Well, as many of you probably know, I love photography. More than two years ago, I got my first DSLR, a Canon EOS 450D (Canon Rebel XSi in the US, as far as I know). I love that camera, but recently I found out that the sensor is extremely dirty. Of course it could be cleaned, but you have to send it in for that, and from what I've read, it's expensive. At this point, I have taken about 40,000 pictures with my camera, which is a lot, and it has some others issues as well - nothing that cannot be "fixed" by re-booting the system, but still... I cannot deny my camera has probably seen better days... And I seriously doubt it's still worth the costs for the cleaning.
A good friend of mine has now offered to get me a new camera. She knows I'm living in poverty (I'm on disability pension meanwhile, and life has become really hard), and she also knows that photography is essential for me. She has recently inherited some money, and she said she would gladly help me out... Now I'm really not sure what to do. A part of me would feel bad to accept such an offer, but another part of me would love to have the EOS 550 (Rebel T2i in the US). It would be nice and exciting to have something new, and it would be fun to explore the new cam. But than there is that part of me that thinks I don't deserve that. I mean, I'll probably never be in the position to pay that money back to her (not that she wants me to, but I would feel better if I could). My situation is so miserable, healthwise and financially, and I'm just not a valuable part of society without being able to work, and without being linked to other persons, and without a family... So I really shouldn't think of me as a person who deserves such a camera. Don't know if you know what I mean, it's hard to put this in words..
Anyway, I just don't know what to do...
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