Feeling blue....a rant on aging....

[Cookiebaker]

Hi Pters.....I don't know if any of you remember me...its been a long time since I have stopped by. My name is Anna and we have a 10 year old yellow lab/golden retriever mix named Malone. It took a long time, but Malone has worked out to be the best dog ever....so dependable, loyal, mellow and lovable. Lately, it just seems like his health is declining and it makes me SO SAD.

A couple of years ago, Malone & I got in the habit of walking 15 miles a week.....but earlier this summer, I noticed that he just can't keep up on the hills, and he quickly tired on our long walks. I started to leave him home more often and just take him on leisurely walks. Even just laying around at home, you can tell he is creaky when he gets up after a long sleep. Don't get me wrong, he still gets a burst of energy and playful every once in a while, but definitely not the way he was even just a year ago. I raised concerns with the vet in June at his annual visit, but she just thought it was normal aging.

Another thing that saddens me is that his hearing is rapidly declining. For example, I noticed that he was *constantly* barking to alarm me that someone was here, but nobody would be here. And then, it hit me, when someone was actually here, he wouldn't here them until they were in the house. He was always barking false alarms because he couldn't actually hear!! He is has a cataract that has formed over one eye, and I'm pretty sure he is nearly blind in that one eye. On top of that, he has ongoing digestive issues - lots of gas, anal glands, and horrible breath.

Yesterday, I had to take Malone to the vet (to the tune of $178) because he has a hot spot on his back that hasn't healed in a couple of weeks. I thought it was the size of a quarter, but after they shaved the area, its about 4 or 5" across. They gave him an injection and an ointment, and a round of antibiotics, so hopefully he will start healing soon.

But, this morning, as he was eating his breakfast, I looked over at him, and I noticed that he has a HUGE lump on his side....visible without feeling it, and I have no idea how we missed it at the vets yesterday, or I am *hoping* it might be a reaction to the shot they gave him???

I feel so helpless, and now I am really scared about this lump. How do you deal with the effects of aging? It is so hard to just sit by and watch!! And I know that it shouldn't be about the money, but I am feeling scared at what the vet bills are going to be to properly take care of this lump, especially after the bill from yesterday.

Thanks for listening to my moan......I love this pup with all my heart, and it hurts to think that he is getting older every day.

[moosmom]

Cookiebaker,

I am so sorry to hear about Malone. It sounds like age is creeping up on him. Maya Linn has a bump on her back from her rabies shot. The vet won't lance it and biopsy it because it'll spread

Having a pet is a big responsibility. When the bills start, you always seem to come up with it one way or another. It's what we do.

You and Malone will be in my thoughts and prayers. All you can do is keep him as comfortable as he ages gracefully.

[pomtzu]

Unfortunately, our fur kids age much to soon it seems, but there really isn't anything we can do about it. I just live life with my 2 who have serious health issues, in as normal a way as possible. If I dwell on their issues, I would constantly be in tears, and they would also pick up on my sadness. Obviously I don't want that - I want them to stay happy. Myndi is 16 1/2: has aging kidneys that don't work as well as they once did, has arthritis in her lower spine and rear legs, luxating patella in both knees, a mild heart murmur., and cataracts. She can no longer go up and down stairs or jump up on the bed for furniture, or walk on slippery floors without all 4 legs going out from under her in different directions. She almost died 2 summers ago from an intestinal bleed, but fortunately I caught it in time, got her to the vet, and she bounced back in just a few weeks. In spite of all that isn't right with her, she is still a spunky and alert little girl who loves her people and just has to be right in the middle of everything. She is on special prescription food for her kidneys and takes pain meds for her arthritis, and she still sees well even with the cataracts.

Sparky is 13 1/2, and his condition is much worse than Myndi's He also has luxating patella in one knee and arthritis in his lower spine, tho this doesn't affect him as much since he can still do stairs and jump up on things. However, his heart murmur is much more severe than hers, and he is in CHF, and he could be gone in a heartbeat. He takes diuretics and blood pressure meds, but still coughs a lot, and even fainted once early this summer. He goes back to the vet again on Friday, so I'm hoping she can add another diuretic that will be more affective. I don't know how much longer he will be with me, but I try to be positive. He still enjoys life and is alert with a good appetite, so I just have to take it one day at a time.

As far as that lump - both Myndi and Sparky have them, and it would be my guess that Malone's are the same -- just harmless fatty deposits which are very common when dogs start to age. Does it feel soft and squishy? Your vet can do a fine needle aspiration (cheap-around $20-$25) and tell you right away if that's what it is. They can pop up rather suddenly and can be quite big - Sparky has one on his side, and Myndi's is more between her side and her belly. If they aren't in an area that will interfere with the dogs everyday movements, then the vet will probably just recommend to leave it there without removal. And yes - it could be a reaction to the shot, too.

Hope this has helped you some.. Try to stay positive and just give Malone all the lovins that he wants and I'm sure that he deserves! Keep us posted, please.

[mon]

I know it's heartbreaking honey. Old age and death are as natural as life. Coping with the cost and sadness however is to dig deep. Aww, so sorry you are going through this, it is unavoidable unfortunately. A lot of us truly know about the cost, and the agony When I had to put Shadowman down, the vet literally phoned me at home and insisted it was time. When I got there I took him back to the car and told my husband NO WAY. No, not today. Well I'm strong, really no drama queen, but he sent the vet out to tell me it was the humane thing to do and that his heart was so damaged from a birth defect that it was a miracle he'd even lived till 14 yrs. old. He was one tough dude. My point is, they may put us through hell and drive us to the precipice of madness but I wouldn't have missed it for the world. At the end of the day, it was SO worth it and I'd do it all again in a nanosecond. Hang in there honey

[lolli94]

Awww! I'm sorry!

[Alysser]

Oh my gosh, do I know what you're going through. It is awful that pets do not live as long as we do. It's never a good thing to experience. I'm sorry Malone is starting to feel his age.

[Freedom]

If your vet is still open (this being Saturday some only do a half day), give a call and see if you can run him back in and not pay for a second office visit. Usually they are good about this stuff. Even say you don't know if it is just a reaction to the shot, and you need to have it checked. They shouldn't charge you for that!

Yup, tough watching our loved ones age - furkids, pawrents, I got it both ways.

[FurkidsMom]

I remember w/my old girl Mickey when her hearing, sight and stamina were going. It's so hard to go to that place where you realize they are moving on. My thoughts are w/you.