Ok,here we go, I left PT on a very BAD note for everyone. For those that don't know me, that is good, but I'm sure you will dislike me soon.
I came back here in April of last year and stayed for few months. But found I was doing the samething I done before. I hurt a lot of people before and decided I would just leave for good. And just sneak out of here with out hurting anyone.
Well, over the last few months, something has been bothering me. Something very bad, and I know I hurt a very dear person here at Pet Talk. She always stood behind me 100% even the last few days unfolded the first go around. I had told so many lies here, but still she stood behind me and took up for me best she could. Now I have very mush betrayed her. I don't think she is a member or very rarley comes here anymore.
When I was asked about my pets when I came back here. I told people Ginger had passed on. That was a lie. She ran off and we could not find her. Finally, few months later my parents ended find her about 3 miles from there home. Tell you the truth I figured she was either long gone, or dead. I never thought we would see her again. But she is with us and very happy & healthy.
I know in the past I done the stuff I did just get attention. I don't know if it was just because, I felt so alone a lot of times, or I just liked that people were feeling sorry for me. I have come to realize I have lot of problems. I have a lot of mental problems I know. I'm nothing but a pathological liar, because I started to believe some of the lies. I wanted someone to pay attention to me, feel sad for me, be happy for me. I am trying get help for this.
I think this is one big step for recovery. I am sure I will be banned from here. Which I will totally understand on Karen & Paul's part. I just had to tell you all the truth.
Take care all, I will not be back.
Bookmarks