Just One More Day

[robroy20]

For the past 2 nights I have throught what it would be like for me to go to RB,I am a simple man,it doesn't take much to make me happy.The best day in my life would be sitting along a meandering river with medows and trees along its banks.My music would come from the birds in the trees,.
Running and jumping with all the kids I have meet.I have R.A.so I can't do the things that I once did.,But maybe that one day at the Bridge it also would make me new so I could run and jump just one more time.I am crying so hard.I would give anything for One More Day.God I want my boy back.I am ready to go any time.I am as sad as I have ever been in my life

Bob

[joycenalex]

dear bob, i cannot tell you how sorry i am for your great loss of jeb. the pain must be almost unbearable. tonight, please don't do anything that is final. the pain is great, i know dear friend, and in the someday when you and jeb are together again, you both will play with the energy of youth, but for now, please don't do anything to hurt yourself. ((hugs))

[Dorothy39]

You have helped me more than typed words can convey.

We are in this world for a reason, we found each other for a reason. Your Jeb and my Foxy Jean stand for something greater than we can imagine.


You understand my plight so well, because you spoke of her eyes!!!

Now, Foxy Jean did not take kindly to other dogs. She was very possessive. She so loved people, but alas, she did not like other dogs.

I sure do hope that Jeb is helping her right now in RB. He is the sort of fella that wants everyone to get along.

Sissy , and especially Diane, need you badly.


Thank-You for your genuine concern. I am healing because of YOU!!!

[Sudilar]

Bob, as I read your post this morning, I cried. I cried for you, Jeb, me, Killian, Shiloh, Avalanche, Wolf, Gaylord...... I know how you feel. I have been there. The first time was in 1984, with the loss of my first GSD, Wolf. I was sad and MAD that he was gone. I thought that I would never, ever feel good again. I could not look at another dog, especially a GSD. I cried so hard, it felt like my heart was ripped out. I didn't want to live without him, too.
Then....slowly...the house was too quiet when I walked in the door....there were the lonely walks through the neighborhood....there was no one sitting on my feet as I washed the dishes (Wolf liked to sit on my feet..LOL)....
there was this big fluffy white unheard of breed (at the time) at the pet shop stuffed into a small cage... How could I leave that big dog in that tiny cage???? No, I must get her out of there..... The rest is history (Avalanche). Life went on... I was able to love again, but never and will never forget those who have gone before.
When Avalanche passed, I discovered rescue. I thought that I could do something to help, in Avalanche's honor. Her death, as her life, had a purpose.......she had to die, so Killian could live. We rescued him from Death Row, we got there just before his time was up. We were blessed again. Then came our darling, Shiloh (whose passing I am still having trouble with...but getting better). My foster,Thor, is helping with that.
So, even though, right now, you feel that your world is over...you have to go on. There are more dogs who need you. You will do Jeb an honor, by going on and keeping his memory alive in your heart.
Ask for a sign. In some way, you will get one. It might be finding his favorite toy hidden under the sofa...a clump of dog hair on the floor (even though you've vacuumed 1000 times since their passing)...a song on the radio...
Watch for the sign (and let us know what it is here on the bb). I had to wait a while for Shiloh's sign, but Wolf's sign came quickly.
So, yes, many of us here have gone through what you are going through right now. We are here to help you get through it. It is not easy. Hugs.

[Cincy'sMom]

Bob, I am so sorry for the loss of your dear boy and the intense pain you are feeling. Death is never an easy thing to deal with, no matter if the loss is human or pet.

Last year I lost my first dog Oreo, a dog I had since I was 14, and then my younger brother, Rob, with in about 2 months time. It was not an easy thing to get through, and as the 1st anniverisary of Oreo's passing was last month, and the 1st Anniversy of my brother's death nears, it is still not easy. I still cry, and still hurt. I would give anything to have my "little" brother back.

What has gotten my family through this time is each other. Diane and Sis need you now, more then ever. You need to be strong for them, and they will help be strong for you.

