He was 4 months old here..

I know the picture is blurry, but it's my favorite one, and it's in a crystal frame..

His name is Evinrude Smudge, Smudgie for short... He is 10 and his bowel and bladder have given out...

So in ten minutes I'll be calling the vet to make an appointment for this afternoon... I've cut off a bit of his fur, and am going to do a Rainbow Bridge Memorial to him and have it mounted on particleboard.

I hardly slept last night, and my eyes are so sore from crying... who knew tear ducts don't dry out?



Today is going to be a very rough day... Please let me hold your virtual hands...