My sweet gentle soul Scooty has died unexpectedly

[Scott]

I am so grief striken that it is hard to put into words. We all love our animals very much but every once in a while that SPECIAL animal comes into our lives - the one that connects with us on a different level, the magical ones like a soul mate - that was my Scooty. Whenever anything bad happened I could take her in my lap and all would be OK.

She was my very, very special kitty. She was my constant companion for 14 years and followed me everywhere. She was always by my side. And now she has unexpectedly gone.

She had Hyperthyroidisim and I elected to have her treated with radioactive iodine - she went through multiple tests and all looked great and she was given to OK to get the treatment. I drove her way up to Santa Cruz as there are only a few locations in California that do this procedure - it is a 3 hour drive each way and she had to stay at the hospital for a week - I picked her up this Monday and everything was great - I was told she was going to be fine as the treatment has no side effects and has a 95% cure rate. She needed to be isolated for a few weeks and I could only be with her for a half hour a day because she was still radioactive. So I would go in a pick her up and comfort her for 5 minutes every hour or so. My wife was visiting with me (we are separated) and we went in to pat her and keep her company and then we went to supper and when we came back in an hour she was lying in a pool of water and blood and was dead.

It was so shocking because I had told Scooty that all the tests and the procedures and driving had been worth it because she was going to be OK and she was going to have a great quality of life for the remainder of her years and then she died a few hours later. Completely unexpected and no one knows why - none of the doctors or specialists who saw her can give me an answer. I had to buy a cooler and ice to put her little body in because she can't be cremated for 3 months because of the procedure. I am left with my precious kitty lying in a cooler in my room while I wait for the vets office to send someone way down here from Santa Cruz.

I am devastated and I am lonely and I am so, so sad. My beautiful, sweet and gentle Scooty did not deserve this kind of ending.

She was an amazing cat - she was the light of my life and the calming force.

My heart aches.

I will always remember her - but I just don't have enough tears to cry for her.

I just don't have enough tears.

Rest in peace my dear sweet girl - I miss you so, so much. I love you and I will always love you.

[slick]

Scott:
First off I'd like to welcome you to Pet Talk. I'm so sorry that your first post has to be such a sad one. All of us here understand the pain that's felt when a furbaby makes the trip to the Bridge but under your circumstances, I can only imagine the confusion and heartache that lies within your soul.

I believe that Scooty must have been needed for a very special task at the Bridge for this to happen. She is now running around painfree and enjoying the warm sunshine and sweet grasses of the Rainbow Bridge. She has not left you....she watches over you for all eternity, until you meet again.

RIP sweet Scooty. You are, to say the least, a real beauty!

[Uabassoon]

Your post brought tears to my eyes. Even though I never met Scooty, your story and her photo are enough for me to know that she truly was a special cat. Scooty lived a wonderful 14 years with a wonderful owner who cared and loved her so much. Scotty will now wait for you at the rainbow bridge where she will look over you and hope that you don't worry too much because she is well now.

[rg_girlca]

Scott, I am so sorry that your first post had to be such a heartbreaking one. Your story brought tears to my eyes also, as I understand all too well about losing the one that connects with us on a different level.

Your Scooty was a beautiful girl. I pray and hope that you find comfort and peace in the fond memories you made together.

Rest in Peace dear Scooty, you were dearly loved and will never be forgotten.

[moosmom]

Scott,

I am so very sorry to hear about Scooty's passing. She was a beautiful girl! You are in my thoughts and prayers.

[Karen]

Scooty was a much-loved kitty, and just shines with beauty in her picture.

Rest in peace, pretty. pretty kitty, and Scott, know that you will see her again someday, happy and whole, at the Rainbow Bridge.

Until then, she will always be with you, curled up in a corner of your heart, purring to comfort you when most you need it.

[Beauty17]

I don't usually go to Memorials, for some reason - but something drew me to open this one. I am so, so sorry for your loss, and after so much ordeal, followed by so much hope. I have a very special spot in my heart for blackies. You did what you thought was the very best for your cat, and you have nothing to scold yourself or doubt yourself for. Sometimes there are just mysteries in life - life itself, death itself - mysteries. I am so sorry, too, that you cannot achieve closure in respectfully disposing of her earthly remains, and that you have to wait. I understand your grief. I hope you don't add to it with any self blame. I care.

[emily_the_spoiled]

Scott, I am so sorry to read about Scotty. You can not blame yourself for anything. You did what you thought was best so the two of you would have many more years together. Unfortunately she was needed at the RB for something else. She will be waiting for you and looking over you for the rest of your life..

[Barbara]

Scott I am so sorry for Scooty's passing.
I think it is easier if you know the time is there- but going to think the treatment would help and then she dies.... I have tears in my eyes.
I hope one day you will be able to remember the 14 years you had each other without crying.

[Medusa]

Scooty was a cutie and she's now at peace and well and happy. A candle flame burns for her and you and prayers of love and sympathy are on their way from me and all the fur posse.

Blessings,
Mary

[Scott]

Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers - the kindness you have shown me has helped me get through this devastating experience. I think this has been especially hard for me because of the horrible turn of events and the fact that I live alone and do not have children . . . Scooty was my child and I loved her very, very much - she was always by my side. When I have healed a little I am going to write a song for her, publish it and donate all the proceeds to a shelter - in this way I can honor her life a little. Right now I need to stop beating myself up with the "what ifs" "what did I miss" and "could I have done something different". I also need to stop replaying that awful moment when I discovered her.

Thank you all once again.

[persianmom]

I'm sorry for your lost. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

[Kirsten]

Scott, this is a wonderful experience that you had! I'm not a religious person either, but I wouldn't rule out things like that. In fact, I believe that it may be possible.

I knew that after I lost Katz, there were one or two occasions when I thought she (= her energy) was around. Like you and Scooty, we had a very strong bond, and why should death be the end of it? There's a lot of comfort in that thought, isn't it?

Kirsten

[bobtail]

Scott, I am saddened to read about your losing Scooty. I want you to know that your wonderful tribute is uplifting somebody. Your words are helping me to go through my losing my own Pauline just two weeks ago, which I posted about in this section of Cat of the Day. What you say about Scooty coming into your life and giving you so much warmth and friendship, a cat that is both pet and friend, speaks to me utterly. I know exactly what you mean about a special cat taking you to that extra level. We love all of our animals, but the sweetness and spark of some of them, just like people, is really something extraordinary. You have a listener, friend, and I am so thankful for your eloquence in your time of grief. I can tell that you had an incredible connection. If tears come, let them flow. Go as slow as you can and as you need, right now. You gave a great, great deal to Scooty and I am sure it was right for you two to have met and had so much time together. I am glad you had many years with Scooty, I believe all the happiness you received was a blessing on your life.