I've been in Baton Rouge these past few days spending time with Joey at his unit before he had to leave. How do you say good bye to someone that you know you won't see for at least a year? How do you say goodbye to the one person that has been such an integral part of you life for the last 6 years?!
This is so much harder than when he went off to boot camp. We mean so much more to each other and at least then I knew I'd see him in 3 months. Hell, we were suppossed to be officially engaged after Mardi Gras. We were so close to doing the JOP wedding. But, we decided against it and to wait to do it right.
I'm just so depressed. I miss him so much and he's only been gone a day. Every one keeps asking How are you? I hate that question. How do you think I'm doing? The one person in the world that I know truly loves me and the only person I've ever let myself really depend on is away from me. Which seems selfish when I say it. I can only imagine what he's going through...makes what I feel almost seem petty.
He's in Cali right now, but for only a short time before he's sent over seas. I wrote to him tonight as I told him I would do every night he's away. I wrote him about how much I love, support, and miss him and how proud I am of him. Those are the things he needs to hear, not how depressed I am.
*sigh* I know I'll be ok. I just hope he's ok. Anyway, just wanted to tell someone how I feel. Not many people want to listen, too depressing, ya know.
Anywhoo, please keep USMC 3rd battalion, 23rd Marines in your thoughts. They're a great group of men.
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