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Today I had planned on visiting Ivy before I had to go to work and take his best friend Scooter with me to see him, hopefullly to cheer him up and make him want to eat. I got up real real early and was feeding the others when I got a phone call and the number was the vet;s. My heart stopped beating as I answered it thinking I was going to hear that Ivy had died. She said that Ivy had gotten much weaker and that he was anemic now and that he probably wouldn't last the day. So I hurried up and finished feeding and got dressed without taking a shower and drove to go get Scooter. Ivy and Scooter live with a friend because they are FIV+. I was crying hsyterically as I drove. I stopped at the drug store hoping they would have drayola molding clay so i could get imprints of his paw. They didn't and I was scared to go and where else because I was afriad i would be too late. So I picked Svooter up and went to the vet. She immediately put me in a room and brought ivy out. I got out his favorite blanker of my friend's and the two little pillows that we always laid our heads on side by side on my friend's bed. When they brought him out I put him on it with his head on his pillow. He was so weak he couldn't even lift his head or hardly move. he did flick the very tip of his tail as i held him and talked ot him. he was barely purring but was too weak even to do his kneading. I got Scooter out and he laid beside Ivy and cleaned him and kissed him and rubber his head against him. I laid my head on the pillow next to him and we laid there all three of us like we ususally do when we take naps together. We spent time visiting and I told Ivy how much I loved him and how much Scooter loved him and we were going to miss him and we didn't want him to leave us. I could tell he was getting worse as the visit went on. Ivy was "my little Ivy boy" he was one of a kind and he was my heart. he was so special to me. he could always lie down beside me and no matter what was wrong he would make me feel better. No other one could do that. I don't know what I will do now that he is gone. As our visit went on I could tell he didn't have much time. I told the vet I wanted a few more minutes with him before she put him to sleep. I told Ivy that it was ok if he left. I dind't want him to died but I didn't want my Ivy to stay because he flet he couldn't leave me. She said she would be back in a few minutes. but before she could come back Ivy died in my arms. I am lost, heart broken and I don't know how to go on without him. I have cried all day at work. before they took him Scooter kissed him and rubbed his head and said goodbye and I kissed him and hugged him and told him I loved him. I took Scooter home and as soon as i let him out the carrier he started looking evrywhere for Ivy and crying. It broke my heart all over again. Those two were so close. I have to go back to get my paw impressions before they cremate him. it is going to be soooo hard.
Melissa
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