Cosmo is Gone - Update post #19

[elizabethann]

I have a vet appointment for Cosmo at 4pm today but I thought I would see if anyone on PT would have some ideas. I just noticed about 3-4 days ago that Cosmo's stomach is really huge. He got kidney disease last summer and he got very skinny & frail. Well, last Thursday I just noticed that he is skinny all over but his stomach is gigantic.

My first thought was maybe a tumor or cancer. But then this morning I went to clean his poop box and realized he hasn't gone poop in about 3 days. He's pee'd. He just hasn't pooped.

Do you think he could have a blockage of some kind? What about a tumor or cancer? He continues to eat and he eats allot of wet food, very little dry food.

Has anyone had experience with something like this?

[elizabethann]

It's not looking good for Cosmo.

The vet did some x-rays and he has massive fluid inside his body. The vet drained some of it. She said if it was blood, it was cancer. However, it was clear but she cannot rule out cancer just yet. She also showed me something strange from his x-rays. She said she had NO IDEA what it was. She said it looked like bones. She wanted to know if he ate fish last week and he did. She said it could be bones from the fish. I know I gave him some Fancy Feast that had fish chunks in it.

She said he could have liver disease, cancer, a tumor, even diabetes (which is the last stage of kidney disease). She also said that whatever it is, his chances are not good.

They are doing an ultrasound on him tomorrow or Wednesday. He is staying over at the vets tonight...and maybe tomorrow night.

I knew he wasn't feeling well because he didn't fight to go into the crate. Also, he didn't meow & howl in the car (like he normally does). And when I went out back to say goodbye & goodnight, he was just laying there, looking like he didn't have a care in the world....which is unusual.

I'm not ready to lose 2 cats in 2 months so please, if you can spare some good thoughts for Cosmo, I would appreciate it. Fenway would too. He's not ready to lose another brother. :(

[Catty1]

Oh no...hugs and prayers for Cosmo, that he gets better soon.

How old is our little boy?

[jennielynn1970]

Is the vet sure it's not FIP? That sounds very much like the symptoms of the wet kind. It's a horrible disease, so I hope that it's not this. The pics are disturbing, but it will give you an idea of the enlarged stomach.

Here are some links:

http://www.vet.cornell.edu/fhc/brochures/fip.html

http://www.newmanveterinary.com/fip.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Feline_infectious_peritonitis

[AbbyMom]

Prayers and warm thoughts on the way for Cosmos. And for his mommy and brother Fenway, too.

[krazyaboutkatz]

I'm so sorry to hear that Cosmos is so sick.:( Lots of prayers and positive thoughts are being sent his way.

[elizabethann]

Cosmo is almost 12 years old.

The vet mentioned FIP. She just won't know more until the ultrasound is done. Thanks for the links.

[Killearn Kitties]

I have no experience of this, but I will be keeping everything crossed for sweet Cosmo.

[momtomany]

Lots of prayers for both you and Cosmo.

[elizabethann]

The vet just called, Cosmo has tumors. One is on his spleen and the other is on the route of the mesatary (his intestines). They could do exploratory surgery and remove the one on his spleen (and remove his spleen if need be), but the one on his intestines may not be operatable. The vet said he is in guarded to poor condition.

I have decided to put him to sleep this afternoon.

I don't think it's right to put him through the surgery. He is almost 12 years old, has kidney disease and is just not doing well.

I can't believe I've had to put all two of my cats to sleep in 2 months. I can't believe this is happening. I can't stop crying. I don't want to go home to a cat empty house. I always promised Cosmo I would buy him a home with a huge back yard. I never got that chance.

I am happy in a small way because this Sunday I was able to take him outside and he walked around & laid in the sun.

I hope Maxie will be at the rainbow bridge, waiting for him. Maxie can show him around and introduce him to all the other animals.

My heart is numb.

[Catty1]

Oh no....Maxie will be there to welcome Cosmo...

I can't imagine the heartbreak.

