I just can't decide what to do and I guess I officially quit?

It's either go back to work there, be completely miserable - but get any days off, any hours, etc. that I want. But still doing something that I hate.

OR

Find something I really love to do, risk never being able to get the days/hours that I want.

I always have this job to fall back on (not that I want to) but if worse comes to worse, my boss isn't going to say no to me.
It's just really stressful, especially since my dad is having to run my grandpa's business while he is in the hospital. So, I don't exactly have reliable transportation at the moment.

Why can't I just win the lottery and open up my own business?

Sorry for blabbing on...

{{HUGS}} Jess