Roxy.

I typed this out before I got here, because I knew that if I got to the library and started talking about it, I would start crying... So, here it is.

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Roxy; November 16, 2001 - July 1, 2010

I never thought I'd be sitting in Dog Memorial typing this anytime soon. I figured it would be a long, long time before I would have to visit this section again to post about the loss of one of my girls.

But here I am, and my heart is absolutely aching, still.

It's been two weeks since we had to have Roxy put to sleep, but I never ever thought it would be happening. I knew she was getting old and she was bound to have health problems, but I never expected them to spring up so suddenly.

Having her put to sleep was the hardest decision I think that I've ever had to make. I was so afraid I was giving up on her, but as I looked at her, I knew that it was time. She didn't know who we were, she didn't respond to her name, and she didn't respond to food. That was always a sign something was up with her, she loved to eat.

So, I just want to say a few words to Roxy, in hopes that she knows how true every single one of them was.

Roxy,

July 24, 2002. We went to the animal shelter, expecting to get a Yorkie. Well, the Yorkie had been returned to his owners. I was a little sad at first. When we had first been to the shelter the previous Friday, or maybe it was Saturday, you were sitting there in your cage, looking all happy at all the people that passed you by, hoping one of them would love you and take you home. I smiled at you, thinking you were a cute dog. As we walked down the rows of cages the Monday that we came back, there you sat. You looked up at us, grinning. My mom looked at me and I looked at her. They had already named you Roxy and she said, “Would you like to take Roxy home with us?” I nodded enthusiastically and you got spayed the next day. You were on your last day, if we hadn't been there, you would have been put to sleep the next day. If I could go back to that day and do it all over again, knowing what I know now and knowing that I would lose you after nearly eight years, I would do it in a heartbeat.
From the moment we brought you in the door, I knew that you were special. You were going to be my dog. And you were. I called you my soulmate and you lived up to that title till you were gone. You taught me so much. You taught me how to love, you taught me how to laugh, and you always could make me smile. I learned so much from you, Roxy. I became a better pet owner, and learned many new things that I would never have found without you.
We grew up together. I have so many simple memories that now I look back on and smile. I smile through the tears, knowing that I'll never get to see you smile again and I'll never get to watch you beg for a treat. I remember the days when you would take my stuffed animals and carry them through the house. You'd look at us sneakily as you walked through the living room and we would only laugh. You never chewed them, you treated them very well. I remember how you would sit on the porch and let me dress you in clothes and paint your toenails. You were such a good girl, you were always so gentle. People were afraid of you because of your size and your bark, but you would have only rolled over for them to rub your belly if they dare come towards you. I remember when we used to bring you into the house and you would lay at my feet as I perused the internet. At night when I lay down to go to sleep, you would cuddle against my side. You kept me warm in the winter and kept me company when I was lonely. I remember the time you ate a puppy pad and then your stomach didn't agree with that, thank god, and you threw it back up. Good job, goofus. I remember how you used to get excited when we would pull into Pappy's driveway. You were always happy to see me and happy that we were going to feed you. You barked at me until I brought your food and water out to you and I would only laugh. You happy barked at me every day. I miss your happy bark, so much. I remember you laying at my feet and snoring. You had the cutest snore. I remember our walks to the duck pond and how you loved to sit and stare at the ducks, probably pondering how to get them to come closer so you could eat one for breakfast. You used to love going on walks. We would take a rest and you would sit contentedly with me, and we were happy. I remember when I was younger, we would go riding on my bicycle. You pulled me up the road and we always got our exercise. You also loved car rides. You'd hang your head out the window and your little dog tag would tinkle in the wind. I also remember the time we took you to the park and then took you to Dairy Queen and bought you an ice cream cone. One would have expected you to take the cone and inhale it like you did most food, but you licked it ever so daintily, one little lick at a time. I remember how much you loved to eat. If I had let you, you probably would have eat anything that didn't eat you first. You loved Beggin' Strips, you loved when we fed you a raw diet, and you loved Doritos. You weren't supposed to have them, but of course we snuck you one every time we could. I remember your sweet brown eyes, your favorite spot to be rubbed on your belly, and your soft ears. I remember everything about you, Roxy girl, but I miss it more than you could ever possibly know.
You were my heart and my soulmate. My heart will always hold a place for you, and my back soon will too when I get a tattoo in your memory. We spent nearly eight years together, we went through some great times and some bad times. But I wouldn't change any of it for the world. You were my best friend, my listener, and you gave sweet, slobbery kisses on my cheek. I miss you so much. As time goes on, I thought it would be easier coping with your absence, but instead of easier, it's only becoming harder. I'm afraid I'm going to forget what you looked like or forget the sound of your happy bark. I'm afraid I'm going to forget what the color of your eyes were or the way your fur felt. I never thought I'd wake up and lose you. I never thought that yesterday would have been the last time I was going to see you happy and healthy. I never thought it would be the last time I would have to feed you, the last time I would ever hear you bark, the last time I ever saw you smile. But now you're gone and I'm so lost without you. Sometimes we drive out to Pappy's and I get excited knowing that I'm going to see you, but then I remember that you're gone. It's going to take a long time to remember that you're not here. I feel like I'm stuck in a dream and when I wake up, it's going to be over. You're going to be here, happy, smiling, and I'm going to get to tell you how much I love you and how much I missed you. But that day isn't going to come; you're really gone and you're really not coming back.
So, all I can say is this: I love you. I always have and I always will. You are always, always, always in my heart, and I miss you so much. If I could do it all over again, I would. I would give anything to spend just another day with you. We would do all of your favorite things and I would tell you how much I loved you. Someday, we'll meet again. I'll see your warm brown eyes, your sweet smile, and I will watch your face light up as you happy bark and run to meet me. Until then, take care. Play hard, eat till your tummy's about to burst, and run free. Live as you did when you were happy and healthy and alive. And most importantly, know how much I love you. I promise you that I always will. Give my love to Tink, Aunt Barbara, Nanny, and all of the other pets and family who I've loved and lost. I love you, Roxy. And I'll see you again.