I have two furbabes close in age...and I know I might face the same thing one day, first one, then the other too soon.

All I can say is...I am so sorry.

Are you able to be with Cosmo?

{{{{hugs}}}}

[Karen]

Oh, how sad. But he has had many good years of being a loved kitty, and you are right, that Sunday outing was extra special, and I bet he will remember it always.

[elizabethann]

Catty1,

Yes. I am leaving work early and will be there when Cosmo is pts. I will ask them to cut some of his fur. His belly will be all shaved off because of the ultrasound.

I am going to have him cremated and will put his fur inside with his ashes (like I did for Maxie).

Maxie & Cosmo were actually about 6 years apart. Maxie died pretty young of Cardiomyopathy.

I still can't believe this is happening. I can't believe I have to go home and remove the cat furniture, the cat box, the cat food, the cat toys. I won't be getting a kitty for awhile. It's just too hard to think about at the moment.

Thank you for your sympathy. I'm grateful for this site. I know I can come here and pour my heart out and not get laughed at. I'm lucky I work with people who love animals too. They understand and my boss said I could take tomorrow off. However, I will probably come in just to keep my mind off of everything.

[Craftlady]

So sorry for your loss. May it be a comfort to know that Cosmo wont be suffering anymore and will be able to play peacefully at the Rainbow Bridge.

[Queen of Poop]

I am so very sorry that you have to say good bye to Cosmo today. Rest assured, Maxie will be there to greet him with open paws. My heart is breaking for you. Hugs.

[Husky_mom]

I´m sorry you are dealing with a recent loss and another on the way....... he won´t be alone at the RB, he will be awaited by many PT pets, but he´ll always be watching over his lil brother Fenway.......

a kitty less home may be too hard to take, but time will let you know when it´s time to fill again....... you gave them both the best place they could be in.... YOUR HEART........

may you have an easy passing Cosmo, you will be missed and loved furrever

[kittycats_delight]

What a terrible loss. I am so sorry for all you have and are going though. My thoughts and prayers are with you. There will be a grand gathering for sure at RB before this day is through if all comes to pass. We will be losing a PT kitty and 3 doggies. What a terrible day. I hope God doesn't need them all.

Rest assured Maxie will be there waiting for Cosmo. And I can guarentee Cosmo knows how much you love him. You are giving him the greatest love of all by letting him go to be painfree and happy again at RB. He will be with Maxie. I guess Maxie really needed him up there. One day you will meet again and they will both come running and meowing a happy greeting to be reunited with their meowmie. Until then when the time is right give your love to another who is so deserving. Maxie and Cosmo will send the right one or 2 your way when the time is right.

((((HUGS))))
May Cosmo have a easy, and peaceful passing.

Michelle

[RedHedd]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Each time I read of a kidney cat having to be pts, it makes me look at my Mishi and know I'll have to do the same with him someday. I feel your pain. Play hard at the bridge, sweet Cosmo.

[elizabethann]

Thanks for everybody's sympathy.

Cosmo is gone. I was able to spend quite a bit of time with him before he was euthanized. Before I went to the vets, I stopped at the drug store & picked up an eyebrow brush. He loves eyebrow brushes and I have a special one at home for him. I got to brush his face, his nose, his ears and his gums. He was purring. In fact, I had second thoughts about putting him to sleep.

But then I picked him up and held him and he just looked around. I put him down and he had a loud howl. He was in pain. I kept kissing him & saying I loved him & said "say hello to Maxie for me". The vet gave him a sedative so he passed out. I stayed with him like that for about 20 minutes. And then the vet gave him the shot to put him to sleep. He died very peacefully. They shaved a huge piece of hair for me.

My apartment is very quiet tonight. I still have the litter box, food, toys & cat furniture out. I will be giving my sister all of the cat food & cat treats for her kitties. I'll throw the litter box out. And I'll bring the toys to the local shelter (except for a few favorites). The furniture will just stay there for now.

