Hello all my cat lover friends! I haven't really posted much in here lately, and it seems like it has been eons since I started a post. I wanted to just tell you some of the things that have been going on, and get some support from you all.
As many of you know, my patriarch- Tex, made the trip to the RB in May. His passing has been pretty hard on me, and his remains are still at Lillycat's house. I just don't know if I can welcome him 'home' yet. Whew. I said it. I had to get up to close the door to my office, as I have LES, but, I am going to finish posting this regardless. I feel so empty without my boy. Yeah, I have a house full of cats still (well, minus Georgia, which I will get to later), but, Tex was my heart cat, without doubt. I know better to doubt my decision, there wasn't any use in pretending Tex was doing okay. He had steadily made the downhill progression. But, it hurts so much. Tex's death came at the time my neice, Samantha, was so critical. I prayed to God that if I let Tex go, would he spare Samantha's life- a bargain I still would make to this day, and I did let him go, and my neice is doing so well. Aren't I crazy? (please, don't answer that one, okay?) I haven't ever grieved properly for Tex, as I was grieving so hard for my neice and my sister. The pain just totally gets to me sometimes, and I find myself weeping for no reason. Ugh.
I am telling you this as I know you will understand, and to help explain why I don't post so much over here anymore. It hurts. It hurts me to see other tuxedos, it hurts me to see senior cats, it just doesn't feel the same anymore without Tex.
To make matters worse, I have 're-homed' Georgia. Georgia is now the only girl cat living at Lillycat's house (Lillycat has 4 boys- Indra, Nevvie, Washy and Butterum). Georgia and Tex were best friends. In fact, Georgia was the ONLY cat Tex more than tolerated. She could eat with him, sleep with him, and she was really at a loss when he went. She was completely without her companion and protector. Monte was stalking her to the point where she stayed in the basement. No matter how harsh I was to Monte, he wouldn't relent. Why? I don't really know. Geo is a timid girl, and has always been that way. Tex protected her, and was the alpha cat. Well, Monte is the alpha cat now, Alpha Terrible. He is the most aggressive cat I have ever known. I would have re-homed him, but, sending georgie to live with her grammy was easier. So, not only is Tex gone, but, Georgie is too. I feel awful for her, but, this is the better situation for her. Grammy gives her lots of loves, and one of her cats has taken an attachment to her (She and Indra lived with one another years ago)_.
So, that is my sad tail. I am sad without Tex. I am sad about Georgia. I am sad that I don't post much over here anymore.
thanks for reading and understanding...
Johanna
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