Love always,
Bri

ETA: Forgot to add this.
To Roxy

Oh, dear. Rest in peace, Roxy, you made such a huge difference in Bri's life, and your legacy of love and caring will live on forever.

So sad to hear you have left us, pretty girl, but up at the Rainbow Bridge, join the group of doggies and play, play, play until that day when you are reunited.

Bri, I am so sorry for your loss. May beautiful Roxy, RIP. We know you loved her and I truely know how you feel. :love: I hope my white fluff greeted you up there and may you forever run free at the RB pretty girl.

RIP sweet Roxy, and peace and comfort to you, Bri.

I am in tears. Reading your beautiful words to a beautiful pup. I was really hoping it wasn't your Roxy when I saw the name here. I have that lump in my throat when you hold back tears. I am so very sorry. :(

RIP Roxy

Dear Bri, my heart just dropped when I saw the title of this thread. Big (((HUGS))) to you. I am so sorry.

Thinking of you,
Elyse

Oh Bri, I'm so sorry to be reading this. Your words to Roxy and about Roxy just made me cry.

I hope that you will find solace in knowing she's in no pain, and that you will see her again, one fine day.

HUGS to you, sweetie.

All of us here have grown to know and love Roxy. Bri, my heart fell out of my chest when I clicked to see it was your girl. How sad it must be for you. You worked so hard to get your Mom to accept her and treat her better. My hat goes off to you again and I send hugs to you to help you get through this. I know Lily is wondering what happened to her big sister. Please give her kisses for me. I'll pray that God gives you the strength you'll need to go on with your life, Bri. {{{{{HUGS}}}}}

Rest In Peace Beautiful Roxy :( Run Free and Play Hard at the Bridge Sweet Girl :(

Oh my!!.. definitely not what I wanted to see in a Roxy thread...I´m so sorry... she sure was a special girl and will always be remembered not only by you but many many of us...

beautiful words Bri.. truly from the heart.. I´m sure Roxy is smiling at you wagging his goofy tail until you all meet again..

