Hey guys. It's been a long time since I have posted anything on here. I still browse on occasion. Tonight I'm feeling lonely and I had no where else to turn. It's Labor Day weekend and it seems that everyone is out having fun but me. I recently had a wreck in the car and it is not drivable, so I don't have a way to go anywhere. There is a free fair close to us, the first day was the 30th and the last day is tomorrow. Everyone I know is going, including my boyfriend, who is there right now. He went with his parents, they are partners in a company and are hosting a festival in October. They went to sell t-shirts. He knew I wanted to go and that I wanted to take Nathan, so I feel so left out that they have gone every day and we have sat at home. I understand that he went for business, but it still makes me wonder why I wasn't invited or at least maybe he could have said he wished I could go and then given me the reasons why I couldn't (maybe there wasn't enough room or something like that) Does it sound petty that I'm upset by this? Plus I've barely talked to him, since he's been going early and coming home late. He'll call to let me know he made it home safe, but that's about it. I woke up this morning just feeling sad and out of touch with everyone. And he's not around, so I can't talk to him. And when he calls when he gets home I know he'll be tired so I won't get to really talk to him then either. I just feel like I don't have any friends, I'm so alone and sad and lonely. No one to talk to and I've just sat here and cried all day. I have Nathan, but he is only 6 and I can't talk to him about grown up feelings. I don't feel important, to anyone. I don't feel loved. I feel like everything else comes before me. I just can't get over this sad feeling, it's a deep, aching sadness.
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