I also encourage you to look for a pet loss support group. Our humane society has one, as do many others in the area. I hope you can find the same in Arizona. There are also on-line support groups, people that understand it is not "just a dog" you have lost.

[robroy20]

Well I find myself here looking for something to remove the hurt I am feeling.I am looking like its a drug that will make everything better.It will stop the pain that has ravaged my body like the hideous cancer that took Jeb.
I will fine the drug and you fine people that have cryed with me are the doctors.Jebs death has clouded my mind like nothing I have encountered.I will come through this like you have.
I have to go and let Sis out.Thats all I do.ha,ha.......Thanks friends---Bob

[Sudilar]

Let Sis take care of you. She'll know what to do.

[shihtzulover850]

yes it is sad isn't it?

[Dorothy39]

Hey Bob, Just me in charlotte , Michigan.

I sure do wish I could see what Sissy looks like.

and, I wish I could let her outdoors. She will take good care of you, trust me.

Enjoy those wonderful dog kisses when you feel blue.

[robroy20]

Hello to friends at PT.If there is such a thing as a good day,this is it.I think I can see a light at the end of something.You at PT have helped me so much,You know who you are.Dot you are the ring leader.You helped me see the people that needed me.And Sissy she needs me more now that ever.
I will pick myself up and get back into doing my chores with a smile on my face.And remembering JEB and the things he did for me...I will go now,,,Bob

[robroy20]

Its about 4:30 am,I got up at 3 am.Jeb would wake me up so he could go outside.This is had for me but I am getting better.Sis is the one that I worry about.She goes from room to room looking for Jeb.If I play with her and rub her belly that takes her mind off Jeb.I think she is a little better than she was.
I have made it over the worst part and I am doing so much better.We were swimming last night ,we had a dust storm in the valley.I hate them.No rain here.Well I have things to do.I will check back.


Good morn Dot,Sudilar,Joyce................Bob

[Sudilar]

Glad to hear that you are doing better. As I said, Sis will take care of you.
Hey, when I was on vacation in AZ, we were in a dust storm on the way to the airport to return home!! We were driving from Tucson to Phoenix for our flight and it followed us. The plane was delayed because you couldn't see anything. What an experience!!
Hang in there!!!

[robroy20]

We just had 1 yesterday.They come in monsoon season..There early...Hope every ones fine..I am ..Bob

[joycenalex]

dear bob, i am glad you're feeling somewhat better. in the weeks after duke left for the rainbow bridge, sometimes i'd hear him snoring in the early morning. i miss him still, but i smile when i think of him. ((hugs)) joyce

[elizabethann]

Note to self....do not read Dog Memorial at work.

I am crying like a baby after reading your thread. I am so very sorry for your loss. When I die, I want to go to the Rainbow Bridge and be with all of my animals - running, laughing, playing and napping.

Please take care.

[robroy20]

Each day I find myself here,About a hour ago I was crying so hard,I just miss Jeb so much,Sissy goes from room to room looking for her Jeb.She has been with him her whole life.We try to keep her busy and try not to say any words about Jeb.She is so smart ,she picks up everything.We starting to spell words but they learned how to spell..ha,ha..


I want to thank you all so much...Bob,Diane,Sissy

[Dorothy39]

Well, Don't feel like the Lone Ranger, you can start calling me Tonto now.

It will be 6 months on the 22nd of June, and I still cry real hard at times.

Keep re-reading this first thread that helped us out Bob, that's what I do.

This Pet Talk is my Fix, and you and I are in an old row boat at Sea.

We are not alone, I know that doesn't help to type right now, but when I cry now, I think of you, Diane, sissy and of course, your beloved Jeb.

When you replied to my pain week, I felt a waive of relief. Then, Rachel replied, offering "The Last Battle", there is Logan, Anna 66 -adding a poem, "I'm Still Here" , Queen of Poop, Shihtzlover850, Pitca-sierra & Buddy's Mom, Sudilar- Killian & Shiloh, luvofallhorses, jazz cat, Cyber-Sibes, to name just a few. These framents, typed onto our moniter screen , are condolences offered to us for the taking. Like hugs through cyberspace.