((hugs))

Roxy was on her last day at the shelter - you and your mom gave her a new life. Sadly, even that life had to end. :(

She was a loved, happy doggie. She will play at the Bridge and she knows how much you loved her. :love::love:

{{{hugs}}}

Oh no.:( I'm so sorry about Roxy Bri.:( Our furkids just don't stay with us long enough on this earth. Roxy is happy at the Rainbow Bridge. One day, you'll see her again. {{{hugs}}

My heart dropped before I clicked this and I was praying it wasn't your girl. :( I am so sorry, Bri. My heart goes out to you. I know how much she meant to you and how much Roxy loved you. You will see her again someday. (((hugs)))

Beyond The Rainbow

As much as I loved the life we had and all the times we played,
I was so very tired and knew my time on earth would fade.
I saw a wondrous image then of a place that's trouble-free
Where all of us can meet again to spend eternity.

I saw the most beautiful Rainbow, and on the other side
Were meadows rich and beautiful -- lush and green and wide!
And running through the meadows as far as the eye could see
Were animals of every sort as healthy as could be!
My own tired, failing body was fresh and healed and new
And I wanted to go run with them, but I had something left to do.

I needed to reach out to you, to tell you I'm alright
That this place is truly wonderful, then a bright Glow pierced the night.
'Twas the Glow of many Candles shining bright and strong and bold
And I knew then that it held your love in its brilliant shades of gold.

For although we may not be together in the way we used to be,
We are still connected by a cord no eye can see.
So whenever you need to find me, we're never far apart
If you look beyond the Rainbow and listen with your heart.

Oh Bri I'm so sorry for your loss. Rest in peace, Roxy :(

I am so sorry for your loss. Your tribute to your soulmate was beautiful and I'm sure she knew just how much you loved her.

Robin

Oh Bri, I am so so sorry for your loss of miss Roxy..:( She was such a sweet dog, and was obviously very loved by you. She will be missed. Play hard at the bridge Roxy.

{{{{HUGS}}}}

PS, you're new signature is beautiful.

Wow Bri so sorry!
Do you know what was wrong?

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I'm so sorry for your loss. :(

I just wanted to send a huge thank you and major hugs to everyone that sent kind words for my girl.

I'm sorry it's taken me so long to get back to this thread.

I also want to thank all of you who ever educated me on the better things I could do for Roxy. If it weren't for this forum, I would have never learned many of the things I did and many of the things I got to experience with Roxy.

So, I thank you all deeply. :love:

Aw crap.

im so sorry Bri. =/

the part where you mention hoping about not forgetting what she looks like. what her barks sound like an stuff got to me... *hugs to you*

at least shes no longer in this pot hole of a world an in a much better place now.

best of wishes to you
an take care

I am so sorry about Sweet Roxy,Bri.She lived a very loved life with you.
I am so sorry.
(((HUGS)))
Rest in Peace Roxy:(

Thank you guys.

Time is helping, but it's still not easy. I don't think it'll ever be easy.

My friend got me a stuffed dog for my birthday, she's brown with floppy ears (kind of like Roxy) and she has a little adoption certificate and everything and her name is Roxina. My mom cried and all I could do was smile. It was a sweet gift.

I visit Roxy's grave every day, or if I don't walk up to her grave I always look up there and tell her I love her and miss her. She's buried in my grandpa's backyard in one of the holes she began digging that she loved to lay in. I'll try and post a pic of her grave with the pretty flowers on it when I get a chance.

I am so sorry I didn't see this until now Bri! I am so sorry for your loss. Roxy was such a special part of our PT pups in the last few years. I am truly sorry. :( She will be forever loved and missed.

((((hugs))))

I saw this before, but I've been just too emotional to reply till now, my apologies for being tardy.

I am tremendously sorry for your loss. I've lost 6 of my fur kids over the last few years, but to loose my Sasha was completely heartbreaking, she was my heart girl, as Roxy was yours.

Take heart in knowing she's at the Bridge and all is well with her. She's now your guardian angel and will be there, watching over you, for the rest of your life. Talk to her when you need to, she'll be listening.

