Yep, I know what you mean and how you feel. My dad passed Nov 27 2002 (the day before Thanksgiving) and my mom on June 18 2005. We "celebrated"their lives by having my mom's plaque unveiled on Sunday. Dad was 88 and mom 83. I'm thankful I had them that long. Now they're both together again. They radiated love and devotion. It was beautiful. Holidays are tough this year.