Someday when the time is right and you least expect it, another little furball will wiggle it's way in to your life and your heart. And altho it will never be a replacement of the one you have lost, you'll find that you will again have a very special little friend to share your life - and Sassy will smile down upon you and be so happy for both of you. Please believe me - I've been there! :love:

[Alysser]

I know people understand but you still kind of feel isolated from the rest of the world, like no one can understand what pain you're going through. Honestly, before this I never understood the feeling of death when my friends talked about it. I always felt bad and stuff but whenever someone died in my family I was either too young to really understand or I didn't know them that well. Sunny was my first death and it was hard but not nearly as hard as Sas was. Sassy was probably the best thing that ever happened to me and now she's gone. :( I miss her so much.

[pomtzu]

I know people understand but you still kind of feel isolated from the rest of the world, Sassy was probably the best thing that ever happened to me and now she's gone. :( I miss her so much.

Of course you feel isolated, and of course you miss her - that's only natural. Everyone has to deal with loss in their own way - there is no instruction manual on this subject! In my 40+ years of adulthood (yes - I'm OLD enough to be your grandmother) I have lost numerous very precious dogs and cats - some lived a very long life and others not long enough. Every time was different but none the less heartbreaking and I found that I dealt with each loss differently. To this day, I still occassionally get misty-eyed when I think of them and the time we had together. Unfortunately - that time is never long enough! You will feel better even tho you don't think so right now. Just take your time and don't try to rush thru this process. And just remember that Sassy will ALWAYS be with you - she has her pawprint on your heart!:love:
Sparky and Myndi are sending you big doggie kisses:D

[Molly2452]

Well, I'm crying right now...hard to type. I know you wrote that a couple of months ago...but it is new for me. You expressed my feelings exactly when I lost my Missy. SO hard to let her go, but it was time. Now, I hope you are feeling somewhat better. I had to show you my new precious...named.......Sassy! I'm brand new on Pet Talk and had never read this before so this is purely coincidence: My Sassy is a baby bichon! Makes you wonder about reincarnation! Here she is:

http://i336.photobucket.com/albums/n338/Molly2452/Sassy1/newSassyportrait1.jpg

http://i336.photobucket.com/albums/n338/Molly2452/Sassy1/newcuteSassy2.jpg

[Alysser]

Sassy is very cute, and I hope she has brought you happiness after your loss.

I feel better, and have been moving on. I will never completely move on but I'm healing..

[Jakesmom]

My beautiful Jake died about the same time as your Sassy. It has been very difficult. I finally decided that since it didn't seem that I had made much progress in "grieving" (ie, I still sobbed when I look at his pictures and video, think about him every day, etc), I might as well just get another puppy and enjoy the happiness of that.

I don't think you ever "get over" the ones who have your heart, its a bit easier to get through the day, but you still think of them, love them, miss them with all your heart and soul. All you can do is find the ones you can love, and do the best for them that you can.

Jake's mom

[Alysser]

Tommorow will be 3 months since you died. I still love you, wuppy. :love: I hope you're having a great time at the RB baby, I can't wait to see you again. :)

[.sarah]

Oh gosh, Alyssa, I had no idea Sassy had passed on. I am so sorry. I understand what you are going through with grieving. My childhood dog was absolutely my best friend growing up and his death was the most difficult thing I'd dealt with at the time, even though I'd lost family members before him. I hope it's getting easier for you, but if not now, someday, you'll be able to look back without being sad. I know now when I think of Buttons, I don't cry anymore, but it took me a while to get there. It's been almost four years now since he died and it's funny how some things still seem like just yesterday.

[Alysser]

Tommorow will be SIX months exactly since you died. WOW, where did time go? It's hard to believe I writing this exact thread nearly 6 months ago, announcing your death. It's just...strange.

Sas, I don't want to say it, but I'm moving on now. I, of course, still miss you. I watch your memorial video every day. It's the least I can do for you since you gave me so much more. Moving on seemed so hard, but remembering the happy times, I never cry anymore. I haven't cried for you in nearly 2 months and I don't feel guilty about it anymore. :) I know I did the right thing for you, it took a story in a book to teach me that, but it's true. You're still the best wuppy in the entire world, everyone misses you and STILL loves you! :love: We're going to volunteer at the SPCA to give our love to more animals. They will never replace you, ever. But, it'll help us a little more. As for you pup, you better be attacking all those Mr. Bears at the Rainbow Bridge for me ;) I hope you are enjoying your NEW back legs and running and sitting on all the boogie boards in the pool. I especially hope you're getting all the goodies you ever wanted, just keep the weight off silly girl LOL.

