I know I tend to come and go on PT quite a bit. I do apologize. Besides be extremely busy with the rescue and my chidlren, there are many circumstances going on in my personal life right now. I am going to be away again for a while. I am not sure how long, but I will pop in whenever I get a chance.
My Nauna is not doing well. (Here's the link to the last thread I posted on her about 2 yrs ago -(http://petoftheday.com/talk/showthread.php?t=123326). She is now 90 yrs old. Her kidneys are failing. She barely eats or drinks. It is very hard for her to get out of bed in the morning or even up from her chair to use the bathroom. My Aunt is a trooper, caring for her non-stop. She has moved my Nauna's camode into the living room for her. My Non loves to sit in "her" chair and listen to her Italian music....really loud! Her hearing is going as well. Doctors did blood work on her again this week, which will be the last time they will draw blood from her. We see no need for her to go through the pain of having it drawn when there is nothing they can do for her anyway. Doctor just called potasuim is at 6.5 it was 6.1 2 weeks ago. Hemoglobin is at 6.3 it was 7.7. Creatine(kidney) is at 5.4 it was 4.4. He said he doesn't know what to say, she is going down...and fast. All of the numbers last week were extremely high....now just about all are rising.
My father (Nauna's son) and mother are flying out but can not get here until late Monday night. I pray my Non makes it until then. I am going to try to get there tomorrow and I am definitly going on Sunday. I was told she can not even recognize the grandchildren any more. It took her an hour to recognize my Uncle Len who is her "baby" and was, whom we believe, always her favorite son. He is the youngest of 7. For the last two years it has been me, my sister, Gina, my Uncle Len, and my Aunt Vicky (who lives with my Non) taking care of my Nauna. My dad is in AZ, so he could not do much but call twice a day...religiously. My other Aunts and Uncles felt, and still feel, that my Nauna is a burden and my Aunt should have put her in a home back in '06. My Aunt would not have that. So I think us four are taking it the hardest, as we have grown very close to her in these last 2 yrs. We know it is going to happen, and happen soon....we just don't want it to. Nobody wants their loved ones to pass, but we can not make them stay either. I keep trying to tell myself that she will be better off and that it will be okay, but this is MY Nauna...life with out her will be so....Americanized. You see she is 100% Italian and EVERY Sunday we would go there for dinner at 1pm...made of homemade pasta (she'd get up at 3 am and roll the dough, make the sauce out of fresh tomatoes, case her own sausage, and make homemade wine from her grape arbor in the yard). If we did not have at least two plates of food....she would get so mad and say "Mangia!! Mangia!!". I was that kid that always laughed, she would look at me and say "NO LAUGH, you laugha too much!". She barely spoke english, but I understood what she said in Italian from being around it so long. I can't speak much of it, but she taught me some of the important stuff. She is our heritage, our culture. When she passes, it will all be gone. Our family will not gather around the table for Easter, Thanksgiving (all taking a turn to say what we are thankful for), Christmas, or New Years Day. I went there this year for New Years Day, as I have gone my whole life, and NOBODY was there...it's as if they just don't care anymore.
This is hitting me harder than I ever expected. I am so sorry for this long thread. I just really can't talk to my family as it will just make them upset. All they say is "Tre, she is 90....what do you expect". I know that is their way of coping, but I am not like that. I am a strong person and barely cry, but I am balling now at the fact that I can't make her better or put her at ease. Please keep my Nauna Donata Caccavella in your prayers. Please pray that she passes peacefully in her sleep and that she goes to heaven to be with my Nauno Victorio. You know, she still wears her wedding ring and all black everyday since he passed 33 yrs ago. She is amazing. I love you Nauna.
Thank you for "listening" and I will be around as much as possible. Here are some pictures of my Nauna.
My Non when she was in Italy. I believe she was about 20 here.
My Non rolling the dough for our Sunday Pasta.
My boys, Tyler (left) and Austin (front kneeling), my nephew Bailey, and their Bisnonna (great grandma).
Me, my Non, and Dave. She always told me after I had the boys and left their biological dad that she wanted to see me "take marriage" before she died. At least I gave her that. She told me the day of my wedding "you're a gooda girl. Your husband is a nicea guy." I will never forget that.
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