Never ever feel ashamed for ranting - life is tough enough without our adding to the situation by blaming ourselves/putting ourselves down just for feeling something that is 100% valid (and even if it weren't, according to some, IMO whatever one considers valid, is). I don't know you aside from PT but it seems to me that you are more active than many people I know whose level of activity is changing the remote. Not being one of the latter I hear you and your frustration. Now getting down off of my soapbox I hope the triathlon goes fantastically. You go grrl!!!