Let's keep rowing my dear friend at Pet Talk. When you cry real hard, hold onto Diane and dear little Sissy, then, remember me, and all of the kind people who have recognized our sorrow. I will row when you tire, you will row when I tire.
Dont' stop coming to Pet Talk, I will never judge you, never, never, never.

I could not have gotton to this point with out Robroy20 calling me Dot.


God Bless You and Yours!!!! Thinking of Jeb on the 10th!!!!!


Kathy

[robroy20]

First I want to take a second to thank all the kind people that have been where I am,they know they can see a way out of the misty fog that Dot and myself and many others are in.I think I am getting better and here come that wave or that sinking feeling in your gut.Its like a drug that overcomes you.I have the good day ,bad day thing but I am better..
I want to here that Dot is getting better,I worry about here sometimes..Well got to go...Bob

[Dorothy39]

You are so kind, in your sorrow, to worry about me.

I've had such a hard time getting through this muck. I try not to picture Foxy Jean dying on my bed. When I realize that she is actually gone and that I will never see her again, I feel anxiety big time. I force myself to keep busy.

I have to remember what she taught me, what was going on in my life when I found her, along with how much she loved me.

She was with me all the time, like, if I went down stairs to sew, she would look me up, and she would lay underneath my cutting table inside a shallow container of folded material. I expose myself to that room little by little, and I am doing better since telling the world of my loss.

Your pain, so like mine, resonated beyond my humble home and diminished when I learned how to use this web site forum. I was so affraid to laugh again, as though something horrible might happen if I don't stay on guard. If you peronally knew me, you would realize how weird that is because I am such a clown, I love to help people laugh.

Men are stronger people. They have to be.
I"ll think of you as an older brother from God. I have 5 sisters. :eek:

I am doing better. I thought of Jeb on the 10th, and, I light a candle each Monday nite in honor of every dog that has ever died. It makes me stronger , too, when I pray for animals, people, situations beyond our control.

Thank-You so much for being here , in cyberspace.


always ,

Dot ;)

[robroy20]

Well here I am .Its been over a a week since Jebs passing and I have found that I have to come to PT each morning to say a few words on Jebs behalf.Also to try to help anyone else that has lost a dear friend.
I have so much love to give my furbabies that if I lose one it tears my heart to pieces.I am a gentle man,it bothers me to see a dog running down the road.Or a baby bird that has fell from his mothers care.It seems the older I get the more love I have .Diane and I get closer with each passing day.We care for each other because it makes the caregiver happy.The pets in our life are just like us.If they hurt we hurt.If they are happy we are elated.
Good morning Dot ;)


I will go now...Bob

[robroy20]

It a beautiful day hear,110 today.I wanted to tell you about Sissy.She always stayed with Diane and Jeb with me.Since Jebs passing Sis has been spending alot of time with me.I see her look up on the sofa where Jeb would sleep.She still goes from room to room.If she sees me she will come and lick my tears away.I know shes telling me its ok,don't cry..I am alot better,just over a week.Well I got to do my chores before it to hot..

I will go now...:) hi Dot......Bob

[Dorothy39]

Oh Sissy, you are taking care of Bob. You are such a beautiful thought for me today.

I can tell, Bob, that you are indeed a gentle person. I don't know how your personality got onto my screen, nor how the sound of your voice was nearby when I felt utter despair.

You and I have so much in common. I am a "caregiver", I took care of my parents, who are now gone. I gave up going to a Community College, quit my job at a Pre-School, so I could take care for them. I will never regret having done so, never, never, never.I have the best Degree now because of it. My husband and I are now caregiving "his" parents. This time around, I am stronger. My Father-in Law took Foxy Jean's death pretty hard, so did my son. Foxy has glued us together pretty darned tight!!! :)

The love of a dog has to be the most profound beauty ever given to mankind. I am doing so much better every day. I have YOU to thank for that.

May God Bless You, your Diane, and Sissy too.

by the way, My Dad's name is Bob, so is my Father-in -Law's--isn;t that crazy!!!