Your loving mommy,
Alyssa


:love:

[Alysser]

I really didn't want to re-surface this but I can't help it. The pain just came back briefly. I was just reading through the thread announcing your death like 5 mins ago and I felt really bad because you had no clue, pup. Sometimes I can be anywhere and just think about that day, and the look you gave me in the car. It hurt so so much :( This isn't really the thing I wanted to post, I wanted to say your birthday is coming up, in exactly 10 days. You would have been 11. That's all, 11? It wasn't fair that this happened to you, you died WAY to young. I don't know why I'm getting all this out now, but I also wanted to thank the piece of Crap vet for NOTHING. First off, he didn't even say "I'm sorry" or anythign along those lines. He gave me a weird look when I left the room to go to the car. I can't believe how rude he was to you. All he had to say was "Her skin and teeth are terrible" and some other s*** I didn't even listen to. SO she had a few skin problems, she had allergies to alot of thngs. You don't say stuff like that to someone who's about to put their dog to sleep, ahole. I was really contemplating on sending him an e-mail after that day but decided not to. I don't know what prevented me from doing this, I'm usually so aggressive with rude A-holes.

Whatever, I didn't mean to bring venom like that into this thread, I just keep thinking about it all the time now that her birthday is getting closer. Maybe I'm still in denial..I don't know. I just feel I don't have anyone to talk to about it in my family because we all get upset over it when it's brought up. I'll make you one last birthday thread, I promise :)

Enjoy the holidays up there, Sas, even though you should still be down here.

[chocolatepuppy]

Alyssa, it hurts for a long, long time. This first Christmas will be hard for you. I miss seeing your Sassy.:( Cherish your sweet memories of her. {hugs}

[Alysser]

Hey, Sassy. Today was Christmas, and to be honest I didn't think of you too much, but tommorrow well..it will be your 11th birthday or should I say would have been. :( You're missed more then you'll ever know wuppy! :love: I think I'm gonna make you a birthday thread, one last time tonight.

Love
mommy

[Alysser]

It's been a whole year today since my little puppy was put to sleep. I don't even have words, Sassy. All I can say is I love you and I know now that you're having fun at the bridge with all your new friends and all the treats you could EVER want. :love: Rest in peace, and I cannot believe it's been a year. :eek: You're still missed. :love:

[cloverfdx]

*hugs* Alyssa. Rest easy Sassy, you will be forever loved by your humans.

[*LabLoverKEB*]

(((((HUGS))))) To you Alyssa!!:love:

[cyber-sibes]

My heartfelt condolences, Sassy was one of the first dogs we "met" on PT. She'll always be with you.

[Alysser]

Can anyone explain this to me? I thought the pain was over, but apparently it's not. The last 2 days I've seen pics and heard songs about saying good-bye and I just think of Sassy and cry. Yesterday I was so upset and I felt like such a fool that I closed my bedroom door so no one could see me crying and I had to tell my mom I was on the phone. No one seems to cry or be sad over her around here anymore except me. It's been over a year now, is this normal? Why all of a sudden am I missing her again, I feel like it just happened? :( I've gone for months without crying when I see pics of her and now all of a sudden it sadden me. I swear last night I made the sig I have and honestly didn't even realize what I was doing...ugh I'm just sick of missing her, I just want her home again. I'm not a person who crys often and it just sucks that I think it's a bad thing, I know it's not but it feels so wrong and I feel like a fool crying over her when she's been gone for over a year.

Love you, pup :love:

[zoey]

Hi Alyssa,

i haven't been around in awhile, but i remember you from before.
What you're experiencing at this time is totally normal. It just shows how
much love you had and still have for your beloved Sassy. Don't be too hard
on yourself for feeling the pain, just feel it and come post with it too.
It seems to help some. And it will take a very long time to not feel it
so intensly. You will have good days and bad days, but all the good days you
had with Sassy are yours and hers forever and can never be taken away.
I was really sad to read of your doggie's passing, but she is alive and well
at RB. Take care sweetie, and message me if you like.

*gentle hugs*

[Taz_Zoee]

Alyssa, what you are experiencing is totally normal. We had a dog, Pepper, when I was young. He was about 12 when he had to go to the Bridge. I was a couple years older than him. I didn't cry that much when he died. Then in high school I had to write a Spring Anthology in my English class. I decided to write about Pepper. I cried so hard while writing that paper, I thought I was crazy.
Things will happen that will bring back memories so vivid. That's when the hurt surfaces all over again.

One thing you have that I didn't have back then is Pet Talk. :)

Hugs to you Alyssa.

Cindy

[pomtzu]

I lost the first of my 3 Lhasas 15 years ago, and the other 2 followed over the course of the next few years. I still miss them terribly, and have a good cry over them every now and then. I don't feel at all foolish about it, and you shouldn't feel foolish to be crying over Sassy either.

[Alysser]

Mikey tried to get Mr. Bear today, I know it's a dog toy, but I felt he couldn't have it. I felt if I gave it to him you would think he has replaced you. The truth is, he didn't and he never will. You both are so different, you both had flaws and great things about you and he can never be you, Sassy :love: Your death still pulls at my heart, even more then a year later. Mikey was from a breeder, and I saw his papers today. I found that his date of purchase was December 26th, 2007. That was your 9th birthday. Maybe he was meant to find us. I love this dog, but I will ALWAYS love you too my wuppy face. I almost called him Sassy yesterday too. :(

I love you and still miss you, thanks so much for sending Mikey to us. :love: We appreciate it sweetheart.