I was just talking to my sister and she mentioned night lights. I had 2 nightlights for Cosmo. I guess I can unplug those. I have a sign on my door that says "please don't let the cat out". I guess I can take that off. And I'll have to change the Fire/Police stickers to say "dog = 1" and "cat = 0". I can now close every door in my apartment (Cosmo hated closed doors). I can now leave out my shoes, purses & tote bags (Cosmo ate leather and ruined all of these if I forgot to put them away). I'll be able to sleep tonight (Cosmo woke me up every 2 hours to be fed). I can sleep without someone punching my nose to wake up. But I would give all of that up to have Cosmo back again.

I just can't believe I've lost 2 of my lovebugs in 2 months. I'm so nervous because I believe bad things happen in 3. I'm so afraid something is going to happen to Fenway. But I have to believe that Cosmo & Maxie are watching over him.

Goodbye Cosmo. I will miss you very much.

[Medusa]

We'll hold good, protective thoughts for Fenway and lots of loving, comforting thoughts for you. I'm so sorry about Cosmo. But your decision was the right one. Bless you for being there w/him.

[Ginger's Mom]

I never get over to the cat side so I am just seeing all of this now. I am so sorry elizabethann on your loss. I know that you were still mourning Maxie, and now to lose Cosmo so close in time. You did the right thing, and I am glad that you got to have a special afternoon with him this weekend and again this afternoon while you were brushing him. Fenway will be fine, just cuddle and comfort each other for now, and he will help you become stronger again. {{{Hugs}}}

[Freedom]

Oh Elizabethann, hugs for you. Cosmo is feeling so fine now, at the bridge, and Maxie met him, never fear. Cosmo lived 12 full years with you, years of life and love and care and joy. Hold on to that. And in the end, you were there when he needed you most.

God bless. RIP Cosmo.

[AbbyMom]

I'm so sorry. RIP Cosmo. Play hard at the bridge. Remember your momma loved you so much that she gave you the final act of kindness.

[chocolatepuppy]

I'm so sorry about Cosmo. :(

[jennielynn1970]

Oh my.... I'm just reading this now. Poor Cosmo. I'm glad it was peaceful for him, but it's so hard to deal with these things. Prayers are with you tonight.

[krazyaboutkatz]

I'm so sorry to about Cosmo's passing.:( He now painfree and most likely playing with his brother up at Rainbow Bridge. You'll see each other again some day. RIP sweet Cosmo.:(

[K9soul]

I don't get to the cat side often but I happened to see this thread title and just read through it. My heart is breaking for you, your last post had me in tears :(. Please take care of yourself. Maxie and Cosmo will always be angels watching over you. I am so deeply sorry for your loss. ((Gentle Hugs)) to you and Fenway. :(

[Taz_Zoee]

I am so sorry to hear about Cosmo. I can't believe this is happening to you again. I can't even imagine the pain you are going through right now. Please take comfort in the fact that you did the right thing and both of your babies are now together and pain free. Also, please do not think anything is going to happen to Fenway. Afterall, he just passed his CGC. :) Ok, this is enough tears for one night.
RIP Cosmo - play hard with Maxie

[momtomany]

I am so sorry and there are not words for this time in your life. I will keep you in my prayers.

[Daisy and Delilah]

I am so sorry :( :( :( I didn't see this until just now. You must be devastated after just losing Maxie, Beth. So much sadness on this board lately. Please give Fenway some kisses from me to help ease your pain.

Rest In Peace Cosmo :( You and Maxie play hard at the bridge together :(

[Barbiecat]

I just saw this today, and I'm sitting here at work crying for your loss. My precious kitty is 12, and I just can't wrap my mind around the fact that someday (hopefully not too soon, please God) I will be in the same position as you are now. I am SO sorry for your loss. You will know when it's time to be a cat mom again. In the meantime try to be strong. I know that's easy for someone else to say to you, but I mean it. Take care of yourself.

[kb2yjx]

I am so sorry for your loss. Sleep softly, sweet Cosmo....