Sigh...
I'm sitting here...alone (well not really, there a lot of critters of the 4 legged variety hanging out, asleep mostly lol) eating lunch. I'm depressed because over the past couple of months, Ive spent nearly 24/7 with John (I worked with him for a while, too) I have no friends...not of my own anyhow. They all want to see John and want not much to do with me. I'm a girl, so his guy friends don't like hanging out with me and Im too much of a tomboy for girls to really like me. John got a new job and I had to quit because I wasnt getting enough hours to justify the commute (with gas prices being so high). I'm looking for another job now, but Im trying to find something I like (Jumping into jobs out of desperation has gotten me into lots of trouble) and it takes time. John works up to 10 hours a day, day or night and sometimes weekends (he's working for a general contractor) so I have lots of time alone. Ive only been doing this for two days and it has me practically in tears. I wish I had someone to even talk to. Im really shy and meeting new people is hard. I was thinking about voulenteering somewhere, just to get out of the house. John is happy as a clam working again in a field he likes and I don't want to seem like Im holding him back at all.
Am I beeing needy? I've been depressed a lot lately (lots of things going on with family). John says I should be happy to have a break, being since I was the one working for a long long while. Sigh...
I just needed to vent I guess. I haven't been alone for a long time.
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