Roxy dearest dogger, I hope you've had opportunity there to meet my Sami and Sasha doggies. Keep an eye on Miss Bri, she misses you and will need your watchful eye over the years.

Dear Bri, pardon our lateness in commenting - don't get over here as often, but when I saw Roxy's name, my heart sank. You gave her such a good life, I know its heart-breaking to have to say goodbye, especially when you weren't expecting that s soon. (Been there-done that way too many times!)

She'll be up there playing at the Bridge till you come for her one day. I think it was very sweet of you to bury her in one of her very own holes in your Grandpa's yard - sounds like the perfect spot for her. ;)

Sooo sorry to read this. My heart goes out to you. I know how it feels to have a dog not last as long as you think they should. I hope your heart heals eventually. PT is here for you. Rest in lovely peace Roxy <3

I don't visit PT often anymore, but when I saw this thread I had to come and see. Roxy was so loved, and so lucky to have you. I remember you fighting to do what was best for her against the wishes of your parents, and I always admired you for that. Roxy was such a special pooch. Play hard at the bridge dear one.

My deepest sympathy on your loss.

Tomorrow will have been 2 months since I lost my pretty brown-eyed girl.

It doesn't feel like it's even been two months. It's a little easier now. I can look back on the memories and smile at how Roxy was full of life and how she was always happy.

It's still hard though and I know now that it won't get any easier.

I know my girl is up there playing hard at the Rainbow Bridge, probably hanging out with Tink and probably playing with some fellow PT dogs and cats. And I know she's not in pain and that she's eating and happy and young again.

So, Roxy, two months without you has been really hard, but I know you're okay.

Love you and miss you, sweet girl.

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I've been thinking about Roxy a lot lately, as well as my grandpa. I think about one of them and almost always think about the other. Losing my heart dog in July of 2010, felt like everything around me was completely and utterly awful. I'd never had to have a dog put to sleep, and it was killing me because she was my Roxy, my sweet beautiful girl. She was supposed to live a long happy life and die of old age, not like this. Then a few months later, my grandpa was diagnosed with stomach cancer and then he too, was also gone from my life.

I always thought the pain of losing my heart dog and one of the most important people in my life would slowly ease to a dull throbbing ache in my heart, but sometimes it seems much worse than that. It hurts so bad sometimes, remembering how I can't hug Roxy or hear her happy bark, or call my grandpa on the phone and tell him about my grade I made on an exam or some other random trivial thing in my life.

I never thought I'd miss the small things so much. But that's probably the things that I miss the most.

My grandpa's house is currently on the market, seeing as no one in our family can afford it or can purchase it. I go and look at the listing and tear up knowing that I have to leave Roxy behind, buried in the backyard where she was happy, or knowing that I have to leave my memories.

I know that Roxy and pappy will always, always be with me, but it just hurts to have to leave that tangible place and Roxy's tangible grave behind.

It's been 9 months since losing Roxy and 6 since losing my grandpa, and it still hurts almost every day. Time is supposed to heal the pain, but to me it only seems to make me wish they were here more. I'm afraid of forgetting the little things.

Still loving you both and missing you always. :love:
ETA: I was looking back through my old Youtube videos and found this. It's from FIVE years ago, and that seems like such an eternity, when it's truly not...
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It hurts for a long time and the missing them, well, I think that never ends. :( Roxy is in your heart forever Bri.:love: It will get a bit easier in time.
I lost my Lacey same time, July 2010. :( {{{hugs}}}

I didn't post about this on the exact day, but I was certainly thinking of my Roxy girl in the back of my mind.

July 1, 2011 has been a year since you were put to sleep, my mutt mutt. I can't believe it's been that long. My heart still misses you and loves you, but I know you're happy and that pappy is up there taking care of you and loving you because I can't yet.

July 24, 2011 would have been your ninth Gotcha day. Nine long years since that fated day at the shelter when I met my brown-eyed soulmate.

I still miss you my sweet girl, and I will love you always. Play hard and rest well. :love:

:( (((((((((HUGS))))))))) sniff.......sniff.......sobs.......tears.........: (