First of all, let me tell you how sorry I am that you lost Rachel. I lost my Mommy this year, and it's very painful to me also. Second, tell Chris that I really admire him for taking you into his home and his life; he's really trying to be good to you, and I'm sure he misses Rachel very much also. I hope you two guys can get through your mourning period; at least you have each other. Take care.