[Alysser]

So tomorrow would have been your 12th birthday, wow, time really goes by quickly.

Okay, I'll get straight to the point. I'm not going to lie and say I am still okay about this death, I'm not gonna lie and say "I'm over it" either. But today, I realized I finally have found some closure. I don't think about you as much and I am not longer totally broken over this. I just can't believe the pain still exists. I don't really publicize these things to my friends or family - but I do need to get this out. I never imagined the pain of a broken heart, the dreadful feeling of loss and never seeing her again. It changed me on both ways of the spectrum. I was broken and death is still something I am dealing with along with Sassy's and the death of an accquantiance over the summer, this all shook me to the core - it crippled and broke me and I couldn't believe it was happening at the time. Then all those months without a dog, without the real love for an animal didn't help. I am good at hiding my feelings and I acted happy when I wasn't. Most of the time I was happy, but sometimes I really wasn't. The memories were painful and it just..broke me. I can't totally explain what "broke me" means, but something to me mentally. I dealt with alot of grief for one period and it changed me on the view of death. I can explain it - but I'm still kinda going through it. I think about it alot, so I'll hold off on that.

I'm really rambling now, so I'm gonna wrap this up. Sassy, I really loved you, but I realized finally after over year and a half I really did the right thing for you. I do have some regrets on the situation but taught me alot. I thank you for being in my life and I will always love you. You'll always be my first real dog and that'll never change. Mikey has brought the emptiness out of my life, and I can't thank you enough for "sending" him to us. I can't thank him enough for perhaps finally rescuing me.

Sorry, I realize this is a long, corny post, and a few of you may think of me as a weirdo after. But this is how I've felt for a long time and only 1 person knows about it to an extent.

[Alysser]

It's been over 2 years since you died as of 6:00pm last night. I am sorry I forgot to post something then. I still love you and miss you more then you can ever know, and I am still not over this. I don't think I ever will be. You died way to young. You should've been 11 now.

I do have to thank you for sending me Mikey though, he has helped us deal with this death so much and we're so happy with our new boy. He isn't you, he has his flaws, just as you did, he isn't the best behaved dog, but I cannot even think about life without my heart doggy. I am in absolute love with him, I am head over heels for my boy. :love: You sent us the right dog at the right time.


R.I.P Sassy. I hope you can forgive me, and know I think of you nearly everyday and I will forever love you. Mikey, thanks for coming into my life when you did and thanks for rescuing me from the dark shadows of grief. <3

[*LabLoverKEB*]

[[[[HUGS]]]] to you Alyssa! You made the right decision to end Sassy's pain, don't feel guilty. You have her such a great life, it was very obvious in all of the pictures you shared with us. You are lucky to have Mikey! RIP sweet Sassy:love:

[cyber-sibes]

I'm so sorry for your loss. : (
Run free over the bridge, Sassy, till your Mommy comes back to get you.

[CatsMeow]

Can anyone explain this to me? I thought the pain was over, but apparently it's not. The last 2 days I've seen pics and heard songs about saying good-bye and I just think of Sassy and cry. Yesterday I was so upset and I felt like such a fool that I closed my bedroom door so no one could see me crying and I had to tell my mom I was on the phone. No one seems to cry or be sad over her around here anymore except me. It's been over a year now, is this normal? Why all of a sudden am I missing her again, I feel like it just happened? :( I've gone for months without crying when I see pics of her and now all of a sudden it sadden me. I swear last night I made the sig I have and honestly didn't even realize what I was doing...ugh I'm just sick of missing her, I just want her home again. I'm not a person who crys often and it just sucks that I think it's a bad thing, I know it's not but it feels so wrong and I feel like a fool crying over her when she's been gone for over a year.

Love you, pup :love:


No you aren't a fool! I lost my Goldberg in 2007, and I still cry over him! It's normal, okay? RIP Sassy, Go find Goldberg up there! He will have some bones and bacon to share!

[Alysser]

I know I said I wouldn't post in this thread anymore. But tomorrow would be your 12th birthday. I guess it's just hard to accept because for me Christmas always involved you AND with your birthday being right after. It's just something I always remember, every year. Even though it's been over 2 years since you died, I still think about you. I still have pictures of you. I still have your nametag. Your memory will NEVER die out while I'm around. We still love you. :love:

Happy birthday, pup :)

[Alysser]

I feel guilty that I haven't posted in this thread for awhile..over a year now. I've been thinking of you a hell of a lot lately. I recently went back to just look at your old picture threads. I miss you my silly, SASSY dog. You were so mean sometimes, but I loved you all the same. :love::) Rest in peace pretty girl.. I hope you know we still think of you.

I know you sent us Mikey, but today me and mom were talking about how much you would have HATED him. You woulda showed him who was boss REAL quick haha.

[Cataholic]

It hurts me to read your posts. I am so sorry you are still grieving over the loss of Sassy. I know she knew your love was sooo intense, and that you really did the right thing by her, by letting her go.

Hugs to you.

[Alysser]

Thank you. That means alot to me. I still miss her as if she had died yesterday. Unfortunately, I don't think getting 'over it' will ever be an option. :(