Hi. Things have been coming to a head with the company I work for.
I am one of three employees left. Up til now, we have been managed by a brilliant and creative entrepreneur who thrives on brainstorming and impulse and is often scattered and unfocussed.
These talents are wonderful for some things - not for others. We finally got a corporate guy on board at the beginning of 2007 to raise capital to move the company up and ahead. Our entrepreneur FINALLY got interested in reading over the business plan TODAY after being REALLY chewed out by our corporate guy on Friday.
I have been holding the fort together - and in the last several weeks, have been subject to crying bouts accompanied by sudden big nosebleeds. I have a doctor appt, but I know what it is...anxiety and burnout.
I have NEVER had a job description there, NEVER a written contract. I have been earning several dollars above minimum wage for 2 1/2 years. In spite of it being a publishing company, I never have been able to move from 'entry level' to a writing or other creative position.
And no one has been paid for some time - we have another staff member who has suspended services until she is paid.
So without getting upset...I am out of there. Not answering EN's phone calls. Emailed and said I was having major anxiety about coming in there.
With no writers or production people for the next magazine, my presence there will make NO difference whatsoever at this point.
If the Biz Plan gets finalized, and the company is reorganized, I would love to go back. We would have management people doing the actual managing!
And salespeople doing sales...writers writing...designers desigining...'and a partridge in a pear tree.....'
It doesn't seem like much...but for me to draw the line and do what is best for me is a major thing.
I may start feeling a lot better REALLY soon.
Thanks for the ear/eye.
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