Randi, I am crying with you. I have been there with my Sylvester Senior. It is so painful and I am so sorry that you have to go through this. Our Lord, who knows all the pain your are feeling right now, He will help you through this painful time. Fister is with your husband at the Rainbow Bridge in Heaven. He missed him so bad and he is happy to be with him. God bless you and may He help heal your broken heart. Please know that there is someone in Saint John, Indiana who is crying with you and you will be in my thoughts and prayers.