I am almost to the point where I have to leave Graham home when I take Kersey on long walks or take her to the dog park because Graham gets so sore in his bad leg (left front leg) that he gets very lame and limps alot . He was always so strong and fit and agile, and now he is at risk of being left at home when I take Kersey to the dog park. It simply breaks my heart, and I know that Kersey would really miss Graham on her outings because she worships him.
I have already gotten my second refill of Rimidyl for poor Graham. There are some days where he gets two doses, one in the morning and one in the evening, simply from one trip to the dog park. When I do take him to the dog park I have to restrict the amount he runs and plays. I feel so bad having to call him back to me when he starts running too fast or getting too into the play. Kersey gets to do all the playing that she wants and Graham so much wants to join her but I always have to restrict him from too much running.
I wish it never happened. It is worse then I thought. The orthopedic surgeon didn't tell me how painful Graham would be if he ran too much or too fast. He didn't tell me how often I would have to give Graham rimidyl for his pain. I am sad to have lost my active, healthy, energetic Graham. He has aged both physically and mentally a huge amount since the accident and I almost can't bear it.
The pain is not in his actual incision site, it's in his shoulder blade. I do massages and that seems to help a little bit, but I think it's just from the extra pressure that shoulder joint has to put up with due to the lack of bending of his "ankle" joint.
I worry that eventually Graham may need his leg amputated. That is an option if he becomes too sore and/or too arthritic. I just wish it never happened. It kills me to think of Graham's sad look as I head out the door and into my car with Kersey for a fun trip to the dog park. I am just so torn about taking Graham to the dog park. I know that, especially after waiting all day for me to come home from work, he so much enjoyes the dog park and he gets SOO excited when we are in the car and getting close to it. How could I possibly take that away from him? Especially since I have already taken away his agility, which he adored.
I am sorry for babbleing. I just wish it never happened. Graham is my best friend and I am at the point where I need to leave him at home and it absolutely breaks my heart. He's my angel. My most precious boy. My best friend. I just don't know what to do...
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